Bleeding obsession novel Chapter 54

Sarah's pov

I looked at him shocked, I don't know how to react because it all seems so unreal.

He is kidding with me right? He love me, he can't do this to me. This has to be a fucking joke.

Yes, this a joke. I shook my head and looked at him.

"Enough of jokes Xavier... Come, let's celebrate... I don't like this. This is not funny..."

I tried to hold his hand but he jerked it back Scoffing at me.

"Is it looking like a joke to you..."

He stepped back growling at me and I flinched back. He has never talked to me like this, not even in the beginning.

What changed? What happened?

My vision blurred due to tears still I can see hate on his face.

"Why?... Why you are doing this?"

"Because I am not interested in you anymore... You should have listened to people when they said mafia's lose interest in their wives..."

He spat at me hatefully.

It feels like someone is squeezing my heart and throat at the same time. He can't do this to me.

All these months we were living like a happy couple. He wasn't like this. This is not the man whom I loved.

"Don't say this... We can talk about it. We can work it out. Please tell me where I am doing wrong. I can make myself better... Please let's talk... You know how much I love you."

I begged but it doesn't seem to affect him.

"I am not interested... Be a woman and deal with it. You are not the first one who is getting divorced... I am done with you. Don't show me your face again..."

He said firmly and walked inside the mansion.

I know I am not the first one to get divorce but my relationship wasn't fucked up like that. We didn't fight, we didn't argue with each other. We were in love.

If he wanted to leave me then why he  arranged this surprise, why decorating this place, why he gave me these papers in gift wrapper. He kissed me just few minutes ago.

Why Xavier... Why?

I need answers and he have to answer me.

I followed him inside the mansion, he is going upstairs.

"Xavier please stop..."

I ran behind him but guards stopped me at end of the stairs.

"Ma'am you can't go upstairs... It's an order..."

The guard said and I looked at him shocked.

Did he really ordered them to stop me?

I looked up at Xavier who was standing at the top of stairs like he has conquered the world. I can't look in his eyes because the hate is making me feel like I have done something sinful.

"Why?... Why did you do all this?... Are you making fun of my love, my feelings. I loved you Xavier and I need answers. Why..."

I yelled as tears started flowing freely from my eyes.

"Why?... Ask yourself, why I am doing this. You really think I will accept you after everything..."

He scowled at me.

"It was all fake... All that love was an acting, I just needed your body... And I am done with it so I don't need you anymore... Take this arrangements as your farewell, now get out of my house and my life..."

Everything is spinning, was it really fake. He used me. The clicking of heals grabbed my attention and turned around to look at Amanda. My heart broke into million of pieces when I saw her.

She looked at me guiltily and walked upstairs in our room. Our room.

He is really doing this, this is happening in reality. He is not my Xavier. This is not the man whom I loved. He can't be.

"Throw her out..."

He ordered and my eyes snapped towards him.

"You will regret it Xavier... You will regret it and when you will do, I will never forgive you... I won't be there for you anymore..."

"Good because I don't need you anymore... I don't want to see your face again..."

He said and walked towards the bedroom. He smirked at me when he closed the door and my whole world came crashing down on me.

I can't even imagine what is he doing behind that door. Everything is finished.

I lost again to my evil destiny. It was used to play little games with me but this time it made me fell on my face.

I can feel soul leaving my body, everything is numb.

"Ma'am please you need to leave..."

I can hear him talking but my body refused to move.

It feels like I will collapse if I move from my place. He grabbed me by my arm and dragged me outside and couldn't even protest.

This man has finally broke the last part me which was sane.

How dare I to think that I can ever be happy. That I can get love and have a happy life. I was fool to think like this. My whole life is a curse and no one can make it right.

The man I thought is my savior was actually the destroyer of my life and he did it. He broke me. Damaged me beyond repair.

No one wants me in their lives, I am not lovable. I don't deserve love. I don't deserve anything.

"What the fuck are you doing... Leave her..."

I looked up to see angry Ace. He pushed the guard away from me.

"Why dare you touch her..."

He growled.

"Sir, boss has ordered us to show her out..."

He replied and Ace looked at me shocked.

"If you touched her again, I will kill you by myself... Get out..."

He yelled and looked at me.

His eyes roamed on my face on panic.

"Sarah what happened?... Why are you crying... Where is Xavier?"

"Everything is finished Ace... Xavier left me. He doesn't want me in his life anymore. He has gifted me these divorce papers and threw me out... It was lie, everything was a lie. He never loved me..."

I burst out crying while clutching on the papers which I am holding in my hand.

"What?... What the fuck?... Is he crazy..."

Ace looked shocked.

"Wait here... I am going to give him a piece of mind. Just wait, don't go anywhere... Everything will be fine, wait for me..."

He said and ran outside.

No Ace, nothing is going to be alright again. Damage has been done. Now I know my place in his life. It doesn't mean anything to him. I was the only fool who were living in another world.

I will never forgive you for this Xavier, never.

You don't deserve this baby, you don't deserve me and my love. You don't deserve anything from me.

I started walking outside, I don't know where I am going but I want to go away from this place, away from this man. He don't want to see my face, right then fine he will never see it again.

"I hate you Xavier... I hate you..."

I screamed on top of my lungs. I want scream and cry because it's hurting.

Everything is hurting.

My body gave up and I sat down in the middle of the road. Why me? Why me god? Why you have to Play with me like this. Am I that bad.

Just kill me, I am tired of everything. Just end this miserable life.

My eyes widened when I heard the loud horn and sharp flashlight blinded my vision.

The last thing I remember is hard thid against my head and warm liquid flowing from my head as it hit the road.

That's it, I am free. I am leaving this world. Finally God has listened my wish.

Everything went black and silent as I finally closed my eyes and engulfed the darkness.