Capture Your Heart novel Chapter 188

Billie's every word is to the point. Karin is leaning on her shoulder and cries loudly. She admits that what Billie says are of course reasonable, otherwise she won’t have struggled and lost for so long.

"I will try... "

"Okay, don't be sad, it's all my fault, it's my fault, I trusted the wrong person. If I hasn't trusted him too much, this wouldn't have happened if I had rushed over there and helped you last night."

Billie is so guilty, and blames herself in her heart, but she is more depressed, wondering about why loving someone is so hard...

"I don't blame you, it's because we all trusted him too much."

She believes in William even more than Billie does. She remembers well that Troy once said to her, "You can not judge a person by his appearance, a bad guy is very good at concealing himself." Perhaps she is just too naive to believe that human natures are all good.

She doesn’t go to work all day and doesn’t need to go again in the future. She sits on the swing in the Ziteng Garden at night, waiting for Troy to come back. In fact she hasn’t waited for him for a long time, since he said that her waiting for him made him feel pressured. So now she won’t wait for him unless something important happens.

She hasn't decided to confess to him what has happened last night, because she is so overwhelmed and just wants to see him which maybe could calm her down a little.

At seven o'clock, Troy comes back. As soon as he sets foot on the garden, Karin runs to him and hugs him tightly.

It is the first time that she has taken an initiative to hug him, no doubt, she loves him so much! "Are you in a better mood?"

Troy asks gently, with his hand putting on her shoulder.

"Yes, I am better."

"Then get inside and eat, I'm starving, I didn’t sleep well all night, and worried about you so much, and I ate very little during the day."

Being led by him into the dining room, she sits with him face to face, Troy at the beginning thinks Karin is going to be sad for a while, but now that he sees that she seems to have come out of her sadness, he is in a good mood, and has a better appetite.

"Why aren't you eating?"

He asks concernedly, he is eating hungrily, but she is just staring at him.

"I'm not hungry, I has some snacks this afternoon."

"But you need to eat something more or less, otherwise you'll be hungry early in the night."

Troy thoughtfully puts some foods into the bowl for her.

She takes a few bites as he told, then puts down her chopsticks and continues to stare at the man in front of her.

"Is something on my face? I'm so nervous being looked at by you."

He gives a rare mischievous smile, like a child.

"No, I just feel so happy watching you eating like this... "

"If watching me eating makes you feel happy, isn't happiness too easy for you?"

"Yes, it is."

She smiles bitterly, her heart sinks deeply. Happiness seems so easy, but often the simplest things are not so easy to get.

"Let's go for a dress fitting tomorrow, are you free?"

"Yes, I'm free, I've quit my job."

"You quit your job?" Troy is quite surprised, "Didn’t you say you would die for your job? Why did you suddenly want to quit your job?"

"I want to prepare for the wedding without any worries."

This answer is quite satisfactory to Troy, he smiles and nods, "Very well."

When she goes upstairs after dinner, she locks herself in the bathroom while Troy is working in the study room. She buries herself with hot water, rubbing her body fiercely, thinking that her body might have been tainted by another man, she just wants to peel off all the skin from her body.

She is a very traditional girl. Although in 21st century, it is normal for girls to have one-night stand with other man, she just can not accept it. She hopes her love to Troy is pure and noble. It is because she is a traditional woman that she never has sex with Barry before even though they have been together for years.

When she met Troy with a pure body, she has already decided that he is the only man she would ever have in her life.

The skin on her body already turns red by her fierce scrubbing, yet she has no intention of stopping until Troy finishes his work and goes back to the bedroom, calling her name, then she ends the torture of herself.

"Did you have a long shower?"

Troy asks in a soft voice as he looks at her red face.

"Not very long."

"Then why is your face so red? It makes me want to bite your face."

He smiles and leans down to kiss her, but she looks away in a panic, pointing in the direction of the door in a breathless manner and says, "I'm a bit thirsty and would like to go to get a glass of water."

After saying that, she runs out of the bedroom, and goes downstairs to the living room, holding the glass of water with her hands trembling, feeling that as soon as Troy comes near to her, she would feel she is a dirty girl...

Standing there for quite a long time, she finally makes the decision to go upstairs. Hearing the sound of water from the bathroom, she lies down on the bed and tucks the quilt around her body.

Her two eyes are tightly closed, but her mind runs wildly. She holds her breath quietly and carefully listens the sound from in the bathroom, worrying that Troy would want to make out with her after taking a shower.

Perhaps the pressure on her heart is so heavy that her consciousness gradually drifts off, and if a hand has not suddenly encircled her from behind, she might have fallen asleep soon.

When Troy tries to get his hand into her nightgown, she curls back and tries to escape, curling up on the edge of the bed, not daring to turn around to look at the man behind her, only pretending to be tired and saying, "Troy, I'm tired... "

Troy senses her weirdness, he could tell her rejection is not because of her shyness as she used to show.

"Okay."

He doesn’t force her, but just cover her with the quit and turns off the lamp. When the whole room is getting dark, Karin finally relieves and falls on sleep quickly.

The next morning, she follows Troy to go the the most exclusive royal wedding dress shop in Zurich to try on her wedding dress.

Looking at the white beautiful wedding dress, she becomes nervous again, thinking that the colour of the white dress is too ironic. Troy asks her to pick a few sets she likes, and she picks five sets, all of them are red dresses.

"Why do you pick the red ones?"

Troy is clearly confused.

"It looks pretty, and the red is quite festive."

"Then you have to pick a white wedding dress, right? You can't just wear this if we’re taking wedding pictures."

She nods accordingly, "Okay."

She casually walks around the shop and randomly picks out a simple but elegant wedding dress and points her hand to it, "I would like to try this one."

"Go and try it on." Troy nods.

The staff at the bridal shop leads her to the fitting room, and she has just changed her dress when her mobile phone suddenly rings. She takes it out and see that it is William’s calling, her face turns pale immediately, even whiter than that wedding dress.

She doesn't know what he is calling about, and even if he is calling because of emergency, she doesn't want to know anymore, let alone being curious about it.

She gets off the phone without any doubt. Then she closes her eyes, takes a deep breath and is about to push the door open to go out when her phone vibrates again, only this time it is a text message from William.

"See you at my office at 3pm and I'll prove what I said is true."

She is stunned and stands still for quite a while. Troy knocks the door and asks, "Karin, are you ready?"

Panicking, she hurriedly deletes the text message and walks out with her head down.

"Not bad, you look gorgeous... "

Troy praises her with great satisfaction, Karin is tall and has a good figure, she looks good in any dress, not to mention in this beautiful wedding dress.

"Are you okay? Why does your face look so bad?"

She shakes her head, "Yes, I am fine."

She then tries on a few more wedding dresses and then the two of them leave the bridal shop and gets into the car. Troy gazes at her for a moment, and reaches out to fasten her seatbelt and asks with concern, " Can’t you get out of the shadow of Jacob's death?"

"Eh?" She snaps out of her daze, "Why do you say that?"

"Since yesterday, you've become very distracted, although you doesn't say anything, as your fiance, I can feel something wrong about you."

Her eyes get wet, "I'm sorry... "

"My stupid girl, why do you apologize to me?"

"For making you worry about me."

"Soon you will be my wife, it's my duty to worry about you, it's been hard for you these days, your father won't forgive you, and Jacob died suddenly. I know you are very sad. I just feel guilty that I can't do anything for you."

"Don't feel guilty." Karin hugs him tightly and sobs, "You've done many things for me, thank you Troy, I'm fine, it's probably just because of the stupid pre-marital phobia, I will get better later."

Her tears all fall on his shoulder. Compared with her promise to her father and the death of Jacob, the thing that tortures her most is that she is no longer pure and she can not love the man she is holding now wholeheartedly and fearlessly...