From Hell To Heaven novel Chapter 60

Akash POV

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I love my angel so much that I would kill myself just to make her happy. I would rather rot in hell than seeing her die in front of my eyes. I can't risk her life. I could never forgive myself if I let my angel die. Then how can I handle my baby without her? Also I don't want my baby to grow up without his/her mom, because I know the pain. It is the world's biggest pain.

I love my angel more than my baby. Not that I don't love my baby but I love my angel more. I know that I would better be able to cope with the loss of a child more easily than with the loss of my wife. My angel will always be the most important person in the world to me. Even more important than myself.

If it was between ME and BABY, I'd choose to save the kid without a second thought. Though it's a very tough choice, but I'd save my wife.

"Then abort the baby doctor. I want my wife back safely to me" I said swallowing the pain. My heart tightened. It would be the most horrible experience in my life.

"I'm keeping my baby. I'm not going for an abortion." Angel said and stood up hurriedly left the doctor's cabin.

"Angel wait....." I stood up but doctor interrupted me.

"Mr.Mehra, please make the decision soon" Doctor said. I walked out of her cabin with a broken heart. I went outside and saw my angel sitting in our car. She was crying badly. I sat on car, we didn't talk to each other. I silently drove the car to our home.

Soon we reached our home. Angel opened the car door and hurriedly went inside. I parked the car and went inside our bedroom to see my angel touching her stomach and crying badly. My heart broke into million pieces seeing her cry like this.

I went to her and knelt down in front of her, holding her hands in mine, "Angel" I whispered painfully.

"Angel Please abort our baby. I know its very difficult for us but we don't have any other choice. I can't risk your life. Please understand the situation angel, please" I said while crying.

"Akash, tell me one thing. If a mother kills a child and she lives her rest of her life with the knowledge that she took her child's life, how can she live peacefully?" she said crying badly.

"I understand your situation angel but please think practically. If something wrong happens to you in delivery and our baby survives, then how can I handle our baby alone? I can't live without you. All I know is that I will die without you. Then think what will happen to our baby, without you and me?" I asked her trying to make her understand the situation.

"I don't want any explanation. All I want is my baby and I am not going to kill my baby" she said and hugged her stomach protectively.

"Angel, please don't be stubborn. Tomorrow we are going to abort the baby and that's final" I said angrily and stood up.

"You are so heartless! You are a monster! How can you ask me to kill our baby? God will never forgive you for this! Plus, its not the baby's fault Akash!" she told crying very badly.

"I don't care about your god. Call me monster, heartless or whatever you want! But I only care about your life. If your god really exists in this world, he would have never created this tough situation for us. Tomorrow we are going to see the doctor for abortion and no more arguments" I said sternly and tears are flowing in her eyes.

"I won't do that" she said stubbornly.

"Angel, your life is mine. We promised that we will share everything and we will face every situation holding our hands together. So I already made the decision and you have to accept it" I said angrily.

"Do you really love me or am I just your obsession?" she asked me and my heart broke into a million pieces. I know she is angry with me but I never knew that she will question my love. I didn't say anything to her and left the house.

Dharani POV

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Why god? Why? Why me? Why me always?

"My baby means a lot to me. Please don't snatch my baby away from me. You already snatched my parents from me, I don't want to lose my baby also" I cried my heart out in front of god idol.

I don't know where Akash went. He told me his decision clearly and left the home. Before he arrives, I am going to leave this house because I have to save my baby. I'm not going to abort my baby. I went to our bedroom and took a paper and a pen and started writing a letter to Akash.

Dear Akash,

When you read this, I will no longer be here. I'm sorry that I have to leave you. I never meant for this to happen. I really love you Akash. I am sorry for leaving you like this. Forgive me Akash. I'm truly sorry for the pain that I caused you. It's not going to be easy for me either, believe me. I really wish things didn't have to be this way. But I can't kill our baby. So I'm leaving you. I know you are caring for me, my health. But for me, our baby is more important than my life.

All my life, no one really loved me. So I didn't really knew what love was till you came into my life. I'm glad you did because you taught me how to really live and love. And I'm thankful for that.

I love you, forever and always. I love you, Akash!

Please forgive me, if possible.

Your Angel.

I finished writing the letter. Tears are flowing down my cheeks continuously. I have to get out of here before Akash gets back. I folded the letter and rushed to the bedroom. 

I packed all my things and took the letter in my hand. I went to the living room and placed the letter on the center table.

Akash POV

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After 3 hours of journey, I reached my mom's cemetery. I knelt in front of my mom's grave and asked her.

"Mom, I need you now more than ever. Where are you mom? Mom, I'm in so much pain. I can't bear it. I don't know how much more I can take. Mom do you see my tears? I'm tired of watching my angel cry. It makes me want to die. I would give my own life just to see her smile. Please help me to overcome my pain.

We just found out about our baby. I was so happy. It makes us smile for a moment and the next moment, fate steels it from us again.But I know you have all the power. Please help me mom.If not for me, then please do it for my angel. I'm begging you mom. Please, I can't take this pain anymore. Show me the right path. I can't find another place to go except you. Please save your grandchild mom" I told, crying my heart out. I felt a cold breeze touching me and I know my mom is listening my words.

Suddenly my cellphone started ringing. The caller id showed its Sanjana. I attended the call.

"Hi buddy, how are you?" Sanjana asked me cheerfully.

"H...Hi Sanjana" I choked.

"Hey Akash, what happened to you? Are you crying?" Sanjana asked me worried.

"Yes, I'm crying because I'm worst father in the world. I can't save my child Sanjana" I said crying.

"Akash, tell me clearly. What happened and baby? Whose baby?" Sanjana asked me and I told her everything about Dharani's pregnancy and her complication.

"Why didn't you contact me before?" Sanjana asked me angrily.

"I wanted to contact you before but you are getting married. So I didn't want to disturb you Sanjana" I told her.

"Oh god Akash! Please don't cry. See Akash, now a days premature is very common and I can assure you I will help you to solve this problem. Akash, I know some U.S child specialist doctors and they will give us some solution for this problem" Sanjana said and I got my breath back.

"Really Sanjana? Will you save my child?" I asked her hopefully.

"Of course Akash, I will save your child and your wife. Now please visit me tomorrow at my hospital with Dharani" Sanjana said.

"Ok Sanjana, I will visit you tomorrow. Thank you so much for your help Sanjana. You don't know how happy I am. I'm so lucky to have you as my friend" I told her happily.

"Hey don't be silly! We are friends Akash. Now wipe your tears and go home because your Dharani needs you" she said.

"Yes, my angel needs me now. I have to go to home, see you tomorrow. Bye Sanjana" I hang up the phone.

Then I looked at my mom's cemetery and smiled.

"I know mom, it's you who helped me through Sanjana. Thank you so much mom, for everything" I said happily and drove to my home.

Finally I reached home and parked my car. I made my way to the main door.

A small gasp escaped my angel's mouth and her big doe eyes widened in shock as soon as she saw me.

There she was, standing right in front of me with a suitcase in her hand. She was looking nervous.

I panicked looking at her. She tried to leave me and this house? Why?

"Where do you think you are going?" I asked her in my most dangerous tone and she gulped.

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