Capture Your Heart novel Chapter 172

"What great favors does Charles family give to your family so that your families are willing to wronged yourselves like this?"

"I don't know. This is passed down through generations. I also asked my father. He said that I don't need to know the reason, but only need to obey, so I'm used to it."

"So you never thought about being with me from the beginning? Because you never thought about fighting against fate. You just want to fool around with me, right?"

Robert shakes his head and denies, "No, my feelings for you are true. I love you."

"Then what is not real?"

"It’s all real, but it can't give you what you want."

"Do you know what I want?"

"Marriage."

"You are wrong. I didn't expect marriage from the beginning. I just longed for you to love me like I love you. I think it is enough to have your love. Marriage is not important, but now it seems that you don’t love me at all. You never thought about that you had to change anything for me. Do you dare to say that you love me?"

"I love you."

"Love also needs to show out, not just saying it. Karin once told me, ‘if you really love someone, you will hope that he belongs to you completely.’ I didn’t understand it at that time. I understand it now. Her words are right, then I began to hope that Robert belongs me completely."

"Don't be like this. I will be sad if you are like this. From the very beginning, you have known that I have a fiancée. In your dormitory, you said that you were willing to be the woman behind me. So I let my feelings for you come out. If…"

"If you knew that I wanted so much, you would have avoided me as far as possible, right?"

Billie laughs self-deprecatingly, "You are right. In the dormitory, I said I was willing to be your woman. How confident I was at that time! I think Troy can desperately cancel the marriage with Mia for Karin. So I thought you can also do that for me. He faces no less pressure and worries than you. I thought that as long as you love me enough, you can do everything for me like him one day. But why? Why can’t you do that?"

"Because I am used to obedience."

"You are foolish!"

It’s a few times that Billie’s tears almost fall off. But she holds her tears back and sniffs, "Last time, I gave you two choices. This time, I will give you two choices again. The first, cancel the marriage and be with me. The second, don’t cancel the marriage, then we break up."

Robert remains silent. He doesn’t choose the first or the second, but apologizes again, "I'm sorry."

"So break up, right?"

Billie really wants to cry, but she can't shed tears. In Billie's strong life, tears are not a weapon to defend love.

Billie waits for his answer for full ten minutes. Robert does not speak, so Billie understands that the most difficult thing is not to make a choice, but to speak out the choice.

"Okay, break up. I won't bother you again in the future."

Taking a step forward, Billie gives him a big hug. She endures the sadness in her heart and says, "I wish you happiness."

When she turns around, her tears can’t be restrained anymore. The tears fall off one after another. Billie grits her teeth tightly, not letting herself cry out, not letting Robert see her not cool enough.

Robert stares at Billie's back. Robert feels like that his heart gets into a mass of glass slag, which hurts. The blood is dripping with pain. Billie thinks that her coolly turning around won’t let anyone see her fragility. But her trembling shoulders betrays her disguised.

After all, she is a woman. No matter how strong she is, she is still a woman. How can she not cry in the face of changes in love?

Robert returns home sadly. As soon as he enters the house, Rex and Ela asks him harshly, "Who is she?"

"A friend."

"Has she been to our home?" Rex frowns, "She came to our home with Mr. Troy before, didn't she?"

"Yep."

"What is your relationship?"

"I said she is my friend."

"What friend?"

"Do you need to ask such details? What kind of answer would you like to hear?"

Rex sighs, "I just..."

"You don't need to remind me that I’m Robert Gray, so I know what to do and what not to do. The son who has not disappointed you since he was young will never disappoint you in the future."

After Robert finishes speaking, he goes upstairs without looking back.

When Karin receives a call from Billie, it’s already eleven o'clock in the evening. Karin has already been asleep. So she answers it sleepily, "Hello?"

"Karin, can you come out and have a drink with me?"

"What happened?"

"Nothing, it's just I broke with him."

Karin is startled and suddenly sits up, "Where are you? I'm coming now."

"Central Bar."

After hanging up the phone, Karin lifts the quilt and gets out of bed. Troy’s awakened by the sound of her wearing clothes, and asks softly, "It’s midnight. Where are you going?"

"Billie has something to talk with me."

"Then I'll drive you there."

"No. You give me the key and I drive it by myself."

"Can you?"

Karin has gotten the driver's license for a few days, which really makes Troy worry.

"Of course."

Taking the coat, Karin rushes out of the room. She drives Troy's car to Central Bar where Billie is.

When Karin finds Billie, Billie has already gotten drunk.

"Enough. You’re drunk!"

Karin angrily grabs the wine glass in Billie's hand, and asks with some worries, "What the hell is going on?"

"Karin, what you said is right. The world is not hypocrisy. It’s just us who are too naive, really naive..."

"What did Robert tell you?"

"He said it was true that he loved me, but it was true that he could not give me what I wanted."

"What do you want?"

"I want him. I want his heart. As long as it is Robert's, I want them all..."

Karin sighs, "Have you ever said that as long as Robert loves you, you’re willing to be his mistress?"

"So, now I know how much pain you felt..."

Billie leans on Karin’s shoulder and bursts into tears.

"Who said breakup?"

"Me. I said breakup. He didn't even say a word to keep me. If he doesn't keep me, I won't look back. Even if I don’t want to break up, I still want to keep some poor self-esteem..."

"Robert is such a person. He's too conservative."

"Is Troy not conservative? Troy can cancel the marriage for you. Why can't Robert make the same sacrifice for me? Maybe he can, he just doesn't have that kind of consciousness. He said being loyalty to Charles family is the rule set by his ancestors for generations. But rules are made to be broken. He is unwilling to break the dead rules for me. In the final analysis, he does not love me enough..."

Karin pats Billie’s shoulder gently. She comforts Billie with crying, "No matter he loves you or not, in the future, we will not live for love. Living for love is really exhausting."

"Yeah, I'm really tired, ha-ha."

Billie smiles mockingly, "My love with Robert is like the wind and snow. After the wind blows and the snow melts, everything is gone...ha-ha... everything is gone."

Although Billie loses love, her life has to continue. Billie begins to work hard to forget Robert, and to live the life that belongs to herself.

She’s admitted to Charlie Group. If it’s in the past, how happy she will be! But after she passes the interview successfully, she has no sense of joy at all.

Because she hasn't forgotten why she’s so eager to enter Charlie Group and why she wants to stay in Zurich so much.

If it were others, they would never enter Charlie Group. But Billie resolutely stays. It’s not because that she can’t give up Robert. It’s because that she has made a decision that she won't live for love anymore.

Billie moves out of the school and rents a house. Every day, she goes to work and gets off work silently. She doesn't make intimate friendships with others. Her life is so simple.

One night, she works overtime until ten o’clock and then she leaves the company. It’s already a bit cold. She puts her hands in the pockets of her coat and walks forward with her head down. The rented house is not far from the company. It takes her 15 minutes’ walk to go home.