Cruel World novel Chapter 65

Chap 64

Theo

He can feel Sarah turmoil because it was the exact feeling he was felling for himself, he was terrified too...it was really a prison the way Becca defined it and the things he read but he deserves this...there was a time he put Sarah into a prison and it's his time to go. He knows it's not enough but still he will do anything to take out Sarah inner fear, he really wants her forgiveness.

It was almost night when he saw sarah sitting in the balcony of their room...she was aimlessly looking at the sky...he walk slowly and called her name 'sarah what you are thinking'

She shrugs like it doesn't matter 'how would you explain to dad and especially to Ava...you do know she is crazy about you...if you are gone for two months with no contact with her. She will be miserable...how can you do this to her'

Theo closes his eyes this was the most difficult. Yes, the same thoughts were in his mind...his little Ava will be so sad and confused.

He tiredly put his head on the chair he is sitting 'honestly I don't know anything right now. I know it is difficult but its very important too, very important Sarah... I need this ... I will think about something, what to tell dad and Ava but we both are tired so can be put this topic aside and sleep'

Sarah sighs 'ok but Theo are you really sure?'

Theo stand and walk Sarah towards the room 'you have no idea how sure I'm...now come don't think tonight about this'

But he knows this is the only topic that both will thing in the night

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Theo walk towards his father office after two days later...he can see his father conditions improving ...his speech are almost normal, he is even getting out of the wheelchair and using a wooden stick to walk with.

'Mr grey this is great a few more steps and you can rest' the nurse encourage him

Mr grey huff 'young lady you are really tiring me...you know my daughter Sarah and my granddaughter will be coming at this time...'

The Nurse shake her head 'I told Mrs grey to come later you are behind your walking routine.....and no more argument on this just few more minutes and your done'

Theo coughed and said 'good morning. I hope I'm not disturbing you guys'

Mr grey never looked theo properly ...that always made theo ache and sad...he knew he lost his father love and respect a year ago in Miami ...'of course you are the disturbance for everyone' Mr grey hate for him, made theo flinched in grieve.

Nurse made Mr Grey sit down and excuse both of the

Mr Grey turned his back and said 'what you want. Why you are here'

Theo deserves this he knew it but damn it stings when his father talk to him like that when he clearly disgust his father.

Theo sit down on the couch next to Mr grey 'dad, I came here to talk about something...actually you know about how Sarah and I are using a therapist for months...and it works out great for us especially for Sarah but still they are things that are left to be done and solved which is only in our hand'

Mr. Grey ignored him and don't say a word...theo continue 'but dad...Becca our therapist told me to go away from here at least for 8 weeks at some place more likely a rehab on anger management, so I have decided to do that'

Mr Grey become tense he slowly turned his head 'you are going? for two months? (theo nodes) no..no I know you-you will run from there too...like you did in your teens... it's not in you to accept your mistakes and let other people live in peace'

Theo winced 'no dad I'm dead serious. I know I shouldn't have run from such places in my teen but now I have too many reasons to do this... I just came here to tell you I love you and I know you hate me and probably never gonna forgive me.....but please give me a chance to be your son again..please dad I will prove it to you in really changing....but till then I'm gone please took care of my family...especially Ava....(theo choked with emotions) she will need you more after me'

Mr Grey eyes become different too but he masked it 'Don't worry about Ava and Sarah they are always taken care by me even you are here or not'

Theo smile a little 'thank you so much, dad'

Mr grey don't answer him....leaving theo too sad

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'ok Ava ..don't pull this frock too much..you will tear it and be nice to your uncle mark' Theo saw how Sarah was making Ava sit at one place but his daughter want to take out those pink shiny shoes from her foot

'Mama I'm always good and I meet uncle mark before...right daddy' Ava confirmed from Theo

Theo replied 'wow you remember ...yes you did'

Ava takes off the shoes and tries to run.Theo laughed at his pro-active daughter

But Sarah caught her on time 'Ava Grey right now wear those shoes' she said in mom's voice

Ava pout, Sarah looked at theo 'why you are laughing at least come to make her wear these shoes and tell her not to take them off' Sarah walk towards the washroom

Theo smirked 'ok boss....come princess run to daddy and let wear your mom favorite colorful shoes'

Sarah glared at him and shakes her head...Ava who has already put the end of her frock on her mouth and was chewing it badly

'oh baby stop doing that otherwise your mama will shout at both of us'

Theo redo her dress and made her wear her shoes and pinched her cheeks. Theo saw how beautiful and adorable Ava is, she looks super cute....how he will live without her in 8 weeks...he shakes his head

He playfully spanked her butt 'now run to dada and show him you dress'

Ava 'okay dokay' and then she run like she is in a race

Theo smiled in wonder, where she learns such words.

He enters the bathroom and saw Sarah combing her hair. He was totally awestruck by her beauty...he always did but today she looked exceptionally beautiful with the red and black dress and open hair

He can't stop himself 'you looked ravishing ...totally the most beautiful women i have ever known'

Sarah stop what she was doing and turn to him with the stunned face like she still can't believe what he said 'really I do? I look presentable enough?'

her hesitant voice was a sucker punch to his gut. He still can see the insecurity Sarah had because of her beauty and it's all because of him....he still can't believe how he openly lied to her in that worse time and called her ugly

He softly said 'of course you are not only presentable but so elegant and beautiful looking...especially this color suits you so much.... I love anything you wore but today I'm mesmerized by your beauty' he lightly kissed her cheeks that made Sarah blushed so much

She timidly smiles 'thank you...you should get ready too...mark will be here... I will take out your clothes'

He smiled 'ok but no need to do my stuff I can do it'

Sarah replied while going out 'well I want to and since it's a casual dinner I don't want you to wear your stiff suits ' she lightly said

Theo laughed while taking out his shirt and opening the shower 'wow I never expect you criticizing my clothing'

Sarah enter the washroom but stop when she saw theo tone and fit body ',God! theo ...at least close the door' she turned her back

Theo smirked 'well I thought we are quite used to it now'

Sarah turned her face and shyly ogled him 'I'm going out and your clothes are outside'

Theo laughed loudly at her action ...but stops when he realized after tonight he will miss all this.

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Theo shakes hands with Mark in a very manly and professional manner. He can still see how Mark was super tense and have anger in his eyes when he greets him but they both put a show for Sarah.

'Good to have you here Mark' Theo kindly said

Mark nodes and look away 'yeah I'm here for Sarah 'he tightly replied

Sarah came with a big smile 'come on every one dinner is ready and look at this (she pointed at all the gifts) Mark you don't have to bring this all'

Mark side hugged her sister 'its nothing and half of them are for my niece Ava...im making it for lost years' he kneel down and hugged Ava

Ava looks for the approval of her parents 'Thank you uncle Mark' Ava said

Mark picked her 'no problem sweet girl

In the dining table ...mark kept the conversation light even Sarah try to make the silence less awkward but it was all sorted when Mr Grey starts asking mark about his work and business...Theo shakes his head...thank god he doesn't have to talk to him because from his past experience they talk less and fight more.

He can saw how Sarah gives a nervous glance to mark and theo ...when they both will bust up but theo gives her an understanding node that comforts her enough

Mark then said 'so sarah how come you start working....i mean i always know you are talented but why now? did theo decided that he need a helping hand in office too' he baited everyone on the table

Sarah gives a look of don't do this and mark smiled while eating his dinner that he enjoyed doing this.

Sarah then said 'Im really happy with my job and that's important mark'

Theo wiped his face with the napkin 'actually it was dad and Sarah decision and I supported her , yes I was an ass before not to support her before ...but never mind Sarah work in her office is exceptional'

Mark glared him like he didn't give a shit what he said

Ava might picked the word 'ASS...whats ass'

Sarah corrected her 'Ava...dont say such words ...and theo whats wrong with you don't use such words in front of her' she glared him. Theo raised his hand but also laughed 'sorry and Ava mama is right that A word is very bad word'

Mark and Mr Grey can also can't control their laughter and joined theo....Sarah pass everyone a shocked and amazed look

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Theo came outside and gives Mark his coffee. Mark took it but still don't said anything

Theo cough to clear the awkwardness 'im glad you took your time to meet us'

Mark huff 'im here for Sarah and Ava'

Theo control his anger, this young dude his really checking his patience

Theo tries to find Sarah where she is ...'will you stay here...Sarah will be very happy if you did'

Mark shrugs 'I have to go tomorrow morning...so I cant.. '

Theo nodes ..what else he can say

Then Theo said 'Mark I know there's a lot of between us and I'm responsible for this but I will say again I'm so sorry ....the things I have put you and Sarah into I'm so sorry'

Mark glared him 'you know why I hate to come here because I remember the time when you called my parents and me to meet Sarah after so many years....all the time we were blaming Sarah that she doesn't want to meet us but what we got in the end that my sister was dragged by police officer...my parents being humiliated in front of everyone. Fuck your own dad was crying to stop that but you and your brother did everything to humiliate the hell out of us and make my sister life hell, so yes there is always a reason to hate you guys more' he snaps at him

Theo flinched and he recall all what Mark said....fuck he never thought that this will refresh their old wounds...

Theo pinched 'mark I'm so ashamed i have no words to defend myself because I can't as I was a cruel bastard who hurt everyone in this process but you know very well why I did this...but you can also see the change..you can see how she is changed and I'm supporting her hell I'm also making changing that's why I'm going away from them ' He plead him to understand him

Mark raises an eyebrow 'what do you mean you are going?'

Theo sighs 'im going to some anger management rehab .....For two months ....I will have no contacts with them ....if I being honest I already hate this idea to give my freedom but I'm doing this for Sarah'

Mark give him a shocked look 'you aren't serious? no way you do this'

Theo nodes 'i know you won't believe me ...my own father has similar thoughts like you but I'm going...I'm really going tomorrow evening actually'

Mark looks speechless 'fuck...and who will look after your business and your family ... I still can't believe it'

Theo smile 'well as you notice your sister is quite efficient and now very confident of handling everything....I'm very contented she will be okay and keep everyone ok'

Mark sighs 'yeah I did notice some big changes in her ....they were not even before her marriage. Sarah was always a fragile and soft-hearted girl...she was very innocent....and my mom let her remain like that as it was more ladylike ' mark irritated said and theo keenly listen to him

Mark continues 'but she is very strong much stronger than us. I don't want to say this to you but yes she is changed and I feel so happy today...it doesn't mean I forget what you did with her but I can say you are changed too that's why she is changed'

Both the men give a non-verbal understanding look to each other.

Sarah

Everything went well but she is still disturbed, tomorrow Theo is going and she really wanted to cry badly.

But she won't...not now..she should break this habit of crying for once

She turned her back while tying on bed and though about things that will happen in this two month time period...will she be ok...will Ava be ok...AVA ...oh god theo still haven't told Ava and he is going tomorrow.

Then she felt her bed dipped it was Theo.

She turned her body and quietly looked at him. He removed his watch, put his wallet and phone on the table and lie down and said 'what happens..you are too quiet'

They were facing each other ....Theo came closer and touch her nose 'tell me what is it'

Sarah replied 'you still haven't told AVa you are going'

Theo eye becomes soft 'i know....and I don't know why its so damn difficult for me to tell her... I was with her moment ago ...reading her favourite story at one point o did decide I will tell her now...but I just cant....i need some time with her so I was thinking to talk to her in the morning... I will something up...will you help me?' he looks like a child and Sarah's heart soften for him more

'course I will' she smiled

Theo came closer and Sarah breathing starts getting fast 'I know I shouldn't ask you this but if you are comfortable can I hold you tonight. I just want to take this moment with me ...when I will be locked in a white room I will recall this moment' he smiled

Sarah closed her eyes and a tear fall 'i would like that too' she put her head in theo chest

Theo hold her tight and kissed her head 'i love you so much, more than anything'

Sarah doesn't say anything. Don't know what was holding her back but she also tightens her hold to him.

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(Next morning)

'I don't like this game daddy...don't go' Ava clung to theo when he told her the news

Sarah also felt immensely bad for this

Theo rocked her little body 'Hey princess you know its just a game... I will be back so soon...all you have to do take care of yourself..of your mama and of course of your dada and when you did well I will come.'

Ava looked at him with her big golden eyes 'but how would you know I'm taking care mama and dada'

Sarah helped him 'well daddy will see you and then you will get a present in the end'

Theo remove the hair from Ava's face 'yes baby I will always see you even if I'm not here....it for few weeks and I will meet you soon...till then I got something for you that will keep you busy and connected with me'

Sarah also observed what he is taking out; it was an iPad ...Sarah eyes also got big just like Ava

'Here you can watch all your favorite cartoons and see all the pictures and videos I have stored for you but also when mama allowed it' Theo winked Sarah

Sarah shakes her head while smiling...Ava opens the iPad 'wow daddy it just like yours. I love it'

Theo tell Sarah 'don't worry its kids friendly'

They were lost in their moment when Butler came and told Theo its time

Theo picked Ava and said to Sarah 'come on just say goodbye to me girls' he lightly said

Sarah moist with tears but she tries to stay strong.

When they reached down they saw me grey was also there standing with the help of a stick, waiting for his son

Theo eyes beamed with happiness 'Dad! you are here? i was coming to meet you'

Mr grey for the first time look theo into his eyes 'i thought I should see off you..so you are really doing this?'

Theo nodes 'yes dad I told you I'm serious'

Ava looked her dadda 'dadda till daddy is gone I'm going to take care you and mama'

Mr Grey smiled 'oh really ...then I should not worry anymore'

Theo looked at Sarah and cup her face will 'see after two months'

Sarah feels his touch and sighs ' have a safe journey Theo'

Theo kissed Ava and Sarah's head sit in the car...leaving his dad, wife and daughter standing with a sad expression.