Capture Your Heart novel Chapter 187

William stands there, gazing at nothing for quite a while. It is not until Karin shakes off his hand heavily and leaves with resentment that he recovers himself and hurriedly chases Karin out of the hotel. Looking at her disappearing figure, he yells at her, "I won’t let this go like that! I won’t let you treat me as that kind of person!"

Karin doesn’t stop nor turn back, she reaches out and calls a taxi, then gets on the car expressionlessly. Her face looks so pale, like a gardenia flower, its fragrance is still there but its purity no longer exists.

She is searching her mobile phone in her pocket with a shaking hand, but finds that her phone is switched off. She closes her eyes, pondering in pain for a moment, and dials Troy's number.

Her call is answered immediately, "Hello? Karin?"

When she suddenly hears his gentle voice from the other side, Karin no longer can hold back her tears, weeping silently.

"Karin, are you okay?"

She desperately covers her mouth to stop herself from crying out, whimpering for a while before clearing her throat and calming herself down to try to explain, "Last night... "

"I know."

"What do you... know?" Her face becomes paler.

"I know last night you were at Billie's house. I called you, but your phone was switched off, so I called her and asked her where you were. She said you were with her, then I was relieved that you were safe at her house."

Karin is stunned. She suddenly feels as if she comes from a different world, she can’t understand what everyone says anymore. Noticing her silence, Troy sweetly comforts her, "Don't be sad, people can't come back to life again, what gone are gone. We should live our lives well."

"I know... "

Her tears return again. She feels so wretched that she couldn’t even tell how she feels to Troy. She thinks Troy must not know how much pain a dead person could bring to a living person. If he knows, he would never say something like that to her again.

"I'm sorry."

She waits for him to hang up the phone first, but only gets an apology from the other side. Karin weeps more fiercely, "Why did you say sorry to me?"

"I doesn't find out the exact cause of Jacob's death last night, I feel very sorry for you, give me some more time, I won't let you down."

"No need... "

She almost blurts out, obviously the answer she is so desperate to know last night, doesn’t seem important to her anymore. She doesn’t want him to dig into it, not because she doesn’t care about Jacob, but because she doesn’t want Troy to know that Jacob is no longer the old Jacob, and he saved the one that he shouldn’t have...

If it isn’t for Karin, Troy wouldn't let go of anyone who betrays him. If he knows the truth, maybe he would be sad, but it means nothing compared with what happened last night. He will be devastated if he knows his Karin slept with other guy. Karin doesn't have the courage to confess to him now.

"Why?" As she expects, Troy is so confused.

"As you says, people can't come back once they are died. Knowing the cause of Jacob’s death doesn’t bring him back. This thing has bothering you for a long time, so now the best thing for us to do is just letting it go, okay?"

Although Troy is a bit confused, he doesn't ask more questions, he smiles and says, "Well then, I'm going to a meeting, see you tonight."

"See you."

After hanging up the phone, Karin finally couldn't restrain herself from crying. She covers her face with two hands and cries out loud, thinking over and over again in her mind that she is so so sorry to her Troy and she is the one that should apologize to him first...

She cries so loud, so devastated that even the taxi driver feels a surge of pity for her and turns around to ask her gently, "Miss, is everything okay?"

She looks up, realizing that she maybe behave unladylike, she dries up her tears and says, "I am fine, please just pull over there."

Sitting in an elegant cafe with good lighting on the second floor, Karin looks outside, watching the hustle and bustle of the street, with cars passing by, pedestrians hurrying by, shortly, you will feel like you have lost in this world and couldn’t remember the faces you have seem just now.

Life can be so easy if memories could be erased like this, again she is totally indulging in her own thought.

The phone on the table vibrates, it is Billie calling, with a vacant face, she picks up the phone unconsciously, "... Hello?"

"Where are you?"

"Lotus Cafe, if you have time, just come over."

"Okay."

Hearing the weird sound of Karin, Billie quickly hangs up the phone and heads to the coffee shop.

Twenty minutes later, Billie meets Karin. Looking at the haggard woman in front of her, Billie sighs quietly and says, "I know about the death of Jacob, how does that boy have such a great charm to torture you like this?"

"How do you know?"

"I heard it from Troy, he couldn't reach you last night and called me, I lied for you."

"Why did you lie for me?"

"Because before Troy called me, William also called me. He said you were in a bad mood and drinking in a bar, so he asked me if I wanted to go over there. And because I was working up late last night, so I refused him and asked him to take care of you. Then I received the call from Troy, I was afraid he may find out you were with William, so I lied to him that you were with me at that time."

"What time was it then?"

Billie paused for a moment, "It seemed to be around ten o'clock."

"And didn’t you contact us again after that?"

"No, there's nothing to worry about with William around, he'll definitely send you back after you've vented your emotions."

Karin smiles mockingly, "Do you trust that man?"

Sensing the weirdness in her tone, Billie frowns, "What's wrong? Did something happen?"

"He doesn't send me back."

"What? Did you spend the night in the bar?"

"I woke up in a hotel, naked, and William was sleeping next to me, just as naked as I was!"

The vibe suddenly turns cold, Billie is dumbfounded and can not utter a word. Who wouldn't be surprised, who would be able to accept this, if something like this happened!

"What do you mean? You mean William tries to get you drunk and... then... "

"I don't know. He said he was as drunk as I was last night and couldn't remember anything. Whether it's true or not, I won't trust him anymore."

Bang! Billie smacks her hand down on to the table and stands up angrily, "Son of a bitch, I'll go to find him and ask him about it!"

"No need."

Karin tugs on her sleeve, "Don't make a big deal out of it first, I'm in a mess in my head right now. Instead of worrying about whether I has really slept with William last night, I'm more worried about how I'm going to face Troy if he finds out... "

"We can't let him know."

Billie holds her hand, and says gravely, "Listen to me, you must not let him know."

"But I can't bear to lie to him... "

"Are you going to confess to him?"

"I don't know exactly what to do, I feel guilty if I don't confess to him, and I'm afraid he won't forgive me if I do... " Karin shakes her head and says painfully, "Why did things turn out like this, why did this have to happen just when we are about to get married... "

"Karin, it is indeed infuriating to have something like this happen, but you have to be calm at this time anyway, because men can't accept a woman cheating on him, especially if that woman is still the woman he loves the most. The more he loves you, the more he expects from you. Even if you say you were unconscious at that time and had no intention to betray him, he won't believe it anyway. In a man's view, betray is unforgivable, there is not so much to explain. If you are very confident in Troy's love and think he can tolerate you sleeping with other man, then you can give it a try, but I have to remind you that this is very dangerous."

Billie's words are like a basin of ice water pouring over Karin's shivering heart. She is really going to be crazy, she grabs her friend's hand tightly and asks her in tears, "Then tell me, what should I do? Just pretend that nothing has happened?"

"Yes, pretend that nothing has happened, if even you can not forget it, can not let go of it, do you really expect Troy can take it as nothing and let it go once you tell him the truth, don’t you?"

"But it's so hard, I used to be proud of being wholeheartedly in love with him, my love to him is so pure, so sincere that I don’t allow any flaws or deceptions exist. But now you're asking me to be with him as if nothing has happened, I really don't have the confidence that I can do it well."

"Then give up, give up your love with Troy and leave him. Because now you only have two choices, the first one, forget everything happened last night and move on, the second choice, tell your Troy the truth and then break up with him and never see him anymore. That’s it, you don’t have the third choice. Perhaps I do not know men well, but there is one thing I am certain of, men are born to be jealousy, even if he loves you so much that he will die for you, saying that he will forgive you for everything, it is just a lie of him. Once you stab a knife into his heart, the scar will be left there forever, and it just can not heal. If you want to help him to drag the knife out of his heart, you may end up hurting him more."