Caged Between the beta and alpha novel Chapter 63

It was mid-afternoon.

The weather was cool yet the sun was shining brightly and the windows were wide open.

The sound of people shouting, some of the boys playing ball and a few girls laughing in a room down the hall, filled my ears.
If I didn’t know better, I would never have thought such an environment would be shadowed b y the eyes of a killer.
Right now, everything seems so normal.

Raven and I were seated on my bed as I silently observed the girl in front of me.
I don’t mean to be a bitch, but seeing Raven pay so much attention to Liam and literally just ignore Damon was fucking breaking my heart.

At the same time, I wanted to go over to her and shout at her for doing that.
Did she not see that he was fucking hurting? I wish I could just comfort him, but I knew that w e couldn’t just be friends, not with that situation.

Me staying away was for the best.
I felt like I had been cheated too… I remember the first time I told him out loud I wanted him a s my mate, and asked wouldn’t that be great? He had smiled and agreed.
But really? He had a mate already.

On top of that, when the mating ball came and I had run to see him only to discover that we weren’t fated, it broke me.

But still, I held out hope that somehow, we could be together.

I lost the will to even want to find my mate.
Damon was just something special; someone sweet, giving and so loving.

He had a huge heart and I know he fucked up, cause I agree he did, but it didn’t take away from the fact that he was a good person
We were now pondering on the curse once more, I swear I have done so much analysis into this that my head literally had memorised a lot of it.

The book just delved into what we knew, there didn’t seem to be any more clues.

I wanted to break our Alpha free from this curse, because he meant a lot not just to our pack, but to Damon…
Raven was sat opposite, looking through the book once more.

She wore an oversize net top that showed off her dark purple crop top underneath with leggings.
She was a nice girl, I won’t deny that, but I’m still mad at how unfair Damon was getting treated.

Even if she wasn’t doing it on purpose, it was obvious!
“From your notes, it feels like you think the answer lies in Liam.

Like he has to figure it out.” She said, her eyes full of concern.
“That’s what I feel like it’s implying, and Amelia’s message to him with the card.

I feel like she believed he could do this.”
“So, you’re saying that there’s nothing that we can do?” Raven asked, her eyes filled with hurt and worry.
Damn, I felt bad about this entire curse thing, but I honestly think that was somewhat what’s been implied…
“I’m still looking and searching, I’m sure something will come up.” I said comfortingly.
I won’t give up, I’ll keep trying.

She nodded, staring down at the book in her hands.
“Robyn… I know it may be out of line, but did you love Damon?” She asked quietly.
Her question made my heart thud, and I swallowed hard.

Stay damn strong, Robyn.
“Yeah, I do love him.” I replied in a clipped tone.
My voice came out colder than it was meant to, but can you blame me? It hurt, it really fucking hurt, and what sucked even more was that he was hurting too.

Even if I had stepped back and sucked it up, hoping he’d feel no guilt and move on, I still saw him fucking hurting…
“You do…” She whispered, her voice holding sadness.

I looked up at her, my eyes flashing green as I pressed my lips together for a second.
“You know, you need to stop hurting him.” I said bluntly.
She looked up at me, her eyes widening.

I swear I felt awful.

She was a nice girl, but she needed to get her shit together.
“I know… I know I’m hurting him.” She whispered, clutching the book tightly.
“He’s a really nice guy who has fucked up, I get that.

But he doesn’t deserve any less than the Alpha.

They are both your mates, then treat them with equal respect and love.

I just feel like Damon is being used and he’s a damn idiot for allowing it too!” I said irritably.
She looked at me, and to my surprise, she simply nodded.
“I know… He said to make it work with Liam, but it wasn’t the right way and I can’t balance it … I’m hurting Damon, every single day… I know that.”
“Then reject him, set Damon free so that he can at least be happy and find comfort elsewhere; comfort and love that you can’t seem to give him.” I said as gently as possible because I didn’t want to hurt her feelings, but I was hella mad.
“If it came to that… Would you be there for him? Would you…you know…” She trailed off, but I knew what she meant, making my heart squeeze in pain.
I shook my head.
“No… I may find my mate… I don’t want to hurt him the way I was hurt.

I will just wait for my mate or stay single.

I get dating, falling in love and having fun is part of life… but I’m trying to hold myself together.

It’s not easy when you love someone so fucking deep that when they suddenly cast you aside, you feel like you’re nothing.

I made myself a deal, that I’ll only fall for my mate from here on out because he won’t cast me aside… but it seems like even mates get rejected.” I finished off quietly.
I don’t know why I said it all, I should have stayed quiet.

She looked really upset and I felt like shit too, but if she thought that Damon and I could just pick stuff up, then no it wasn’t happening
It would probably make her feel better, but I was not going to think of anyone but me.

I don’t want another heartbreak.

He tossed me aside the moment she returned, yes I ended it, and I would not stay with a mated wolf, but it did hurt.

I’m human too, I have feelings and I am going to guard this heart, now and forever.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it like that.

I was just wondering… Damon said he had a connectiont o you… So I just thought maybe you love-”
“I do love him, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to go back to him.” I corrected her.
She nodded, sighing heavily as she looked down at her legs.
“You’re amazing, you know what you want, how to do the hard thing even if it’s painful… and you still hold yourself together.” She said, frowning thoughtfully.
I gave her a small smile.
“You’re amazing too, Raven.

You’ve been put in a shitty situation and you’re trying to do the right thing, even if it isn’t fair for everyone.

But… You need to make your choice, your decision.

If you want Damon too, then you need to give your Alpha the ultimatum that he deals with it, or he walks.

And if that isn’t something you want to chance, then it’s clear you need to reject Damon.”
Our eyes met, I saw the pain and sadness in them…
It wasn’t an easy decision… but it was one she needed to make.

Soon.