Cruel World novel Chapter 51

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Sarah

She pushed the food tray and mark frowned on that 'come on Sarah you need to eat...you need the energy back'

Sarah slowly shake her head 'I can't it's too much...I'm already full and after what you have told me about Perry and tina ...I feel like puking ' she made a disgusted face

Mark regrets telling her but she kept on asking the same thing who did it ...how it happens 'sorry sis ...but don't think too much on this...it's done...everything is finished...now you should think about yourself and Ava's future'

Sarah's eye become moist 'how can I..I still believe it's just a joke any moment they will come n take me back to prison...mark I haven't seen anything good after getting married it's too hard to accept I'm free from the hell' Sarah quietly cry

Mark sighs and hold her 'ssh..believe me, it's all done you are free ...your and Simon name is clear...n don't you worry you are never going back to hell. I will take care of that jailer n your bastard husband so well...it's time for their payback' Mark said with full determination

Sarah winced....she still can't believe and she doubts anything can happen to theo although he looks regretful n miserable when he begged her for forgiving him.

But Sarah won't believe him...not this time...he had been making her fool for so many years this also one of the tricks....and about the jailer ...yes she wants the women to be gone...she is dangerous just like roma.

Sarah keep on looking at the door ....she just want Ava right now....she waited for so long....Mark can see her distressed state 'what are you looking at Sarah' he asked

Sarah said with desperation 'Ava....(she feel tears whenever she took her name) why she hasn't come yet I'm dying here'

Mark look disturb too

Sarah then asked 'she is alright? Mark roma was laying isn't she?'Sarah desperately wanted the answer yes

Mark smile 'yes Sarah I told you before she is perfectly fine and look it's only 7 in the morning...she will be around 8 on the visiting time'

Sarah node n took a relief breath

Mark hesitate to say but he said it 'Sarah we will take Ava custody from the grey's....then you guys come with me to live in Australia with mom'

Sarah flinched when she heard mom name. Sarah still got a lot of resentment for her women....she still can't believe how a mother can do this to get child....even Sarah can call herself a helpless mother for Ava but if ever Ava needed her help like that she turns every one world upside down

Sarah made a disgusted face 'why would we go there so that mom can kick me n my daughter out....n, by the way, have you told her she will so happy that Simon name is clear'

Mark looks down and shook his head 'sarah..things have so much change after you went to jail...mom changed too...she was already in so much guilt when she saw you at greys house n how they arrested you and after dad died it was an icing on cake...she stop speaking n she had attacks where she starts crying n attacks herself...doctor said she is in trauma that made her brain to stop working...'

Sarah gasp....tears were falling...mom...her mom was in pain she can't do anything ...mark wipes her tears

'hi don't cry...I don't want to upset but I also don't want to keep you in dark. And you trust me ain't you I'm really taking care of mom...I called her distant cousin to stay with her... so don't think about it...but Sarah there's a thing I want you to do' Mark asked her

Sarah looked at his golden eyes 'what'

Mark intense gaze on her made her scared 'i want you to file against Theo n greys about domestic violence they inflicted on you and now I got the proofs too as the jailer will tell how roma grey torture you in jail and your (he try to control his anger) scars that doctor has told me that are the scars only got from abuse....this time you will tell all the truth'

Sarah close her eyes.. she start seeing all the flashback of abuse that she bore for nothing...how she was degraded ..how she was beaten like a dog ...how she was starved how she was raped and how she manipulated by theo that made her fall in love with him and then she was sent to jail, away from Ava

She will punish him for everything he did with her. A small part of her heart told her she is not like that...she still feels for theo...she saw those tears n guilty eyes of theo when he was begging her...but she got angry on her that what kind of women she is...after all these years how can she even think like that...

Sarah said with determination ' I will...I will tell everything that they did to me'

Mark tears were also falling 'yeah...you will get justice ' he kissed her forehead.

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Theo

'come one Ava finish your milk then we have to go' theo hold the glass and Ava was sitting on her lap and theo helped her to finish the milk, Theo smiled when milk whisker was made on her face...she looks too adorable...he kissed her cheeks n wiped her face...'come on lets go to see mommy' theo said in full energy

Ava also get excited 'yeahhhh....we will take flowers too'

Theo pinched her nose 'oh yes that will great ...mama will be so happy'

Theo picked her and went to his car and buckled Ava in toddler seat and start the car.

Theo was about to start the car but he stop ...his hand were shaking ...he felt sweat on his forehead.....he was feeling weird....like its suffocating him...then he saw a vision...where he saw Sarah was taken away by the police and she was crying them to let her see Ava......he then saw the real pain in her eyes when she was in the hospital crying for AVa....theo close his eyes oh god he made the biggest mistake of his life....how he will live with this pain.....more over he was terrified what will happen today how she will react looking at Ava will she ....will she tell the police everything...theo feel ok with that hell he wants to go to police but he just stop when he thought about Ava...he looked at back and saw how innocently she is looking at the window...he felt tears in his eyes but he control himself.

For the first time in his life, he is so scared of Sarah and it is his own fault.

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In the hospital theo and Ava came holding rose flowers...Mark was waiting for them.

He stands in front of Theo 'where the hell was you. Sarah was getting insane, she kept asking about her daughter'

Theo glare him and point down 'we were getting flowers '

Mark looks down and his expression change to soft with a smile.....he kneels down and softly said 'hi pretty girl...do you know who I am'

Ava clung to theo leg and looked shy and little scared ..she looked at theo and theo gives her encouraging smile...Ava nodes and lightly said 'Yes...my uncle'

Mark smiled and said 'oh yes I am...now come with me your mama is waiting for you' he touches Ava's cheeks

Ava hold mark hand but she was not moving and looked at theo in scared manner 'daddy' she raised her second hand

Theo looks at mark and said 'im also going with her...she is...(theo quietly said) she is not comfortable around strangers'

Mark got angry 'because you make sure she never get out of the house and meet her family...just like Sarah'

Theo gets more guilty and said in composed voice 'low down your tone...you are scaring her....im going with her that's final'

Mark sighs in frustration 'ok...come'

When they enter the room Sarah was lying down quietly and Theo felt his heart beta skip, she always had an effect on him...all theo wants to hold her and take away her all sorrows but he is the one who hurt her the most.

Mark gently touch Sarah hand 'Sarah they are here'

Sarah winced and looked suddenly at theo and Ava.

Sarah

She cant believe Ava is here, she is alright...thank god thank god. Tears were falling and but she was smiling too...Ava looks so beautiful....she felt her heart to fill with so much in happiness when she looked her daughter after so many years

She tries to get up and move to stand and said 'Ava' she beamed with happiness

but Mark stop her 'Sarah stay here ...you can meet while laying down no hurried movement ok'

Sarah glares him but Theo bring her daughter towards her...sarah frowned at theo and she wanted to snatch her daughter from him but the way Ava was looking so scared and confused and the way she was holding Theo neck..like she wants to go nowhere but stay with him. Sarah was stun how theo and Ava got close

But she ignores that thought and raised her hand 'give her to me'

Theo tries to gently remove Ava's hand and said 'come on the sweetheart...it's your mama, she wanted to talk to you. I told you before 'Ava nodes

Sarah cynically think what he had told Ava about her.

Theo sit down in the chair and Ava sit down while holding flowers in her hand ...she gives it to Sarah.

Sarah toke them and said in excitement 'these are so beautiful just like you..thank you'

Ava blushed and give her a shy smile

Sarah gently smiled and can she, her daughter was little nervous around her but she wants to think positive and holds Ava small hand and kissed her 'hello Ava you know I'm your mama'

Ava nodes ' yessh daddy told me'

Sarah laughed ...she can talk too..and so clear...'i miss you so much' Sarah cry

Ava looks at theo and he removes the hair from Ava face and nodes to her, sarah got jealous that her daughter needs theo comfort, not hers.

Mark phone rings and he told them he will come in a moment

When they were alone ..theo told Ava 'Ava tell mama to not cry cause you will meet her regularly'

Ava intently looked at Sarah and touch her face and wiped them 'no cry mama...i will come regg....regg daddy what you said'

Theo and Sarah laughed and told her the correct word

Sarah touches her face 'can I hug you.....can mama hug you please?'

Theo look away as it was too much of pain that he can't see in Sarah's voice

Ava nodes and hugged her. Sarah close her eyes and try to embrace the moment fully in her memory...she smiled her daughter baby shampoo hair..she felt she is in heaven...

After few minutes talk ... Ava get a little comfortable and asked her 'mama where were you?'

Theo and Ava got alert and looked each other...but theo told Ava 'Ava I told you, mama was sick so that's why she is not living with us'

Sarah glared at him and stay quiet, then mother and daughter asked various questions and Sarah learned so many things about Ava ...but one thing was constant how Ava loved Theo so much even he loves looked genuine to her......sarah got worried....what she will do now.

Ava was little sleepy at one point and Sarah notice that 'you can lie down with me..'Sarah asked in hope full voice

Again Ava looked at theo and theo happily node...when Ava was sleeping after few minutes

Sarah can't stop herself and asked in anger 'how she get close to you when you were keen to hate her from the start because of me'

Theo looks guilty and said 'i know you have every reason to doubt me but Sarah I just realized I always loved her but was cowered to feel it later...hell I even did so many horrible things to you. Sarah, please forgive me...punish me however you want....but just take me out of this guilt'

Sarah got emotional too 'how should I forgive you....tell me theo how..or should I address you, sir, because I'm a slut and slut never say your name and I'm scared you will never bring Ava to me like you did with me in prison. I waited daily, called you multiple time that you will bring her anytime, you made a promise with me SIR' she said in sarcasm

Theo eyes filled with tears 'please Sarah...don't call me sir...dont ..it's killing me...I'm sorry I cant fulfilled my promise but believe me. I was told that Ava was gone to meet you monthly...that's what I was told, my mom. I know it's my mistake to give her Ava responsibility and I'm paying for it but you don't need to worry about ever Ava is your daughter...she will meet you daily

Sarah flinched when theo told about roma 'how you can leave my daughter under your evil mother care...she try to hurt Ava when she was only a baby no wonder what she had done to her without our presence'

Theo winced to like he remember something but he didnt said a word ..then he told sarah 'thats why me and Ava are going to live some where else..you just get better then i will look for a home'

Sarah said in disgust 'and why you think i will come with you'

Theo looked worried 'i know you hate me...i hate myself too ...but for god sake for Ava sake just give me a chance...a small chance...i promise on my dead sister....i will give you so many happiness and so much love that you might not forget your painful memory but it at least my love will overcome that...i love you...i love you so much' theo tears were falling while he hold Sarah hand

Sarah looked stunned....how can he said that after all this time.

Sarah snatched her hand 'you love me??......you want me to give you a chance?....don't you think I try to give that chance fuck I even love you when I shouldn't and what you did to me...you beat the shit out of me that put me in a coma. I can't fucking speak for weeks theo....then you made fun of my love. I still remember your words ..you said to me that I'm a fool that if I ever think any man can fall in love with my ugly face and that was not enough you send me to jail in a humiliating manner that why should I give you a chance!' Sarah at this time was crying bloodily

Theo tears were also falling down rapidly...'im so sorry..so so so sorry Sarah. I'm a monster. I know that, but I can't live without Ava and now not without you .... I lost you one year ago because of my stupid revenge but I will not leave you...look Ava (he pointed at her and Sarah looked down her daughter) she changed me....she loves me and I love her more than anything but she misses so much too she was deprived of parents love and I know I'm fucking responsible for that...but for her sake give me a chance....forgive me....you can put me behind that bars but please give me this hope that you will give me a chance to make all this better' theo eyes were red with tears and joined his hand in begging position...

And sarah was stun how he was begging her.

But she was more than confused than ever but she knew she can't forgive him and surely not forget what happened to her.