Cruel World novel Chapter 15

Sarah

For the fourth time Sarah changed her clothes..nothing was getting fit because of her huge stomach...at 7th and half month of her pregnancy, she knew she will bust up in any minute...how she is going to survive that it's already so tiring...Although her workload is quite less as Roma all of a sudden start ignoring her...she has a feeling Theo is behind that because after the day of brunch Roma never called me to do her work. Which is good?

Very good even Theo is not behind she is relieved. Because she truly doesn't like that woman who hurt her and talk shit about her baby... well no one is happy about her baby except Theo dad

Theo dad has come recently home and he is very excited about the baby. She saw the tears in his eyes when he saw she was pregnant ...he also told her that he really wished it is a girl ...but Sarah wants it to be a boy..not a girl...if her daughter is just like her who will protect her if she can't make it in labor room ...her son will be strong and won't have to face the same faith that his mother did. She start looking for other clothes in the bag...may be she can find something lose...she found a summer type dress which looks quite old , maybe it was a time of before her marriage..when she used to have curves and healthy bones ...but now she might be pregnant but lose her curves a long time ago thanks to Theo and his family member..she try to wear that somehow it fit but her stomach was now very profound but it's better than others...she decided to do some shopping but she doesn't have the money...normally she never buy anything.

As she never get outside the house, never Theo brought her something... like Tom used to buy for Lisa.

She should ask Theo ..if he can buy her maternal medicine and other stuff then he can buy her some lose clothes and some baby stuff....at this time young mothers usually buy clothes and do preparation for the nursery but she did none...how she can ..what's position she holds in this family? she knew she won't even get the nursery room in this huge house she has to manage a small crib in their large room..maybe, the tv lounge of her room it's mostly quite...but still, she need necessary items now...she heard Theo voice in the room. She walked out from the wardrobe and saw Theo talking on the phone and yelling 'Do whatever the fuck you want to do..but make sure those documents are signed today..otherwise consider your self-fire'

Well, he is the mood today...which means no good time for her..but how long she will put her topic of maternal clothes on rest...she walked towards water dispenser and put water on the glass and give it to the Theo.

Theo was still on phone but he took the water and drink it in one sip and give the glass to her...she saw him sit down and was barking orders to poor PA ...after his call was done he starts scrolling his phone ..she goes to him and with great difficulty she sit down and start to remove his shoes but stop when she heard 'What are you doing' Theo said in a curious voice

She replied softly 'I was removing the shoes '

'Yeah I can see that..but are you out of your mind your almost what 7 months pregnant and sitting down in this way ..are you trying to kill yourself ..for now on don't do it' he said in an authoritative voice

Sarah looked confused 'I didn't realize maybe I used to do that.Ok I won't'

She tries to stand but as she was very heavy she can't, Theo sighs and hold her by her arms.

Sarah felt that if he can show a little bit concern on her pregnancy then he can understand why she needs clothes. Theo was busy with the phone and sending the email, she said 'Sir..i ..can I talk to you'

Theo stop for a moment and looked at her and said 'What..say it quickly I'm busy' he again looked down his phone

'Sir..i need some clothes. I can't fit in any of my old ones..and I need some baby clothes too and a crib'

Theo slowly put down his phone on the table and looked for a moment to Sarah 'the clothes look fine to me..not uncomfortable..and as you can see I earn my money with lot of hard work so why should I waste my money on something which I never wanted (he pointed at her pregnant belly) I don't have time nor any interest in this..you are getting the necessary things like food and medicine to be grateful for that..now go make a cup of coffee for me.

Sarah heart breaks into tiny pieces...how he can say this to her...why can't he accept this baby..when he will let his hate for her ruined her child happiness...but the bigger issues are how she is going to survive on these fitting clothes.. she need the stuff urgently.

Next day an idea come to Sarah mind she asked Mrs Brickson to make her learn some knitting stuff ...Mrs. Brickson looks confused and said 'I can knit some newborn sweaters, socks, and heavy clothes easily.. but you will need other stuff too like a baby bag ..in which there should be some cute Onesie, feeder, diaper bag and many other stuff my child' Mrs Brickson said in a laughing tone

Sarah looks more worried and puzzle, now where she will get this thing 'Oh I didn't know about that... I thought clothes will be the first priority'

Mrs Brickson gently smiled at her and said' Of course my child clothes are very important..and don't push yourself ..young mother mostly don't know about this stuff...but a baby needs a lot of different stuff...less is never more for newborns..'

Sarah scratches her head and said 'Actually I can't buy the baby stuff ..so, for now, can you teach me how to knit..i know the basic but I'm not expert in that... I just want to be little prepared when I go to labor'

Mrs Brickson was about to ask why she can't but then she must have realized why Sarah can't.Mrs. Brickson eyes were sad and but she just nodes 'Why don't we do one thing...we both make some baby clothes together..i have the all the knitting stuff... I used to make clothes for my grandchildren..now I will do for this little one..in the meanwhile, you can also learn from me..it's easy for you if you know the basic'

Sarah beamed with happiness...finally she is doing something for her child 'great..im so excited..I'm free...so if you are then we can start now'

Sarah and Mrs. Brickson spend the whole day on knitting and Sarah already made two tiny pairs of socks, a hat and an incomplete sweater..where Mrs. Brickson promised her by tomorrow morning she will be done with two sweaters. Sarah felt so excited...she used to do simple work in pregnancy which makes her so tired but learning and doing knitting made her somehow calm and fresh. Sarah thought she still has some time ... dinner will be in 7 or 8 so she has at least 3 hours in that time she can complete the sweater and also try to lose some of her clothes...in 3 hours she can lose at least one of her dress.

Sarah went to Lisa room ...she remembers she saw electronic sewing machine... she can try her luck here if Lisa agreed, it will make her task easier..she knocked on the door and heard come in... When she entered the room she heard both Lisa and Tom were laughing and getting cozy with each other. Looking at them she felt that what If Theo is also like this to her..then how she will feel?..will she be glowing and happy like Lisa is when she saw Tom. But her imaginary thoughts were stopped when she saw Tom glaring at her and said in a cold voice 'What are you doing here..in our wing?

Sarah flinched at his tone..Tom never talk her directly..he always regards her indifferently..the way he talking to her ..makes her insecure. She meekly said 'Im sorry if I disturb you guys..can I talk to Lisa'

Tom curl his eyebrow in suspicious and Lisa look uncomfortable 'What you need from Lisa' he again said in a cold voice just like his brother

Lisa give a look to Tom and said 'Yes Sarah ..what you want to talk'

Sarah look uncertain should she asked for the sewing machine or not...she felt embarrassed and hurt they way Tom is glaring her that she might have some dirty motive ..but she needs to stitch the clothes so she said 'I...if you don't mind can I borrow your sewing machine.. I mean if you need it..then it's ok..'

Tom and Lisa looked confused at her then Lisa said 'Yeah I do have an electronic sewing machine my mother give it to me but it's of no use, you can take it but what exactly you will do with that'

Sarah softly replied 'My clothes are quite tight ... I need to lose them up .. I unstitch the fitting area but now I have to restitch it..so that's why'

Lisa walked towards her cupboard and take out the machine and said 'here it is..(Sarah take the machine from her) but why don't you go buy the maternal clothes it's much easy'

Sarah felt those unwanted tears..stupid hormones are making her emotional in front of them..'Ah..actually.. I don't feel like shopping'

But both Tom and Lisa knew the truth when they saw how Sarah hesitate and lied to them..they know Theo did not get her anything.

Tom break the awkward moment 'you can go now..if that's what you want..and give it to Lisa on time'... Sarah looked hurt how tom indicated that like she will never return it..she nodes..when she was getting out their room she heard Tom saying 'I don't like it Lisa..You and her are friends?'

Lisa sigh 'we are not friends. I just help her because I feel pity for her and she asked something which I don't need'

Tom said 'i don't want you to even pity her..she don't deserve this..you know what she did..'

Lisa replied 'I know..and I still hate her for that..but I'm a human too. she is pregnant and she doesn't have any maternal and baby clothes yet....so I helped her no biggie.

Tom sigh 'still stay away from her, she is a bad influence and bad news..I don't trust her

Sarah tears were flowing and she can't listen anymore..Knowing that the people of the house hate her is different but listening to them it's too much.

Sarah always loves the small sunroom in their wing..it's very quiet and greenery here..it calms her..she start working on her stitching project. Mrs. Brickson was right if she knew the basic then she can do this easily..she completed her baby cute purple sweater and start working on loosening her fitted clothes...it took time because she can't figure out the electronic sewing machine working..after putting her lot of time into assembling and reading the instruction she finally start working on her dress...by the time she was working on her 3rd dress ..she saw Mr grey smiling at her and saying 'Sarah..hi what are you doing here. I was looking for you in everywhere..damn this wing of yours is so huge a person can get lost here. I don't know why Theo choose this..it's scary here' Mr grey with a humor

Sarah smiled and stood from her chair and said 'Do you need something..I'm almost free'

Mr. Grey shakes his head 'I was looking for my chess partner..you know I'm going tomorrow and only you can give me a tough competition in this game and no one else (Sarah laughed) but what are you doing with sewing machine and look at these small knitting sweaters and socks, my grandson or daughter will look so cute in this...did you make this?' Mr grey picked those knitted clothes and looked them with so much affection

Sarah replied 'With the help of Mrs Brickson I made it...Mrs. Brickson is also making some...so by the time at least 4 sweaters will be done 'Sarah said proudly

Mr grey smiled and said 'Oh yes the time is close ...what why are tiring yourself..go for a shopping buy some stuff ... what are do with those clothes (he pointed at Sarah clothes)

Sarah hesitantly replied 'oh these are mine..they are very comfortable clothes but are getting tight so I thought I should lose them up'

Mr grey looked confused 'Why did you not buy maternal clothes ... I'm sure you can get more comfortable clothes in the market and what about the nursery stuff sure you need that'

Sarah looks down and nervously said 'Im always so tired and weak. I don't feel like shopping and Theo is tired from office work so I don't want him to burden him ..he is already so considerate, and now I was feeling fine so I try my luck with knitting and sewing and I will think on nursery stuff' Sarah was impressed how lies come from her mouth so easily

Mr grey looked very uncomfortable and disturb 'He is the father, it's his right to take of this stuff..but if these things make you happy..then who is to stop you'

sarah changed the topic and said ' I'm free.. so why not we play a chess game. I really need to make you lose in this game' Sarah said with a straight face but her eyes were smiling

Mr grey start laughing loud 'oh let's see'

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Sarah was finished with dinner. Theo did not come home..maybe he was busy in the office again...she enters there room and start getting ready for bed and a good book...she was busy doing that she heard bathroom door to be open n saw Theo standing naked with towel on his waist.

His body was wet with the shower and he was looking extremely hot ..Stop it Sarah...these damn hormones are making her out of control...he looked at her and said in a demanding tone 'Where were you'

Sarah walked towards wardrobe and bring out his night clothes..she then replied 'i was having dinner with Mr grey'

Theo said something but Sarah can't pinpoint it clearly...she then asked 'Have you eaten or should I brought your dinner here '

He shakes his head 'I already had the dinner and listen did dad ask some questions '

She looked scared what should she say..and how he will react 'Nothing we were just playing chess. I swear to god. I didn't say anything to him' Sarah start tumbling

Theo looked disturb the way she reacted ..but he just nodes.. his eyes went to the small baby clothes..he looked at them and said 'Did you go shopping today ?' he said suspiciously

Sarah hurriedly shakes her head 'No I didn't I knit them.. and just loosen some of my clothes through a sewing machine that Lisa give it to me 'she nervously said in a one flow

Theo looked strange and his eyes were not angry it was something that Sarah can't understand ..he nodes and said ..'put them somewhere else come to bed soon'

With that, he went to bed and start looking at his mobile.Sarah stand numb how a person can hate his own child that only looking at his child clothes can make him anger..sarah put a hand on her stomach and felt the kick and she smiled, her baby is with her.. that will love her..that's what most important.

In the next morning, She saw Mr grey standing next to her room holding huge bags..and said 'Look I forget to give you something so here are some baby stuff and your clothes too and I order a crib too that will be delivered tomorrow.'

Sarah lost it and hug him and said 'Thank you so much ..you grandchild is so lucky to have you'

Mr. Grey looked into Sarah's eyes and said 'Sometimes a tough man can also get softer with time..don't lose hope and take this (he put an envelope on her hand ) don't say anything just accept it' he kissed Sarah forehead and said his goodbye

Sarah was shocked ..what Mr grey said don't lose hope..about what ..about this marriage or on her...she looked at the envelope and saw some money inside it..she closed her eyes and said to her baby 'you are lucky to have a grandfather like him'