Don’t Cry Baby novel Chapter 9

I sit in my room completely alone, hearing only the sound of my own thoughts flowing through my head. The pain of watching her walk away from me, and walk out the door was almost unbearable. I love her, I love her so much that it hurts. She has taken over all my thoughts in every waking or sleeping moment. I can't get rid of her no matter how hard I try. I will do anything to get her back. She is mine and she will always be mine. No matter what I have to go through to get her.

She remembered last night how good we are together, how good we always were. She still lobes me and she still wants to be with me, I know it. It's just him, he gets in the way. She loves him too, which means I need to get rid of him or at least her feelings for him.

I need to see her, I need to be with her. I can't handle this waiting game. I walk into the bathroom and stare at myself in the mirror. She must look at me and hate me for what I have done to her. I don't know what happens when I get like that. It's like all the sudden I can't breathe and I see red. Everything happens so fast.

My demons have come back to haunt me. I hear them; all the time, taunting me. Telling me shes too good for me and if I want to keep her I know what I have to do. They're right id o know, it's just not time yet. That will be my last resort. If my plan doesn't work, my plan to win her back.

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I stand outside watching her through the window. Her beautiful brown hair flowing in waves cascading down her back like a waterfall. Her body curvy and graceful, her every move putting me in a trance. How did I even get lucky enough to have her in the first place, I have no idea.

The first day we met was really like any other day. I had some errands to run downtown, between jobs. She walked out of this bookstore, I later found out was her favourite, carrying that damn book she has read over and over. I'll regret destroying it for the rest of my life.

She looked so damn beautiful in these tight jeans that hugged her in all the right places and a green day t-shirt. Her hair was up in this messy bun that showed off her cheekbones and those beautiful green eyes she's always hated firmly planted on this book.

She walked by me with her head down, I called to her. I needed to know her name or at least hear her voice. I knew she'd be a distraction from work but, I was hooked the minute I laid eyes on her. She ignored my attempts to get her attention. I grew frustrated by this but called to her again. She turned and smiled shyly.

We got to talking and instantly hit it off. I was completely amazed that this beautiful girl gave me the time of day. I should have told her what she was getting herself into that day. I should have told her about my job and my demons. She could have run away and never looked back but, I was selfish and I needed to have her. I still haven't told her the truth to this day.

I climb up the tree, the same tree I used to climb up every night after I met this girl. i get up to the window and slide it open slowly. There's my girl, lying comfortably in bed. She seems so peaceful at night. I walk over and kneel at her bedside. I caress her face and she slowly flutters her eyes open. She sees me and her eyes grow wide for a second before she processes who's kneeling in front of her.

"Oh baby doll, I had to come and see you. They only keep quiet when I'm around you. If i'm lucky." She stares at me with a confused expression.

"What are you talking about Tyler?"