Cruel World novel Chapter 53

Chap 52

Theo

'You are kidding ' Tom was stun what his brother has told him

Theo shook his head and was till shocked 'no...i mean for a moment I thought it's a joke but it was Sarah in real she call me and she said she is coming back' theo said with a smile

Tom also took a relief sigh 'i cant believe this...so this means she forgive us? she will not tell the police ?'

Theo expression drops and his guilt came back again, he quietly replied 'honestly speaking I don't think so....she will never forgive us....and after what we did and especially what I did ,(he looks in disgust) i cant even forgive my self...and about the police thing it's still her call and I won't stop her......all I know she is coming for Ava...and i will cherish this ... I think this is my chance to prove to Sarah that I truly love her' Theo's eyes were moist but he was determined too

Tom looks happy for his brother and nodes.

When Theo reach the hospital in the morning ...he was nervous as hell....he still was scared that what if Sarah changed her mind and decided not to go with him....or what if she did go with him but she never forgive him and never love him.

Well its because of you idiot...you ruined this....she did love you at one point but how you loved her by hitting her and then sending to jail....theo thought about himself in hate

He take a deep breath and open the hospital door and saw Mark was having a heated discussion with his sister....and theo don't have to guess whats the topic is

Theo then saw Sarah wearing a light black and white casual dress and she look so beautiful but so fragile too...he feel so protective about her ...but then he saw the tears in her eyes....she was crying ..fuck...what the idiot Mark has said to her

Theo cant stop himself and move towards 'Sarah why are you crying....please tell me' he gently asked her and when he touched her arm ...she flinched and she wiped her tears

Mark then replied 'great now you are here....so Sarah you still want to go with your wife beater husband'

Theo also winced when he heard the title use for him...isn't he is really a wife beater?

But Sarah slowly said 'Mark, please... I love you so don't hate me.....at least you won't hate me... I told you why im doing this.' she touches mark face

Mark close his eyes and he also got emotional 'i will never hate you sarah ...because you should be loved ...and you are going to those people who only knows how to hurt you or put you in terrible situation...dont go with him..he will do it again im telling you....leopard never change his spot' Mark point a accusing finger in Theo direction

Theo try to control his feeling then he said 'Mark i know you have no reason to believe me and i have to live with this...but i love your sister...and i promise on my death sister and my Ava that i will never even point a finger on her....i made the biggest mistake of my life by losing her but if Sarah is coming back then i will give her the world that she always deserve..please trust me'

Mark huff in a sarcastic way 'trust you? joke of the decade.....i don't trust you and you vowed on your sister...that fucking dead sister of yours that ruined my sister life...just

Mark cured remark make Theo lost his anger...even Sarah lashed on him 'Mark what the hell is wrong with you...she is dead ...she was innocent too'

But theo can't let that go he grab Mark shoulder and said in an intimidating tone 'Cursed me all you want but never like never in your life call my sister name like that..... I made a mistake, not Tina...so keep her out of this otherwise I don't know what I will do' Theo after a long time wanted to beat the Blake family member.....he sees red

Mark also was not backing down and was staring him like he was waiting that theo makes a one move and he prove his point

But it was Sarah scared and soft voice that made Theo to come out from his dark trance 'Please theo...please leave him...i ...i say sorry from his side' Sarah voice made him remind that Sarah who used to get scared so much when she see this mood

Theo leave him and put his hand on his face....fuck .....what he did....he made Sarah get scared ...again...fuck...how can he make her happy when he did a terrible job from the start

Theo look both of them and defensively raised his hand 'im sorry so so sorry....it was a reflex action when tina name came...I'm sorry Sarah i will never do this again'

Sarah was still uncertain and look away

Mark raised an eyebrow 'see sister that's what I was talking about people like him never change (Mark then turn to him) and your anger will ruin her life all over again and this time Ava will be involved....you both need help...Sarah, you need to check your head why you living with this man again and you the Theo grey need to go to some anger management class and find a way out the anger get out cause I know you will hurt someone again with this anger'

Mark then touch Sarah's face and kissed her forehead 'i hope you get what you want and your head make you realize this the mistake but whatever it is I'm still with you and theo don't you ever do something to her....cause fucker this time I will kill you'

He then get out of the room...leaving them alone....Theo was still stunned how he reacted and how much Mark was right....his anger is really dangerous for him and for Sarah and Ava too

He then turns to Sarah who was stuck to her place and was still lost ...theo can't see her like this 'Sarah baby please forgive me I don't want to scare you it wasn't my intention ' Theo said in a begging tone

Sarah flinched and looked at him...she take a step back and try to composed herself 'can we go now please'

Theo close his eyes...he really busted this...he nodes ....'yeah come on'

Sarah took out her bags and was about to pick that what stop her 'hi what you doing...I'm here to pick all your baggage' he said in a lighter tone with a smile

But sarah eyes goes sad, she then quietly said 'not all my baggage'

Theo looks down in guilt.

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Whole drive Theo try to make Sarah comfortable, by asking her is her seat is comfortable ...does she need a pillow that he put in the back seat....does she feel cold....is she hungry but Sarah just shakes her head and do not speak a word.

Theo look her in confusion....he really want to make her comfortable but she looks so still.

Then he talks about Ava that made Sarah looked him ...theo smiled 'Ava will be so happy ...she didn't know you are coming home'

Sarah lips also curved a little and sigh in hope

When they reached home Theo observed Sarah whole body become stiff and she was breathing heavily....she looks left right and theo stop the car and become super tense too

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Sarah

No...no what she is doing.....she is going back to hell again.....oh god Mark was right she is playing with fire.....she can see all the flashback....where she made such painful memories that she has to live with for life but reviving them again was too much.

She feels she was having a heart attack....she shakes her head....she will be abused again ...she will be a pet to play with for theo and roma....she will be degraded by tom and lisa....and no one will help her.

Tears were falling and then Theo touch her arm 'Sarah breath ok ..ok sshh just breath in and out you are having a panic attack...it will go...think something good...think about Ava...how happy she will be ...she is getting back her mama' Theo try to distract her and it works

Sarah looked him in his blue eyes and said 'I'm so scared' she distractedly said

Theo eyes were bulging out like it click to him....his guilty eyes become moist and one long teardrop falls down ....he put both hands on his face and try to take a deep breath.

Sarah then realized what she said and she was ready for the assault but it never came

Then theo looked her deeply ....and gently hold her face 'dont....dont be ever scared ....no one like no one in this house has to power to ever hurt you not even me...Sarah looked at me (when Sarah try to look away) ....you know me at my worst and my best too.... and I'm sure as hell you can see that I'm not lying....you can see how firmed I am on this...you have the real power to destroy us .....you are the most beautiful and strongest person i have met ...just never forget that'

Sarah was stun ....theo....theo grey her husband for five years was giving her confidence she is strong...she feels all of a sudden shy and strange...she removes theo hands and looks aimlessly at the garden.

Theo open his car door and he opens hers. He gently picked her hand and take her out of the door.

Sarah can still feel the emotional feelings t but this time she try to control them....she has to be strong...you are doing this for your daughter...you have to strong...just remember what Helen told you in prison never show your weakness. Sarah tries to buck up herself.

With great courage and self-talk let Sarah take a step towards the mansion door.Theo was already looking nervous and was looking around like he is worried there might be someone standing in the hall

Theo gives Sarah a smile 'i think we will go directly to our wing side.....you look tired too...'

Sarah didn't reply just nodes...but they were about to go she heard tom voice 'Theo'

Sarah becomes tense and nervous too....after a long time she is facing him...and the memories she has about him are too bad.....Tom always make her feel inferior and embarrassed for no reason....she has no idea what he will say to her today

Theo also look tense and he hesitantly replied 'Tom let me take Sarah to our room then we'll talk'

Tom looked very ashamed and he can't meet Sarah eyes 'actually I want to welcome Sarah too....'

Sarah met his eyes and see the same guilt that theo also had but Sarah felt nothing for their guilt because they never felt anything for her then why should she

Tom looks down 'I hope you are well and I know you probably hearing this a lot but I'm really sorry... I also never treated you good....but what you are doing this for us made me more guilty .....I'm so so sorry Sarah'

Sarah looks away and felt those stupid tears...why don't they get this she doesn't need sorry...she needs to forget that terrible time and these people and looking at them all she remembers those days when she was treated like a shit

Theo came and put an arm on Sarah's waist ...'tom she is tired we will talk later...come Sarah' Sarah close her eyes.

When they reach their wing Sarah can see herself in every corner of the house , how miserable she was...how she work like 24 hours and not a word of appreciation she ever got but instead she got abuse.....when she reached the door she starts feeling all the weird and painful feeling that she tries to control them

Sarah saw the bedroom and realized it was still the same.....she felt the tears that were about to fall...she looks around.....theo was oblivion to Sarah condition was acting normal...and putting her things .....Sarah feel suffocation she then saw where she is standing it was the same place where used to lye down on the floor for years, then she saw the bed and it takes her to the wedding night where her dreams for happily ever after ever crushed when Theo slapped her and brutality took her virtue. She remembers how he makes fun of her body and called her ugly slut....she shiver and realize she was full on crying..... why these images are coming in front of her

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Theo

It was a difficult day ...Theo put Sarah things inside the wardrobe and pinched his nose....thank god it was the only tom in the entry ...if it was a mom ...no wonder how Sarah would have reacted....Theo still can't digest how Sarah had a Panic Attack in the car and how she looks so in pain when Tom says sorry to her.

He shook his head ...he made a mess and now he has to clean that

Theo enters the room and saw how Sarah uncontrollably crying and her body were shaking ...she keeps on seeing 'why....why'

Theo run to her and hold her by her waist ...'Oh Sarah what happens...please baby tell me please tell me...' Theo was super confused and concerned

Sarah whole face was covered in tears and she kept on saying 'why I keep on seeing those bad images... it's hurting me....its hurting me '

Theo can't get what she meant but then it clicks to him ...that this room makes her brought back all these memories that she tries to forget.

His inner guilt came back with such force that it also made him lose it more and his tears also start falling 'oh baby I'm so so sorry for everything...I'm a monster but please, believe me, I will never hurt you...never ever hurt you. I will change everything of this room and we can create new memories hell I will change the house we will move to new house but please stop crying it's killing me' Theo put her head on his chest.

Sarah was still crying 'you hurt me so bad so bad that I can't even move forward for my daughter ....even I try my everything...but this house has totally broken me beyond repair' she yelled at him

Theo was shocked....she is not broken beyond repair?....she is not causing if cant then changes her or even himself...

He wiped her tears and Sarah violently took a step back like she expected he will strike her. Theo cursed oh god she will kill him with guilt.....'please stop crying.....we can get out now ....go to Ava room then when you feel ok we will come ok....'

Ava name changed her expression 'Ava ....yes Ava I want to see her'

Theo sighs 'ok but you need to get little fresh ' he gently told her

Sarah nodes and go to the washroom.

Theo grab his hair...fuck how can he make things better?

Sarah

'And you know mama daddy don't know how to make such hair' Ava excitedly told Sarah when Sarah made a beautiful braid of her long hair and Sarah laughed at how Ava was such a happy kid always making her laugh and filled her heart with so much love

These moments with her made her realized that why she come her to stay with her daughter...she lived her life very painfully but now forward she will live for her Ava

Theo came with a tray of food and said in a funny voice 'oh really princess...daddy doesn't make good hair ?'

Ava eyes beamed with happiness whens he saw her daddy and she run to him 'daddy...what you got for me'

Theo try to balance the tray 'whoo wait a minute road runner let me put the tray and I got your milk ...messy told me you haven't had that' Theo give her a daddy look

Ava look away like she doesn't heard and start saying different stuff

Theo picked her small body and tickle her small feet and Ava giggled 'young lady you can't make daddy distract from others topic now drink the milk and let me give the food to your mama'

Sarah was looking them in awe...how she always wanted theo and Ava like that...and now she can see how much they love each other...but now seeing them also make her sad too why now he is good ...he should be good to Ava the moment she was born...she shakes her head..she don't want to think on such topics right now when she is enjoying her time with her daughter

Theo gives her the food which was way too much .

Theo sit with her and give Sarah the orange juice and said 'how are you feeling'

Sarah took the juice and replied slowly 'fine'

Theo nodes and then give Sarah the plate with some fresh fruits and scrambled egg 'i know its kinda late breakfast but you need to have your medicine so it's important you had a good one' theo said to her

Sarah took some bite of fresh fruit and feel fresh herself

When she was done ...theo said to eat all but she just shakes her head theo don't push her more and said 'ok then you can eat at lunchtime Just let me take your medicines out...and secondly if your feeling ok can I call dad....he really wants to meet you'

Sarah in her all emotional mess forget about my grey ....she gets emotional and said 'i love too..how he is?'

Theo stops in a midway and took out the medicine pack and said 'he is fine... I mean he is still in wheelchair but his speech is little improved because of speech treatment....but I think your presence will make him better he miss you so much already' Theo give her a sad smile

'ok now take your pills then we will go meet him' Sarah took the pills and then stand to meet the only person in this family who loved her like a daughter.

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Sarah and Mr grey had an emotional reunion ...he was crying too when he saw Sarah he apologized, that how his family treated her and how he feels guilty

But Sarah wiped his tears 'please don't say this...you have nothing to be guilty about you were the only good thing in this house...you treated me like your daughter that even my own parents fail to do that. I miss you and all I want you to get better'

Mr grey smiled 'i ...i will..so..soon bec..because you .are here now'

Sarah nodes too but then theo came in said in a nervous tone 'sorry dad and Sarah ....now we have to go cause you are tired and its....its mom time to came at home from the hospital'

Sarah tense when roma name came...she doesn't want to even look that women....that women said such a cruel and nasty stuff about her Ava that she wanted to ignore that but was more stun when theo wanted to protect her from his own mother....strange when both mother and son really enjoy her misery at one point...she thought in a cynical way

When they enter their room. Sarah was confused how this room look so different few hours ago and now....she saw the living arrangement of change from top to bottom and realized Theo who hate the change ..has now turned his own room upside down

Sarah absently said 'you hate the change'

Theo turned to her suddenly like he was not expecting Sarah will say that, he shrugs 'yes I used to but since it was making you feel uncomfortable I try to make it look like the way you like.... I hope you are ok now 'he reluctantly asked

Sarah saw his genuine expression and feel touched for no reason...she just said 'its fine'

Theo smiled and then said 'hmm great ... I know you are tired but you will feel much better if you took a shower then rest ok....obviously if that's what you want' Theo said in a nervous tone

Sarah who was still confused with this caring Theo ...she replied 'i think you are right shower will be fine'

Theo took her to her bathroom and said 'shower will make you tired while standing but a good warm bath will relax your muscle ...let me set the water for you'

Sarah stand still...what the ever hell he is doing...why he is so caring ...he is confusing her....no Sarah don't trust him ....he is playing with your mind

Theo set the water and put some scented oil in the water and said 'come it's ready'

Sarah blushed and looked him in a strange manner...why he is not going 'can you go outside please' she feels strange to ask that to a person who has known every single thing about her body

but then she realized why strange to ask it's her right to privacy and they were never intimate with each other outside the bathroom so why now

Theo also looks uncomfortable 'oh I'm sorry ...of course... I will be waiting outside ...if you need anything' he looks super nervous and shy now.

Sarah was also feeling exactly like that too.