Cruel World novel Chapter 61

Chap 60

Sarah

Sarah can feel the goose bumps arising in her arm hairs so bad that made her shiver. It's more than 15 minutes when Theo dropped the bomb that he was molested, not in her worse imagination she ever expected this news. She looked at Becca who was little taken by the news and Theo who was not looking at anyone.

Becca than cough 'Theo do you need some time alone... Sarah and I can go out'

Theo flinched come back from his memory land and hold Sarah hand like he doesn't want her to go anywhere 'no ...no .....Sarah won't go....'

Becca nodes 'then can you talk about this thing you have told us' she carefully used the word

Theo looks in dilemma. Sarah can feel his inner distress and she also knows he is not good at such stuff and usually he snaps badly in such situation ...she has been the victim of his snap

Theo opens his mouth but then close it...like words aren't coming. Sarah out of nowhere squeezed his hand 'Theo its ok if you don't want to talk about this...especially in front of me I can understand' Sarah try to calm him but she was desperate to know why a 13-year-old child who has every luxury of life was treated like that

Theo looks at her in anger and Sarah winced, she knows he is gone to another dark world but then theo expression soften and he replied 'no ...if anyone should know about my past it should be you'

Thoe sighs and pinched his nose...and took a deep breath and said to Becca 'I need something stronger to drink to open up '

Becca knows what he is indicating 'i don't usually entertain alcohol ...strong coffee will work?'

Theo cringed but nodes

After giving him coffee. Theo stand. Both Becca and Sarah looked him in wonder

Theo walks towards the window and looks aimlessly outside. He took the sip of the black coffee...he sighs 'I was 13 when I was in basketball final match ...unfortunate I have an injury that put me in bed rest for months... I fractured by foot and doctor told me that for 5 months I can't go outside the house....it was frustrating for me as hell.... I got super angry and supper angst....at that time basketball was my everything like for any teenager it can be....moreover I was embarrassed to break my leg and let down my whole team....(he shake his head) nonetheless my parents decided to homeschool me since I can't go school for next five months ....so with great convincing and warning from my parents they hired different teachers some where from my old school , well my parents offer them great deal of money (he looked disgusted) well i was getting the education and everything but still I was angry and was failing badly at chemistry and so my mother hired 35-year-old women..she was known at the time for her teaching chemistry ...' theo stop he closes his eyes...Sarah can see his back ..how it was moving...she was feeling bad and emotional what was coming next

Theo continued with tight-voiced 'Her name was June....she was really attractive women and she knows to show that very well (Sarah can feel his anger) she started tutoring me ...and surprisingly like I was doing well...my mom and dad was happy that my grades are up and my year will not be wasted....I also liked her but not in a sense the way she liked me' theo huff and took another sip of coffee

Theo put down the coffee and took out his cigarette and lighten up...Sarah looked at Becca knowing the policy of not smoking inside...but theo was gone to care that and Becca also don't pinpoint

Theo took a deep puff 'One of the days we were studying some chemistry shit when my mom enters the room and said to us she and dad are going to someplace I don't remember and it will take some hour...mom requested June to stay little longer ...June happily agreed .. I on another hand was angry that I have to study more....

June can see that in my behavior and she said:' Theo I know you don't want to study more and I won't do that to you. We will play some games how about that' ... I got happy finally I will be away from this study...but her games were different ' Theo close his eyes and make a fist

Sarah can feel her heartbeat beating stupidly fast

Becca calm replied 'what games was that"

Theo turned back and with moist eyes 'she said me to close and lock the door'

Sarah's eyes got water too and she looks down...oh god

(Flashback when Theo was 13)

13-year-old Theo looked at her startlingly 'but why miss June'

June smiled gently 'cause I don't want to get caught playing with you...what if someone told Mrs grey that we were playing not studying'

Theo also nodes 'oh yes...you are right..'he closes the door and locked

Theo stand and said 'ok what should we play..i have some bunch of video games'

June seductively stand and touch Theo hair 'i love that but you look so tall and such a pretty boy we should play some games that are not childish' she continues to touch Theo hair

Theo feel weird ....what she is doing.....her eyes also look different ...but 13-year-old theo was innocent enough to predict something wrong 'oookkkk....miss June I don't know any such games'

June eyes beamed with excitement 'no worries sweet boy... I have some ideas ...why don't you sit on the bed I will tell you'

Theo like a good student sit on the bed...June stand in front of him 'well theo I need you to promise me first...that what we are doing you won't tell anyone...if you did then I won't play with you ever and I will teach you more'

Theo groaned ....no he doesn't want to study 'i promise miss June....'

June replied 'promise on something that I believe in you

Theo replied immediately 'i promise on my baby sister tina...I won't tell please tell me what games we are playing'

June got happy with the reply 'good boy. I trust you now, you will never lie on tina...ok now I will ask some questions ok and you will tell me truthfully'

Theo slowly nodes ...June open the first two buttons of her shirt...that reveal her huge cleavage ...she looked flushed and said in a weird tone that made theo little uncomfortable 'theo how do you like me....you like what you are seeing?' she touches her breast and theo look away feeling ashamed

June touched his face and theo winced, theo then replied 'miss June please this is not good... I think we should not talk like that'

June gets down and touch theo legs 'but I haven't done anything... I know its little strange but you will love it what I will do...you know you are a big boy...someday you will like someone ...she won't be happy you if don't make her feel good'

Theo was confused and little scared too then he jerked..when he felt June hands on his manhood...she moved her hand up and down ...theo feel disgusted and remove her hand 'what are you doing...this wrong' he stands

Bur June hold his arm and made him sat again 'this is right..you will do what I'm telling you to do' she got angry

Theo was feeling embarrassed and angry why this is happening to him 'stop it or I will tell everyone'

June who busy opening his pant and put her hands inside his pants ''you won't...you promised on your baby sister...you do know what happens why you take a fake on oath on someone you loved they died...and secondly your parent won't believe you they know how much you detest chemistry and you are making this up' June glared at him in anger

Theo feel weird and feel like crying...his 13-year-old mind said she is right.....no one will believe him...but he has to do something

June moaned 'look at you for a 13-year-old you do have a long and thick dick' she crudely said, she removes her shirt and theo know it's now and never, he pushed her

June made a startling sound 'stop theo don't you dare to go out...no one is home ...so come back I know you want this'

Theo tears fall down 'no I feel disgusted...you are my teacher....this is so wrong...I don't want it'

June expression changed and she looks remorseful 'im sorry...I thought... I thought you are a big boy who can handle this.... I mean I thought you will be comfortable with me but since its making you uncomfortable I won't do it....but please don't hate me... I wanted to be your friend... I don't have any' she started crying and theo feel bad as he doesn't have any idea what to do

He innocently replied 'miss June...ok.stop crying I will be your friend but please don't do this again....'

June smiled brightly 'really I won't do it I promise I won't.' she runs to him and hugged him...theo tense for a moment but hugged him back. But then he felt a pinched in his armed ..like a pin was put inside his armed..he flinched 'what the heck' his tongue got slurred

June smiled 'sorry love ...l don't want to do this ...especially to you'

Then theo fell down.

After a moment theo felt his body to be tight...he was feeling weird...he can hear some sound and someone hands on his body, he slurry said 'dont....please don't...'he try to move his hand that he found to be tired by something....he feels good and bad at the same time...his body was reacting and he has no idea..

He open his eyes and saw June head was going down ..he saw it was his penis..he jerked in shocked 'no'

June looked him 'sshh sweet boy....look I told you too will like it.. you are so hard and your body is nowhere of teenage boy...you are so handsome' she did again with her mouth and theo felt frustrated tears ..he doesn't want this ...he shake 'no no don't please no...its disgusting'

June then jerked him hard that made theo moaned in pain but June thought something else 'see you liked it...you are making sexy sound... I know this is your first time getting ahead....but baby you will get more if you keep your mouth shut' she yelled at him

Theo felt helpless ...but then something happens he groaned and he felt his penis to pulsing up...he has no idea what's happening....it was strange ...June laughed and out her mouth again...and after a minute Theo knew he orgasm much to his shame and disgust ...he felt another wave of tears...how can he orgasm...how ...she forceful touched him and how he can

June stand and said 'ok lover boy we don't have much time ...but im turned on... I pleased you now you will please me too' she picked theo hands but theo pushed her hard 'stay the hell away from me...you touched me without my permission... I will tell everyone'

June looked bored 'really .....but right now it was you who come like a madman....some evidence can be found in bed....nowhere is mine and looking at your body and height one can easily guess it was you who forced me not me' she smiled

Theo felt the land his slip. He points at her 'you are lying'

June smirked again and then walks to the table and show him the phone 'I was recording too... I don't trust you... I knew the moment you were finished you ill tell everyone...so I recorded you ...look it's your face only not mine...and you were enjoying too'

Theo feels like vomiting.....Then June came and touched his arms ...'now please me and I will go quietly without showing this to anyone' she threaten him while putting him down and opening her pant button 'you know what I like' she evilly said

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Sarah was openly crying...her heart was not broken only for the 13-year-old child but also for herself...when theo has finished his painful story she remembers her days...when theo treated her the same way June treated theo...even the word 'you know what I like' were also same.

Theo face was full on emotions like anger, guilt, and disgust

He wiped his eyes 'i don't know why she did this to me..... I feel so confused and disgusted.... I wanted to kill her....but I was scared and embarrassed too that maybe she was right I enjoyed too but I didn't feel like that...maybe I deserved that

Sarah shouted 'no you dont..you were helpless...you were a child....who was confused and scared and have no choice....like I was at one point' she whispered that last words

Theo walks towards her and kneel down 'maybe but what I did with you make me happy that I endured that molestation for a year' he wiped Sarah tears

Becca stun voice came 'for a year? Was she back again? theo why didn't you told anyone?

Theo looks at her 'yes she was back..she maintain a good facade that anyone falls for her....she sound so pious and graceful..no one doubt her..and I knew no one will believe me....things get over hand when mom hired her to tutor tom too....she blackmailed if I didn't do things she want the same thing to happen with tom...i was stupid I knew she is playing with my head...she is manipulating everyone....(he shamefully look down) so I did it.....'

Sarah gasped, Theo try to protect his brother from that wiled women that he took her abuse for a year

Becca note down 'when it was over...how you stopped her'

Theo sighs and walked again 'she was getting out of hand...she wanted to fuck me...her words not mine...she said she was bored of oral thing she wants more ....and she will get more.....luckily i always found a way out to get her do more...and i pray to god that day never came...after a year she died in a car accident...it was really bad ...her whole body was burned terribly....everyone was crying at her funeral but i was fucking happy she is death..no one will touch me without my permission..i feel alive...but she did a great number on me

As i starting getting involved in fights ....i lose my virginity at 15 and believe me it was more like anger fuck for me ..People getting scared of me...and girls .I start using girls like a dirt...shard fuck was my way to get out June from my system...but then i realized my anger will hurt some girl badly...so i stopped dating and even looking at girls....i knew i has to found out why she did that to me...so with the help of my some older friends. I got to know she molested more than a done kids like me she was into kids (he look disgusted) i dont know why at that moment i knew i was not alone there were many others...i wish that bitch rot in hell'

Becca note down and looked at theo 'theo that was incredibly brave to tell your story.....don't feel guilty and embarrassed about it ..you were innocent it was that bitch fault and yes she is rotting in hell' Becca also said in anger

Becca continues 'today was heavy for both of you ..so I want you guys next week... I hoped I got some pointers that I will discuss that will help to clear your minds '

Sarah nodes and stand but theo looked disturbed....Sarah today feel so sad and sympathetic towards him..she softly called him 'Theo..shall we go?'

Theo sighs and looked her 'yes'

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'Daddy why you are not talking to me' Ava pout and said to theo

Sarah can see how Theo demur has changed after their session with Becca...hell she is also not the same.

She can't even imagine as a child what theo has endured. Men like theo who portrayed themselves so strong, expressing their helpless situations and weakness surely turned them like this what theo is feeling now.

She tries to talk to him but he was not talking he just go directly to his office...it was only dinner time when she sends missy to call him

Now at the dining table, Ava was babbling something and Sarah was gently silencing her

Theo come back from his trance from Ava question and tries to smile 'sorry baby girl I was thinking...ok tell me what you were telling me'

Ava huff 'daddy... I told you I need a new dolly and a cyc....cycle'

Theo smiled 'ok but what you know about cycle'

Ava's eyes shine with excitement 'I saw it on my storybook, Alice was riding a cycle right mama' Ava confirm it from Sarah who was recently read a book to Ava

Sarah nodes with a smile and Theo poke Ava nose 'then you are getting one soon'

Ava replied 'and a dolly too'

Theo laughed 'ok ok a new dolly anything else miss Ava'

But Sarah stopped him 'no you won't...Ava, you already have so many dollies...daddy just got you a new one a few weeks ago' she said in a mothering tone

Ava replied 'but mama I played with her ...now I'm bored'

Sarah looked at theo 'see I told you...you were spoiling her.....no ava play with something else but you won't got another doll now'

Ava's lips shake like she is going to cry 'daddy ...please'

Theo looked confronted what to do....he smiled 'but baby mama is right....if I buy you a new one you will get bored of that one...'

Ava looks down and sadly node 'ok'

Theo opened his mouth but Sarah touch his hand and softly said only he can hear 'theo you did right'

Theo looked at her hand and his daughter face and nodes but Sarah also saw theo winked her daughter that made Ava smiled...she knows he will buy her new doll...she shakes her head in amusement

After dinner and putting Ava in bed...theo walk towards his office side..Sarah try to stop him 'you are going again?"

Theo looked at her with heavy eyes and said 'yes. I need to do some work'

And he walked away leaving Sarah hurting for him

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Sarah felt her eyes dropping since she can't read any further...the novel she picked was super romantic and cliché.She closed it and saw the time it was more than an hour theo still didn't come...she decides to check him but stop why she should...but if she checked and he gets angry. His moods are now all over the place.

She dropped to her pillow and closed her eyes....but being so tired and sleepy she still can't sleep as theo words were still echoing in her mind....oh god she feel such an immense anger for that June women...why she did that...why she attack a helpless innocent boy...she was in her deep thoughts that she heard her room door opened ...it was theo who looks little tipsy and tired.

He saw her 'you are still awake'

Sarah replied 'yes I was reading a book'

Theo smiled 'you really a bookworm'

Sarah smiled back but she saw how theo smiled dropped and he looked super sad and disturb

Sarah sat in the bed 'theo whats wrong'

she touched his hand 'talk to me please'

Theo looked her hand that touched his 'i think... I think I lost myself so many years ago but when you came you brought a fire in me to live ..maybe for wrong reasons but then I lost myself again ...even you are in front of me (he gently touched her hair) but still you are not here... I can't find myself again.'he regretfully said

Sarah understand his meaning behind the words 'maybe you still have the anger ...maybe your guilt is speaking...maybe there is still so much between us that need to be gone first'

Theo touched the brown locks of Sarah 'or maybe I'm insanely attracted towards you. After knowing what happens to me and what happens to you I still want you like crazy and no other women.. I was 27 when I saw your first picture when I was working on tina case. I was mesmerized by you honestly. I forget everyone

sarah looked angry 'because your mind was filled with how to take revenge on me'

Theo does not deny that' yes that too but your innocent beauty was making me angry that why I can't fuck another woman, why I'm attracted to you... I was a bastard...maybe I'm still causing right now all I want to do is forget this pain that I have inside myself and pain that I have given you...but I don't deserve that' his lips wobbled like he will cry at any moment

Sarah heart construct 'how can you forget this pain theo?'

Theo looked at her with moist eyes 'maybe never or maybe I can kiss these lips and try to remember the good things in my life' he was close to her ...so close

Sarah's heart was beating fast...she knows this is wrong...so wrong but the way he is looking at her and the way he is asking permission without asking made her crazy and close the distance more and slight nodes

Theo closes his eyes like he cants believe it. He then lightly put his lips and kissed her sweetly. Sarah knew she is also attracted to him but right now its all about forgetting the pain they both endured...she kissed him back...Theo put his hand on her back and brought her closer.

They were passionately kissing each other and were feeling out of the world....Theo moans so did Sarah...Theo kissed her neck 'god you smell so good'

Sarah moans again loudly when he touched her breast...Theo become tense 'Sarah I need to stop otherwise I won't control myself' while fondling her

Sarah was gone 'no don't stop...oh god' when theo pinched and kissed her breast passionately

Then theo remove Sarah gown and so his clothes and lovingly kissed her whole body..sarah was terribly shaking and moaning loudly....theo took his time in foreplay and satisfied Sarah more than once 'i need more... I need more 'Sarah moaned loudly

Theo gets above her and looked at her with so much love 'oh my god I can't believe it's happening. I dreamt of this. I fucking dream of this' he said this all while entering her

Both gasped in pleasure and both were lost in the danger of passion that will show the reality in the next morning.