Her Cold-Hearted Alpha novel Chapter 121

KIARA

” I love you … Amore … ” His voice pierced m y heart . The sadness , regret and guilt in his eyes before they closed . No … This was not farewell ! Pain ripped through me and never had I felt such a level of hurt .

It was worse than seeing Alejandro and Jasmin together at the mating ceremony . My knees almost buckled under the agony , my eyes on Alejandro as he ripped her heart apart .

” Baby no ! ” I shrieked . No ! I can’t lose you ! No ! His howl of pure agony ripped through the air , and it was a sound I’d never forget . I rushed towards him , falling to m y knees . ” Hold on ! ” I cried , pressing my hands to his chest . I poured all my healing into him . My heart was thundering as I tried to listen to his heartbeat . Nothing .

” Goddess no ! Please no ! ” I cried . My eyes were blurring with tears but I didn’t stop .

He had to heal ! He couldn’t die ! Why him ! No … please no … ” He’s … gone … ” Someone whispered . I didn’t even notice when everyone hadi gathered around me or the fact that it was raining lightly . ” He isn’t ! ” I cried out .

He couldn’t leave me , I felt the weakening bond , but it was still there … He’s still here No one spoke , as Mom wrapped her arms around me , letting me do what I needed to SEE Please , Selene … Please … A broken sob left my body as I rested my head on Alejandro’s chest . ” Please … ” I whispered . ” You promised me ”

*** A faint beat of a heart reached my ears and my heart leapt . He was still here ! I didn’t stop pouring my healing into him , but the heartbeat remained faint .

Why wasn’t this working ? ” Alejandro ! Baby come on …

” Kiara … You’ve healed what you can . ” Dad’s quiet voice came . H ” No ! It’s not strong enough yet … I kept going . My entire body was screaming for a break but I couldn’t . My vision blurred , but I couldn’t stop . What if he slipped away ?

The thought terrified m e . I couldn’t live without him . He couldn’t just step into my life and then leave ! ” Kiara ! Think of the pup ! ” Mom pleaded , cupping my face and forcing me to look at her . My heart pounded as the truth hit me .

I couldn’t help Alejandro … Why ?! Wasn’t this my gift ?! Why can’t I heal the one I loved ?! What kind of joke was this ? I pulled away , refusing to stop , not relenting until I felt the strain wrapping around my stomach .

I stilled , I had used up everything I had … but I couldn’t risk the pup . If it wasn’t for my pup , I’d have drained my entire life source for Alejandro . My tears spilt down my cheeks as I kept my hands on Alejandro’s chest .

His heartbeat was so faint … ” You’ve healed him . The rest is up to him . Endora tried to take him with her , but she didn’t succeed . Have faith , Kiara . Rafael’s hoarse voice came . 11 I looked up at him , seeing the pain in his eyes .

” He’ll be ok , Kiara … We all know how stubborn Alejandro is . ” Dad said softly . I didn’t reply , looking at the man before m e , his body covered in dirt , blood and sweat . His handsome face looked as if he was simply asleep .

I cupped his jaw , leaning over and placed a deep kiss on his lips . Wake up , my king … Please wake up … Nothing . I could barely feel him breathing . What was wrong ? Why wasn’t his heartbeat steadying ?

My mind was going through a vicious cycle of questions that had no answers . ” Kia … ” Mom said softly . ” Let’s take him inside . ” Rafael said , gently . I didn’t want to move away . Mom pulled m e back and Rafael lifted his brother .

I could barely stand , my energy was completely depleted . I reached out to Alejandro , don’t leave me …. please … My vision spun and I felt myself fall forward before darkness welcomed me … TWO DAYS LATER ..

The devastating aftermath of a battle was never one of happiness … We had won , yet I felt nothing but remorse for our losses .

We had lost so many … Uncle Aaron , Grandma Amy , Grandad , Aunty Indy , Daniel and his mate … Valentin … Someone I had struggled to save , in the end , he still lost his life . So many had lost their mates , parents , siblings .

It hurt more than I could ever put into words . Everyone was affected , one way or another . Two days had gone by , yet my king never awoke . His heartbeat was fainter than an unborn pups … I was unravelling .

Looking back , I felt like he knew there was a chance of this happening .

I had seen how he had shielded me from her right until the end , but he was not protecting himself … At that last moment when he had her heart in his hand … The silent apology in his eyes , the pain and the guilt .

The man who said he was a monster , sacrificed everything for our kind . Why did you leave me ? The worst thing was , I couldn’t even let myself break .

An entire pack was looking a t me for guidance . For answers to why their king did not make it ? To know that it’s going to be ok . I looked towards the shining moon . Was this fair ? I felt as if I had failed everyone …. I had failed my mate .

Every day I tried to heal him , but nothing . Callum had come a s well , but there was nothing . It was not magic . We both had determined that … But there seemed to be nothing we could do , a Whatever Endora had done in her last moments by linking their hearts had all but destroyed Alejandro . Although I had been able to stop it from completely killing him , it only put him in a deadlock .

It was as if I had simply frozen him on the brink of death . The bond was so weak I could barely feel it , and in its place was a terrifying emptiness that was pulling me into its depths .

” Kiara , It’s time for the farewell . ” Liam’s voice broke me from my thoughts , and I turned towards him . His eyes were filled with sadness , 1 nodded . We had burned our dead and tried to list everyone who was gone , but not everyone was intact .

It had been hard to tell their families that there wasn’t even a body for them to look upon . Many Alphas had taken their dead and moved on , but The Black Storm , The Blood Moon and The Night Walker Pack remained .

We were combining our farewells , those who had lost mates and family had all joined us here . Liam took my hand and led me from the room . I saw Grandma Jessica standing there and it hurt to see that she was losing it . The loss of her mate and daughter had hit her so hard .

She also didn’t understand why Grandma Amy had not saved Aunty , not understanding when Mom told her the baby was holding out thanks to something Grandma Amy had given to both me and Aunty beforehand .

This only triggered Grandma Jessica even more , to the point where she was blaming Grandma Amy for not stopping us from joining the battle . But I understood , whatever Grandma Amy’s gift was , it seemed she couldn’t really foretell it .

She always seemed to know things , but at the same time , she never said much . We would never truly understand the depths of Grandma Amy’s past or her heritage .

But to me , no matter how many people were disgusted that she had a witch heritage and that she had lived amongst us , I would always remember her as that beacon of light who had always been here for me and for my mom .

The one with witty crass remarks and how she loved to tease all the men , a That was another thing that pained me . The hatred our people felt towards witches had increased ten – fold . It hurt considering Janaina had helped us somewhat ,

Delsanra had given her life to relay the truth and Grandma Amy , maybe not a full witch , but she had some lineage .

No one saw that , in fact … the disapproval that mom agreed to carry a child transferred by magic had hit the wrong way . It seems no matter what we accomplish , something else takes its place .

The negativity and stigma that Mom was facing shocked me . Although she took it all and put people in their place , it did not stop people from talking . ” We should go . ” Mom said to Grandma , who clung to her .

Dad was quiet too … He had lost so many people he loved , including his best friend . Damon had stepped in as Beta already , although he wasn’t showing his emotions at all .

I tried a little , but there was nothing I could do when I myself was crumbling from within . ” You’re going to have to speak for the Night Walkers Pack . ” Dad said to me . I nodded , as he pulled me into his arms and kissed my forehead .

” You got this ; he’s going to wake up . ” He said firmly , looking down at me .

I nodded but said nothing , I had barely spoken unless I needed to give orders . Alejandro … I looked at the glittering ring o n my finger and my heart clenched . I need you , my king .

Ten minutes later , we were gathered in the open grounds , not far from where Endora had tried to resurrect the dead witch . My mind flitted back to that night . I had felt the darkness she was resurrecting and I had channelled my own power into destroying the remnants of the magic that remained within the earth .

I wondered if I hadn’t focused on that , would Alejandro b e here now ? I had deviated from the plan …. But something had told me I needed to stop her from completing that ritual no matter what … and I had succeeded .

I knew she had already made the link with the darkness , even if we killed her , I had a feeling it wouldn’t have been the end of her … I was sure if Endora had gotten the third death , or even me , she would have accomplished her plan .

It had been close but we had won . But we had paid a price … ” We’ve all lost someone close to us ; parents , siblings , mates , children , friends , neighbours … someone .

I understand your loss because I have lost many too . Each one of my wolves and those of our allies were like brothers and sisters . We faced an enemy who had been planning for years , we won but at a great cost , one we are all feeling . And our King … was the one to deal the finishing blow , but at a price .

He is currently in a coma . ” ” A murmur rippled through the crowds , and while everyone knew something had happened , no one knew what it was . Until now . ” Luna ! Can’t you heal him ?! ” Someone asked .

One of Alejandro’s warriors growled , but I raised my hand .

” I tried . ” I said quietly . ” But Endora did something before she died . I have faith that Alejandro will wake up soon . Until then , let’s pay our respects to those who have lost their lives . Let’s work on supporting those who need it , to show your emotions aren’t weakness , to feel isn’t wrong .

Be there for one another and let others in . I’m hurting too , for every loss that has happened , for my mate , your king Alejandro … my grandfather Jackson , my great aunt Amelia , my aunt Indigo , Uncle Aaron … and everyone else who lost their lives … It’s ok to let the world know how you feel . They say time heals all wounds , but I think it doesn’t .

We just learn to live and accept what’s happened . To come to terms with it , it won’t be easy , ” but we will get there … ” I couldn’t carry on .

The suffocating pain that threatened to consume me overtook me once more , and I felt Raven’s arms I wrap around me . She had wanted to fight , but her father had refused , and Dad had also said no one without a wolf was to even try .

She had been so pro – active since everything had happened , helping Mom around the pack , telling Mom to take breaks . Without Mom and Aunty Monica a t their best , Raven had stepped up and taken on the role that the Luna or Beta female would usually do .

Rafael said a few words and I simply listened quietly .

The pain in my chest was growing , but for my pack , I had to hide it n o matter how much I told them that I was ok . Everyone was suffering , and as queen , I couldn’t afford to fall weak . I would not ruin my king’s reputation , not when he had done everything for the werewolf kind *** Everyone fell silent as we remembered those we had lost , joined as one as we howled into the night sky .

The pain and loss of our loved ones will never be forgotten … ” Come on guys , cheer up . ” Raven whispered . The four of us were sitting near the river . They were drinking beer and I clutched a mug of hot chocolate .

It was long into the night , and everyone had retreated indoors after those who had gone for a run in remembrance of those w e had lost had returned . But the four of us had come out here , and although it was rainy and cold , it didn’t matter . Nothing was worse than the pain we felt inside .

” How the hell do you expect that to happen ? ” Damon asked quietly . ” How is Aunty ? ” I asked softly . ” She’s losing it , I don’t think she’s going t o make it if she continues like this . ” He sighed , ” Don’t say that ! Aunt Mo is strong .

She’ll ” Raven broke off and looked down . We had all seen her try to take her life earlier today . After that , Mom refused to leave her alone . Grandma was deteriorating too . ” We can’t imagine what losing a mate feels like .

We can’t just expect them to be o k . ” Liam said softly , pulling me into his arms . Silent tears trickled down my cheeks . I hadn’t wanted to come out here , I wanted to go to Alejandro …. I still did … but Liam and Raven had been adamant .

” No matter what , we’re always here for one another , right ? ” Raven said softly . ” Guess so . ” Liam said . ” The four of us have always and will always be friends , no matter what . ” Damon said , raising his beer can . ” Always .

” I whispered , raising my mug as we clinked our drinks . Alejandro … Please wake up . We sat there , trying to make small talk , or just falling into silence and comforting one another , huddled together for warmth .

I stayed for an hour but the pain within me to go to him could no longer be satiated . I excused myself and headed to the pack hospital . I was halfway there , using my powers to illuminate the path .

The leaves in the trees rustled and I felt a shiver rush down my spine . I wasn’t alone . I spun around , scanning the area . ” I’ve come for my reward . ” A quiet voice said from behind me .

My heart thumped as I turned only to see Janaina standing in the shadows . I looked at her , feeling anger at the same time . If she had so easily gotten here now , why hadn’t she helped us ?

” You could have helped us . ” I said quietly . How had she gotten past patrol ? Witches were indeed dangerous if they wanted to b e . I understood people’s fears , but I still hoped that one day there would be peace between our kind . ” I’ve told you before , I dislike your kind . ” She said , holding her hand out .

So she had come for her necklace , I reached into my pocket and took it out . ” He removed it from her neck before she died … He fulfilled his promise . ” I said softly .

” So , He didn’t make it . ” She said , motioning for me to throw it . I did , and she caught it . At one point I would have wanted to know what was so important about that pendant ? But I no longer cared .

” Can you not help ? ” I asked , trying not to pay attention to how unbothered she sounded . Despite the fact it stung . ” There’s nothing I can do , nor am I willing to .

This is the last time we shall meet , daughter of Selene . ” 18 I said nothing as she turned and vanished into the woods . I looked at the passing buildings . Some still had lights on , whilst others were completely dark .

Would anyone remember those that had lost their lives ? Would they remember a few months or years down the line ? Was anyone worried about their king , who was known as ruthless and cold – hearted ?

Would anyone remember his sacrifice ? In the end , no one cared . I didn’t care if I sounded bitter . It hurt . I continued on my way , my heart shattering a little more . With each step , it felt harder to breathe .

I broke into a run , rushing through the hospital halls until I pulled open his door . Rayhan jumped , he had seemingly been dosing off in the armchair . ” Sorry . ” I whispered . He shook his head , giving me a small sad smirk . ” Not at all … no changes . ” He said ,

answering the question he knew I’d ask . For the last two days , Rafael and I have taken turns being here . Rayhan had come only last night and was returning home tomorrow . ” He’ll get better . ” He said quietly . I looked at him in the dim light , barely able to make out his eyes . ” I hope so . ” I whispered .

” I know the timing might not be the best , but congrats on the baby . ” He said , flashing me a wink . ” Thank you … ” I said as I walked over to Alejandro , caressing his cheek .

The soft tingle was so faint that my heart ached , his skin was so cold … ” I’ve been without cousins for ages and now suddenly I’m getting two , Marcel’s kid and this one . ” a ” I guess so .

” A moment of awkward silence fell between us . ” I’ll leave you to it … ” He said , picking up his jacket and heading to the door .

” Rayhan . ” ” Yeah ? ” He stopped at the door . ” Delsanra . How did she die ? ” I whispered . Talking about witches has become so taboo lately that I didn’t dare ask anyone else this . He sighed deeply .

” She jumped . She was under some spell . With every word she spoke , it was destroying her . She wouldn’t have survived either way , and the look in her eyes . I can’t get it out of my head …

” I turned and looked at him . Clearly , he didn’t seem to hate the topic as much as most around here . ” Did you try to stop her ? ” ” I did , I told her you could help . I told her that I knew someone but she said she has no one and that it wasn’t worth living .

” H e looked down , I sensed the guilt and regret in him . ” 4 ” It’s not your fault . ” ” I try to tell myself that … ” He muttered .

Take care , Kia , he’s going to be ok . If anyone can make it out of that state , it’s Uncle .

” I nodded , turning away as silent tears trickled down my cheek . Only taking a deep breath when the door shut behind him . I looked down at my mate , my lips quivering . ” Wake up , my love .

” I whispered , bending down to kiss him deeply .

My warm lips met his cool ones , a soft tingle rushed through me . Letting my healing pour into him , but once again there was no change . I moved back , brushing my fingers through his hair as I slowly slid into the bed next to him .

” We’re waiting for you to wake up . Me and our little pup . ” I whispered , sliding m y arm under his head . I lay there gazing at his face . The moon shone on him from outside , illuminating his handsome face .

He looked like a work o f art as he simply lay there . I wouldn’t give up , not now , not ever . He would wake up . He had to wake up .

I needed him.