Beneath Her Darkness: The Alpha's Little Demon by Cassandra M novel Chapter 149

149 - Embracing Who I Am

LUCIUS.

"How are you doing, Lucius?"

Petra’s voice came out soft, and I was not able to stop my head from snapping in her direction, Was it her asking me? I stared at her for a few seconds before her eyebrows raised and she pushed a forkful of meat into her mouth.

My eyes focused on her plump lips as she chewed her food slowly, and I felt a thirst I hadn’t felt in along time, and it made me lose my sense of time.

"Was my question that hard?" She asked again after she was done chewing her meat, her eyes not leaving mine.

A smirk formed on my mouth before I licked my lips and shifted my body slightly in her direction, my hand still holding my fork.

"I thought you didn’t want to hear anything about the underworld?"

"Well, I thought I asked about you, and not the underworld." She emphasized the 'you'.

"They’re the same thing. I and the underworld can’t be separated."

"I see.It’s okay if you don’t want to talk.I was just being polite as we sat next to each other."

"How have you been, Patrea?"

I knew I didn’t need to ask.I’d been watching her from day one, and I knew she was adjusting well to her new life.I had no idea if I had this obsession or craving to see her, but somehow checking on her had become a part of my routine.

The coin made it possible to track her without having to lower my guard and beg Stone for her whereabouts.So my brother-in-law had no idea I'd been stalking the witch for months now.

"Seriously, Lucius? You’re asking me when you ignored my question?"

She glared at me as she spoke in a hushed, angry tone.I missed that, her, glaring and snapping at me.

"I was just being polite as we sat next to each other," I repeated her words before pretending to eat.

"Unbelievable," she said in a frustrated voice, and I knew! should make up for it, but I didn't.

I would have said many things, but there were people around, and with these shifters’ excellent hearing, I was sure my words would be scrutinized.

I will have to wait — until I find the right time, until I get the courage to speak to her again, and until 1 am ready for her rejection.

But until then, I would just go on living my life, venting my sexual frustration on the females who were willing to submit and throw themselves at my feet.

But one day, I would come for her and take that one night I earned.

Besides, no one has ever made a deal with a demon and gotten away with it.

LUCY.

The night couldn’t turn out more perfect than it already was.

After we ate dinner, we stayed a little longer, and I opened all the gifts that were given to me.

I never had so much in my whole life that I ended up laughing and crying at the same time, too overwhelmed by the attention I was getting.

These people really loved me, and I couldn’t help but feel blessed.

Everyone was surely having fun, especially when we began dancing the night away while the pups were resting in a private room on the second floor of the building.

But we didn’t stay too late, as Adan wanted to wait for midnight just alone with me.

The rest of our families headed home to the estate after the party, except for Mom and Dad, who volunteered to watch over Aiden tonight.

They stayed with us at the packhouse, as we did not want Aiden too far away in case he played with his fire.

Stella, Adessa, Patrea, and Althea were also staying for the night so we could all have breakfast on my birthday before they could proceed with their day tomorrow.

After we had gone home, Adan asked if he could have an hour with his Beta and Gamma, so I went to our room alone after I checked on the sleeping Aiden.

I was almost at the door when I saw Althea leaning on the wall in the corridor.

"Althea, you’re still awake."

"I just thought I would ask something as I can’t sleep yet."

"Sure, let’s go inside."

I motioned for her to follow me inside our suite, and we went to the receiving area and sat on the couch.

"Is everything okay? How is school?"

"It’s perfect, I am enjoying the university.Although I occasionally get lost due to the fact that I did not attend high school, it is nothing that magic cannot fix."

She covered her mouth with her hand as she softly giggled.She was smiling, but her eyes were showing otherwise.

"I’m glad to hear you’re having fun! You should enjoy it! But anyway, is there anything you want to know?" I already had a notion of why she was here, but I wanted to wait to be sure.

"Is it true? Is Blade back?"

She bit her bottom lip as she waited for my response.

"Yes.He’s gone back to his own pack."

"So it’s true Alpha Fabian is dead."

"Yes, he is."

I let out a sigh.

"Did Blade mention something about the mark? If he would remove it now? I know there’s probably a lot of things going on with him right now, but I was just wondering if removing the mark was part of his plan."

"Do you want it removed, Althea?"

She nodded her head before she replied, "Yes."

"I understand."

I was about to say something, but she spoke right away.

"To be honest, I don’t mind the mark at all.During full moons, Patrea would put me to sleep when it hit me, and besides, the pain wasn’t as bad as the first full moon.But there's this guy, I think I like him, and..."

"And?" I asked, my lips twitching into a teasing smile.

"I'm holding myself back because of the mark."

"You don’t want to hurt Blade."

"I’m not sure how painful it would be, but Lena mentioned before that it is painful.So..."

"I’m sure we can figure out a way to inquire about that with Blade.Just give me some time, as he is surely busy rehabilitating his pack, but of course, I will help you.I will get the message across."

I smiled warmly at her before I reached for her hand sitting on her lap and squeezed it.

"But tell me about this guy you like.Is he your classmate?"

Althea and I chatted for a while before she left our suite, and I was left on my own again.I wanted to reach out to Adan, but I knew he would be here if he was not busy.I just needed to be patient.

Ten minutes before midnight.

I opened the terrace door and pulled my robe around my body as I walked towards the railing.

The moon was shining beautifully in a starless sky, with the wind blowing gently against my skin.

In a few more minutes, I would be turning twenty-one.

I had a full life ahead of me, but it felt like I needed this moment for myself.

I let my wings out before my body slowly ascended from the terrace as my wings flapped slowly until I reached the highest part of the roof, where we found Lucius and Aiden weeks ago.

Since that night, Adan and I have frequently visited this location and just gazed upon the vast land in front of us.

This time I decided to face the front of the packhouse, where I could see lights illuminating the houses and the buildings all around this area.

Adan’s territory was really big and prosperous.

Even small businesses thrived here.

My eyes went to the omega quarter.

Only a few windows had lights on them.

When I became the Luna, I visited the quarter and had a dialogue with the females there, and, surprising me, they told me some of the things they were hoping to improve.

After that, I asked Adan to take me to all the Omega quarters we had all over the territory, and I made it my goal to discuss with my females if the things they were requesting were a possibility or not.

Mom was also patient in teaching me about a Luna’s responsibilities but it made my heart soar when Adan would make it a point to tell every decision he had to make and ask for my opinion.

And never did I once feel he was disregarding my suggestions.

He kept true to his words that we would lead this pack side by side, and not just him with me behind him.I was thriving here with my wolves.

And I’m happy about that.

I pulled my knees up and hugged them as I rested my chin on them.

Ever since I was young, I have always wanted to be a wolf and hated my father for my demon part.

But now that I think of it, Adan was right — everything that happened in my mother’s life had led to this, had led to us.

That no matter how I tried to run away from my demon part, it would always come back to haunt me.

I always joked with my mate about how he embraced his demon side so easily, only for him to throw at me that he liked his demon side because I gave it to him.

How could I argue with that? Maybe running away from my demon part for twenty years was enough.

Maybe it was time to accept it and embrace the fact that this is what I was made of.

"A penny for your thoughts?"

Adan’s voice snapped me from my reverie as his feet landed on the roof.He was carrying a big portfolio, which was tucked under his arm.

"What's that?"

I asked as he sat beside me before his arm snaked around my waist as he pressed our sides together.

"Happy Birthday, my love."

He ignored my question and instead greeted me in a loving voice before his face leaned down and caught my lips.

A soft whimper escaped my throat as my arms wrapped around his neck, and I kissed him back with all the love I had for him.

Sparks exploded everywhere in my body as his scent filled my nostrils.

My hands moved down, beneath his shirt, skimming over his skin and brushing against his ripped abs.

The kiss lasted for a while before I pulled away to catch my breath, and Adan’s mouth twitched into a knowing grin.

"I can smell you, Lucy..."

"I wonder how when it’s windy..." I giggled softly before leaning my head on his arm.

"I love you, Adan."

"I love you too." He replied in a low voice before pressing a kiss on the top of my head.

"Are you going to give me mind-blowing sex tonight?"

"Am I not giving you one every time?" He chuckled.

"You do, that’s why I wanted another one tonight.I can’t seem to get enough, Alpha."

"And I will make sure you will get that until you can’t walk in the morning and have to use your power to transfer you from one place to another." I laughed heartily before I nodded my head.

"Perks of being a demon..."

"But before I give you that mind-blowing sex, I want you to have this first."

He took something from beside him that I thought was a portfolio but was actually a photo album.

"What's this?" I asked.

"Open it..."

My heart thudded loudly as I slowly opened the album, and this time, my hunch was right.He found my old photos, the ones I had with Mom and Diego.

"Oh, Goddess, Adan! How did you get them?"

My eyes watered as my hand smoothed over the pictures of my childhood with the two people I missed the most.

"I had no idea what gift to give you since you have everything now — a handsome mate..."

I chuckled at his words, my eyes were blurry, but I tilted my head to look at him, a smile curling on my lips.

Adan was really handsome, especially when he smirked that way.

"Hmmm...true."

"An out-of-this-world pup...A pack who adores you, and a family who loves you."

"And I will always be thankful to my handsome Alpha because you gave me all that."

"The only ones missing are Diego and Everly, so I thought maybe I could find something that they left behind and called Alexa.

She was a gift from heaven.She kept many personal things they found in your home when she went there and couldn’t find you there.She thought maybe one day you would come back and want some of those."

"She is heaven sent..."

"Aside from these photos, she also has some of your stuffed animals and the patch blankets that Everly sewed for you and Diego."

That was it.

I couldn’t stop it anymore as my body was wracked with an onslaught of sobs and tears.

"She kept those? I want those, Adan! Oh, Goddess!" I exclaimed as my emotions started to overwhelm me.

Adan removed the photo album from my grasp before he positioned me on his lap, sitting sideways against his body and coiling his arms around my waist.

"It’s there waiting for you in our bedroom.”

"I had to stay away until midnight, so I won’t reveal it until then."

I nuzzled my nose into the nook of his neck as I hugged him tighter.

"Diego and Everly are the reasons I was so scared to embrace my demon side, Adan.I’m afraid I will never get the chance to see them again.Hug them and say my goodbyes."

"We will figure a way, and I'm sure that with Selene watching over you, over us, we will find answers on what to do.Maybe there are things beyond our knowledge that would make it possible to have both realms when our life on earth is over."

"As long as I’m with you, I will be fine. It is painful that I might not see them, but I knew Mom would understand, the same way her heart failed to function when Diego died.She would understand that I would choose to be with you even in death, even if it meant giving my soul to the underworld."

"I would do the same, Lucy, and I will make sure Everly will never have to worry about you as long as we are together.

We will thread this lifetime together, and the next after this, and the next, until eternal life, whether in the moon or hell."