Her Cold-Hearted Alpha novel Chapter 116

ALEJANDRO

Her words rang in my fucking head , saying exactly what I was fucking worried about . If I hadn’t met my nympho , I wouldn’t have cared …. If I was killed no one would have cared , but for Kiara , I had to stay alive . Indigo had become a shell of the woman she once was , and it fucking scared me that if anything were to happen to me …

Is that what would happen to Kiara ? Just the thought made my blood run cold … I ran m y hand through my hair , smoking my cigarette . I needed to stop thinking shit like this . ” Baby … ” Kiara’s sexy voice came as she walked over to me , placing her hand on m y waist as she looked up at me .

Her eyes were full of concern . ” Relax . ” ” I am fucking relaxing . ” I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her against m e . Inhaling her scent , my hand resting on her ass . ” Why are you so stressed ? ” She asked , now looking up at me with concern in her eyes .

I couldn’t tell her what I was scared of … Yeah , I was fucking afraid . I simply shook my head , despite seeing the flicker of hurt in her eyes . She knew I was hiding something , and I knew she knew …. She hugged me tightly and I caressed her back , kissing her shoulder .

” Talk to me … ” She whispered . I closed my eyes . I couldn’t . ” I just need to know what her fucking plan is . ” I muttered . She moved back , cupping my face . She knew I lied , but she said nothing , kissing me deeply .

I hugged her tight , my cigarette loosely between two fingers in m y hand on her ass , the other tangling into her hair as I kissed her . ” We will be ok . ” She said so quietly that I almost didn’t hear . Her heart was pounding . So , she knew what was bothering me without me even having to speak .

I moved back , caressing her cheek before I dropped to my knees and wrapped my arms around her waist , burying my head against her stomach . Kissing it tenderly as I inhaled her intoxicating scent . She wrapped her arms around : my head , caressing my hair .

I hated this feeling of not knowing , I was feeling what every single one of my warriors felt when I threw them into the unknown . I never understood those emotions when they bid farewell to their mates .

I never wanted to feel this hopeless … But at the same time , if it meant having her in my life , I was willing to do anything and feel anything to keep her forever … ” Ale … ” Rafael trailed off and I moved back , standing up smoothly . Schooling m y face into an emotionless mask . I turned and looked at him coldly . ” What the fuck do you want ? ” ” Sorry … I just … wanted to make sure you’re ok . ” He said quietly . I raised an eyebrow , taking a drag of my cigarette . ” And why the fuck wouldn’t I be ? ” I asked .

He shook his head , giving me a small sad smile . ” 1 ” No reason . A thick silence fell between us before Rafael scratched the back of his head . ” Umm , I’ll leave you two to it … ” ” I think we all need to unwind . Maybe we should do something ?

” Kiara said suddenly . ” Like ? ” Rafael asked , sounding like a fucking hopeful pup . The fuck ? He’s like forty plus . ” Oh …. I have the perfect idea … ” I looked at her and there it was , that Cheshire cat smile … My nympho was up to something and I wasn’t sure I trusted her …

I exchanged looks with Rafael as Kiara giggled to herself , a pout on her face . Yeah , I’m fucking right … She’s up to shit . ” Ouch ! Careful Elijah ! ” Scarlett snapped . I clenched my jaw . The smell of burnt onions was fucking up my nose and this kitchen was too fucking tight for six fucking men .

Yeah , this was Kiara’s idea , that I , Elijah , Marcel , Rafael , Liam and that Fucker Damon should have a fucking cooking competition . How the hell she got everyone to join in was fucking beyond m e . To make shit worse , the most annoying fucking women were on the judging panel .

Yeah , Scarlett , Raven the old hag Amelia and then there was Kiara , the exception . Despite this being her idea , I couldn’t stay annoyed at her . When she had handed me an apron , I had tossed it in the trash . I was in no fucking way wearing that shit .

” Come on boys ! Get those sexy asses moving … Rogue Alpha … do you seriously not know how to turn that on … ? ” Raven remarked . Her annoying as fuck voice grating in my ears . ” Fuck . ” Elijah murmured , almost bumping into Rafael . ” Do I need to do this ? I mean , I’m not an Alpha … ” Damon protested . Yeah , why the fuck was he here for ?

” Leave . ” I remarked , earning a frown from Kiara . ” Baby , what are you making ? ” Scarlett asked , looking annoyed as Elijah spilt some shit on her cooker . I smirked . ” He’s cooking shit by the looks of it . ” Almost everyone burst into laughter as Elijah growled at me .

Well , it looked like that anyway . What the fuck was that supposed to be … gravy ? ” What about you , Liam , what are you making ? ” Raven asked , tilting her head . Liam gave her a small smirk . ” Unlike the rest of these guys , I actually know how to make a few bits .

I’m not trying to impress anyone … but it’s turning out good . ” He said with a small pout as he looked at his baking tray . The fucker was making a cake . Men don’t make cake ! What the hell was he ? A pussy ? ” Ooo Liam , are you making your Victoria sponge ? ” Kiara asked , leaning over the counter , her breasts spilling out of her top well almost . She was hot as fucking hell ..

” Seems like the little prissy is just another princess … Elijah were you not man enough to raise an Alpha ? Look at that , you have yourself a cake baking boy . ” Amelia added . These women sure were brutal . They all began laughing , although Scarlett gave her son an apologetic look .

Liam rolled his eyes . ” Cooking and baking does not make me any less of a man . ” He stated , giving them a look .. ” And I think he’s actually handling this … ” Rafael murmured . 1 smirked . Now there was a fucker who really was losing .

He had never cooked in his fucking life , and I knew Maria never let him touch shit . Well , he was paying for it now . ” What are you making ? A salad ? ” I asked , mockingly . ” Cutting veg takes skills . ” Rafael replied , sucking his thumb after his fucking fifth accident and almost slicing his finger off entirely.

” Well , I know all you men seem to talk really big . Let’s see if you are actually capable of making dinner .

My … I’m glad you ladies called me to witness this . Six oafs trying to cook . ” Amelia remarked , sipping her tea . The four women were sitting at the counter on the stools , and it was annoying as hell . ‘ Not going to help me , Amore Mio ? ‘ Nope … But if you win … I’ll give you something tonight …

‘ She replied suggestively . I glanced at her , feeling myself throb . ‘ You’d give me that anyway … ‘ I replied . ‘ A t least fucking guide me … ” ‘ Sorry … How about you win and I’ll dress a sa pretty little maid for you ? ” She teased . Fuck .

That image was hot as fuck … ” Are you two cheating ? ” Raven asked sharply . ” No ! ” Kiara protested . I looked at the pan that held the grilled chicken , I was trying to make some fillets to create some burgers … the image of Kiara in a tiny maid outfit was kinky ….

‘ Fine . You better have a good outfit . ‘ I growled through the link . She smirked . ‘ Oh , I know exactly where to get one , sooo you better win . ‘ I fucking intended to … I tasted the spices , maybe a bit more salt … ” Oh shit ! ” Damon swore as he took his burned onions out of the fucking cooker for the second fucking time . How stupid was he ? I gave him a cold glare , and glanced around at the so – called ” competition .

‘ After a quick look , I think my only competition was either Marcel or Liam …. Marcel was working silently , but he seemed to know what he was doing . Plus , cake boy … He looked at me and I frowned a t him . I forget he’s Kiara’s fucking twin …. ” What you looking at ? ” I frowned .

” You were actually looking at me first , Alpha . ” He said , with a small smile . I ignored him and got back to flipping my chicken . Music was playing lightly in the background , and I looked around as Marcel pointed something out to Rafael .

Elijah was frowning as Rafael slapped his back whilst Damon and Liam were snickering over the burned onions . I glanced at the women , seeing them laughing and pointing . My eyes met Kiara’s and I realised this had actually lessened the tension …

I knew she had tried to get Indigo to join but she had refused and stayed in her room . I walked over to her , leaning on the counter and reaching over to kiss her lips . Sizzling sparks rushed through me when mine met her plush ones .

She sighed against m y lips , her fingers tugging at my necklaces . Raven whistled . ” No bribing the judge ! ” Scarlett said , waving me back . Kiara blushed , her heart pounding as I gave her a sexy smirk and walked back to my pan , narrowing my eyes at Damon , who had been eyeing it .

” Touch it or try fucking sabotaging me and I’ll fucking castrate you . ” I growled . Liam smirked as Damon raised his hands i n mock surrender . Amelia snorted . ” He at least says it as it is . ” She remarked to Kiara . ” He does . ” Kiara replied softly .

I stabbed the chicken , I was definitely going to win this shit . ” Looks good , Alpha . ” Liam said , looking over my shoulder . I frowned at him , ” Alejandro’s fine … ” I said coldly . Why the fuck did I say that … ? ” Aww . ” That pint – sized brat cooed .

Yeah , see , I shouldn’t have fucking spoken . ‘ I love you . ‘ Kiara’s voice came in my head . Same , Amore Mio … I did not want to do this shit , but he was Kiara’s brother … He grinned at me , and it was then that Damon put his elbow on my shoulder .

” Can I call you Al too ? ” ” No. It’s Alpha to you . ” I frowned . ” 1 ” Alejandro then ? ” He said , smirking . I’m Kiara’s friend . ” ” Yeah , and a dickhead . ” I said shrugging him off and taking my chicken pieces out o of the pan . ” Should we be honoured that Al is actually cooking for us ? ” Rafael remarked . They began agreeing and I just had to picture Kiara in a little kinky outfit to keep my fucking cool …

INDIGO

I could hear them all downstairs through the open window , laughing , joking and teasing . The pain that clawed at my chest hurt more than I could ever put into words . They said losing a mate was like losing half your soul . And it did feel like that … it tore me apart from the inside .

The worst part was I didn’t even get the chance to ask Fred where I was lacking … I know deep down it isn’t my fault , it was never my fault … I wanted to believe that … But was I really completely broken ?

Every time he went to another she – wolf , it broke me … Looking into the eyes of those women who couldn’t even meet my gaze because they knew he was meant to be my mate . I broke into tears , hating how I was stuck i n this vicious cycle . I wrapped my arms around my knees , feeling useless . I had grown up witnessing my mother’s recovery from abuse , both physical and mental .

Experiencing it … I felt so … weak , too weak to escape . I didn’t know when it became my life . But even then , I still loved Fred … I know … I know Alejandro , in his own twisted way , wanted to help . He always showed me some compassion . In his own way , he looked out for his pack members , but I hated how he made this decision for me .

Guilt consumed me , remembering what I had said earlier . I could never wish that on Kiara … In my anger towards Alejandro , I had hurt her too . Even after what I said , El and Scar were still very supportive ; all El said was that he would re – join me in their pack … Scar had simply told me things would get better , that this was not the end … I had our pup too … the only thing I had left of him …

I broke into tears , rocking myself . How do you get over someone that you love so deeply that you simply take all their crap i n your stride ? There was a knock on the door , I knew it was Scarlett and Kiara by their scent .

The door opened and they stepped inside , I looked at them , similar yet so different . Strong , beautiful women … Kiara was holding a tray of food , whilst Scarlett held three cans of fizzy . ” ” The boys cooked … Some may not be edible … but some is actually really good .

” Scar said as Kiara placed the tray on the bed next to me . I looked up at her , her soft blue eyes still holding all that love and kindness they always did . Why wasn’t she angry at me ? Didn’t I attack her mate ? My eyes stung with tears , and I looked down at the tray .

There was a grilled chicken burger with cheese , salad and mayo , a potato salad , some weird meat with some gloopy gravy some strangely burned … I don’t know what it was , but I was sure it had rice in it …

Then there was a cheesy pasta and a soft sponge cake . ” What is this … ? ” I asked , prodding the burned mush . ” Damon’s Chinese rice …. ” Kiara said , sitting down next to me . ” It’s off – putting … ” I murmured , then looked at the weird meat and gloop …

” And this ? ” ” ” The Steak and gravy were made by my baby , and he failed big time . But he looked hot in an apron with his sleeves rolled up Scarlett said , sitting opposite Kiara HE and me . TART ” Ok , eat up . ” Kiara said with a small smile .

I looked at the burger , picked it up and took a bite . It was actually nice , a little spicy but tasty . ” Oh , this is good . ” I said , trying to fight m y tears back . I wanted to feel better , but for so many years , Fred had been everything to me …

He slowly distanced me from my family until I felt that he was everything and all I had … I missed him so , so much . I couldn’t swallow the second bite of my burger and put it down , Scarlett opened a can and passed it to me . I took a sip . Turning away , Kiara took the can from me and wrapped her arm around me . ” Aunty … please …

I know things aren’t easy , but you will get through this . ” She whispered , ” I’m sorry … I didn’t mean to sound like a bitch … I’m just … Fred was everything to m ” You’re hurting , it’s ok . ” Kiara said , pressing her cheek against mine .

I touched my neck , knowing that those thin scars would remain as they were linked to an exile … I never thought he’d do that … But I knew I had hit a nerve …. I poked at the pasta as Scarlett opened a can for Kiara , then took the last for herself .

” You know , the amount of mess they made is stressing me out . ” She said ruffling her red hair . ” And I dismissed the Omegas for tonight … ” I took a bite of the pasta , it was really good I smiled softly , eating some more , the melted cheese making it easier to swallow .

” Marcel made that . He actually won the competition . Two certain Alphas couldn’t take that though … ” Scarlett said , laughing . ” I don’t even think Dad should have gotten huffy , he did terribly … ” Kiara said , wrinkling her nose . ” When things get sorted , we need a girl’s weekend away . ” Scarlett suggested . ” Oh , definitely ! That would be great . ” Kiara agreed . ” Mm . ” I murmured . I put my fork down , not wanting anything else .

” At least taste Liam’s cake . ” Scarlett urged . I broke a piece off and ate it , ” His mate will be lucky … He makes amazing cakes like both of you … ” I whispered . I touched my stomach ; this child will never have a father … And what was I meant to say to it ?

That your father was abusive and was sentenced to death ? At the same time , I wondered if Fred was alive … would he have cared for our child ? Or would he have tormented it too ? He knew I was pregnant yet still beat me …

Maybe I was better alone … but it hurt … it hurt so much … ” We’re always here for you Aunty . ” Kiara whispered , she pulled me into her arms and I simply cried my eyes out , wishing life wasn’t so painful … I didn’t realise when Scarlett removed the tray and joined our hug .

Will I be able to recover from this ? Shouldn’t mates die together ? How were some strong enough to survive ? All I could see was darkness … There was n o hope , there was nothing left for me …

Kiara’s and Scarlett’s comforting voices faded away as I sat there , feeling numb Knowing they would return to their mates But me ? I’d be here all alone …. in the end , I was still hurting , with or without him . This pain would never end ….