His Doll novel Chapter 38

After one month

Author's p.o.v

It's early in the morning and devika just cames out from the shower. She is wearing a pink colour saree and looking as usual beautiful. Her waist-length hairs are wet and she is wiping them with a towel. She walked towards the mirror and sat in front of it. She applied some lotion and cream on her face and body. She is applying her vermillion on her hair partition when she felt a pair of black eyes which are looking at her intensely.

She looked at the person through the mirror. The person is none other than Abhinav. He has just woke up and seeing devika intensely. His facial expression is impassive.

Devika gulped down her saliva because of nervousness. She can never understand what's he thinking.

Abhinav got down from the bed and walked towards devika. He is now standing behind her and seeing her through the mirror.

Devika said nervously, " you should freshen up and I will tell the maids to set the table for breakfast".

" You are beautiful," Abhinav said looking at her face making her shy.

Devika said timidly, " Umm...thank you".

They are both looking at each other but saying nothing. In Devika's mind, something is roaming. But, she isn't finding any courage to ask Abhinav. On the other hand, Abhinav can say only looking at her face that she wants to ask something.

He said as usual with his impassive tone, " Ask me, whatever you want to ask."

Devika looks at him with her widening eyes. " How he always know that I want to ask something!! She thought.

Then she said, " Actually, I want to go to meet my Nani(grandma) at  Shrraddanand old age home".

Abhinav frowned his brows and asked like a detective, " Suddenly, why do you want to meet her? I never heard that you have your grandma alive!!

" Actually, I am missing her too much recently. She is there alone. That's why I thought to meet her," Devika said trying hard to convince Abhinav.

Abhinav isn't believing devika but looking at her innocent face he agreed.

He said softening his eyes, " Ok, I will tell the driver to drop you there. Don't get late. Come home early."

Saying that he walked towards the washroom for freshening up.

Before entering into the washroom Abhinav looked at devika and said mockingly, " Your mother is really a selfish woman. She was so affluent but still left her mother to live in an old age home!! Shame on that woman".

Saying that Abhinav entered into the washroom.

Devika didn't say anything because she knows that he loves to humiliate her mother. If she says something then he might get angry. Thinking that she kept her mouth shut.

In this one month, Abhinav has changed a little. He is still the beast but he has stopped hurting devika badly. He started having a soft corner inside him for her. But his thirst for revenge doesn't make him fall for her. He is in total dilemma either he loves her or not.

On the other hand, devika is under total pressure for one month. She is still hooked up with her mother's words and she is determined that without knowing the truth she will not be stopped.

She thought many times to search about Abhinav's past in his study room and locked part of the closet but never found that courage to search them for real. She is still afraid of him.

She didn't dare to ask him directly about his hatred towards her mother and her vivek uncle. She wasn't understanding from whom she can know about her mother's past. After thinking too much she remembered her Nani and decided to meet her.

Neel and Ruhi started going to nearby school but they are still living inside Abhinav's house as servants. Devika is little contented thinking that at least her siblings are studying.

Devika's p.o.v

It's been one month since I have met ma. After that, I didn't go to see her, actually, Abhinav didn't permit me to meet her. He became c too much angry whenever I take ma's name.

What's his problem with ma? Is it the company? I am not sure yet that the company belongs to Abhinav's grandfather and vivek uncle tricked him or not!!

Even, I am not sure if ma was saying all the truth. In this whole month, I didn't sleep at night properly only thinking about all this. Ma's every word was roaming inside my head like bugs. I was thinking of where I can confirm that ma is saying the truth or not.

I wasn't finding any way to know the truth. Are my grandparents really forced my ma to marry my father!! Is Vivek uncle really ma's first love. Moreover, Did she really kill my Nana( grandfather from mother's side)? I was becoming frustrated thinking all this.

Then I understood that only one person can give me the answers of these questions and that person is none other than my Nani( grandmother from mother's side). She obviously knows her daughter's past.

 Right now, I am going to meet her in an old age home. Actually, ma didn't have that much contact with her family. She is the only child of my grandparents. She used to tell us that her father that he wasn't a good man and he died already. And her mother isn't a good woman either. But at least good than her father.

When we used to tell her to bring grandma to our home but she never agreed. One day she took me to meet grandma when I was in 12th standard. That day, she talked with grandma rudely. When I asked her about grandma, she told me that grandma isn't a good woman that's why she is behaving her with rudely and I believed my mother.

Right now, I am in front of that old age home. I don't even know she is alive or not. It's been a while since I had met her.

I entered the old age home and asked one of the staffs, " Excuse me, can I meet Lalita Barman?

The staff is a middle-aged woman like my mother. 

She looked at me frowning her brows and asked me, " Who are you? Why do you want to meet Lalita Barman?

I said giving her a little smile, " Actually, I am her granddaughter. Can I meet her? Is she here?

She said being a little surprised " Yeah, you can meet her. But, I am quite surprised that someone is here to meet her. It's been years since no one came to meet her. Sometimes her daughter used to come and meet her but in recent years no one came."

I am not surprised by her words because I know that it's been years that ma met her. Ruhi and Neel might have already forgotten her.

The staff took me to a room and knocked on the room's door. I heard a timid women's voice, " Who is here?"

The staff said with a loud voice, " Amma Ji, it's me, Gautomi. Someone is here to meet you".

Hearing the staff just after in a few minutes, the door of the room gets open and I saw my grandma after many years.

She has become much older and quite weak from last time. She asked the staff, " Who wants to meet me? Is it my daughter?"

She didn't notice me yet.

The staff pointed her fingers towards me and said, " This young woman is saying that she is your granddaughter and wants to meet you".

This time she looked at me and blinked her eyes a few times. I can understand that she is trying to recognise me. After some time her eyes get widened and said with a surprised tone, " Devika, is it you?"

" You recognised me nani!!" I said with a slight smile. She hugged me and stroked my hairs. I also hugged her back.

She took me to her room. Seeing the room I felt pity for her. She is living in a small room with a few kinds of stuff. If I have my own house and money than I might have taken her with me.

We both seated in the bed and she asked me with a sad tone, " Bhabani didn't come with you? How is she? Is she ok?"

Hearing her every question I can feel that she is genuinely worried about ma. If I tell her that ma is in an asylum than she will feel hurt. So, I convinced her by saying that "ma is very busy with her company work and didn't come. She sends me to ask about you".

Grandma sighed and now she is looking at me intensely. She is seeing my mangal sutra(nuptial chain) and vermillion.

She asked me surprisingly, " You got married? Why didn't you bring your husband here?"

Shit!! I really don't want to tell her about my miserable married life. So, I just nodded my head and asked her trying to divert my topic, "  Nani, is ma really knew vivek uncle from the very first? Even before she met my father?"

Hearing my question she became surprised and asked me, " Why are you asking that? Isn't vivek dead? Why are you suddenly asking me about him?"

Hearing vivek uncle's name  I can sense that she isn't that happy.

I was prepared for her questions. So, I hold her hand and requested her, " please, tell me everything about Vivek uncle and my ma. I know you know everything about them. Why I am asking you all this, I will tell the reason some other day but please tell me about ma and vivek uncle" I almost pleaded.

After my pleading too much she started saying, " Your mother was a very stubborn girl from her childhood. If she wants something then we have to give her that. As she was our only child we always fulfilled her every demand. Though her father was conservative he never stops her from doing anything. When she was in 11th standard she used to like a boy. And He was none other than Vivek Aggarwal. Your mother introduced him to us and told us that She wants to marry him. At that time she was very young to take big decisions like marriage. We tried to convince her but we failed in front of her stubbornness"

And  When your grandfather checked the boy's background he came to know that, the boy is an orphan and reading in the school in scholarship. Moreover, your mother was very young. She wasn't understanding what's right and wrong. Your grandfather didn't want his daughter to marry an orphan. So we told her to forget vivek.

She didn't listen to us and tried to escape with vivek but your grandfather caught her. He locked her in a room. Your mother crossed all limits of shame when we came to know that she is already pregnant with Vivek's child. We were thinking that how will we show our face in society when they will come to know about all this!! What society will think about us that our daughter is pregnant before marriage!! Thinking about all this we left the city and went to another city. 

First, we wanted to abort the child but your mother didn't let us. Unfortunately, your mother miscarried. After this, she was so still desperate and broken for vivek that she didn't even want to complete her study .so your grandfather married her off with your father. Your mother started hating us for marrying her with your father. Your mother was against the marriage but finding a good match your grandfather married her off. Your father was a gentleman and a kind-hearted person. He accepted your mother even after knowing your mother's past. He is the one who motivated your mother to again start study and your mother completed her study. I was again disappointed in her when I came to know that after your father's death she married vivek!! How can she forget a gentleman like your father so easily and re-marry again!!", she completed her saying and drank some water.

The more she told me, the more I was becoming shocked. So, ma knew vivek uncle from her childhood and ma was once pregnant with vivek uncle's child!! I am not understanding what should I say and feel.

Suddenly, I remember about Anamika, Abhinav's mother. That day, ma also took her name. Maybe, my Nani knows about her. So I asked my grandmother without any further thinking, " Do you know any Anamika?"

" How do you know Anamika?" She questioned me back surprisingly.

I can't tell her how I know Anamika. I ignored her questions and asked again, " Please, tell me. Do you know any Anamika Agnihotri?"

" Yes, she was your mother's best friend. Anamika was a good girl. I always wanted her as my daughter instead of your mother. Anamika was the daughter of Umang Agnihotri who was a rich man at that time. Your grandfather used to work under him.bYour mother and Anamika was a very good friend. Anamika always helped your mother in every way possible.

After your mother's shameless act Anamika was the one who requested us to marry off your mother with Vivek. But, your grandfather didn't agree with her. After that we left the city, I don't know anything about Anamika after that," She told me everything and now I am confirmed that there is something between these three people. My mother, Anamika and Vivek uncle!!

These three are connected with each other and Abhinav surely know something. His hatred towards ma can't be just based on a company. There is something else. I have to find out.

I want to know for which reason I am being punished brutally and my siblings are still being punished. Abhinav isn't disclosing anything towards me. Fine, then. I think I know how to make him open his mouth.

But, one thing is making my heart bleed thinking that my mother hates me!! I can't believe that even I don't want to believe. I am afraid of being losing my mother.

My trail of thoughts is cut when Nani said to me, " whatever we did with your mother. It was all for her well being. Tell her that I still miss her."

Saying that she started crying.

Whatever ma did, she did all this as a teenager not understanding the reality properly. And what my grandparents did, they did exactly what parents should do for their child. Now, Whom should I blame!

I consoled nani holding her in my embrace. I wanted to ask her about my grandfather's death but I stopped thinking about her condition.

I have to talk with Abhinav. He is surely hiding a big secret about my mother, his mother and Vivek uncle.

Abhinav's p.o.v

Flashback

( "How many times I have to tell you that you are nothing for me," he said to me with an angry voice. Ma is crying badly.

" Why are you doing this to me? We were fine. Everything was alright. Then what happened suddenly that you are behaving like that with me, "ma asked him crying.

He is now frustrated and trailed his fingers on his hairs. He yelled loudly, " Stop your fucking cry. Your presence is making me sick." 

Saying that he opened his belt to slash ma when I stabbed him from behind with a pen. He yelled in pain loudly.

He looked at me with full rage and slapped me hard on my face. I landed on the floor.

He said angrily, " This bastard has already become a thug!! He dares to attack me! Today I will show you hell"

Saying that he picked up his belt and started slashing me. He mercilessly beat a 12-year-old boy. He was beating me and I was fuming in anger instead of crying. Ma tried to stop him and earned his another round of beatings.

That day, I promised myself that, I will return him this beating one day!!

{After 8 years, I am now 20 years old}

He is wriggling in the chair to free himself. He is screaming to spare him. Some of my men are surrounding him and he is cursing them continuously. I was seeing him secretly. I wasn't finding the courage to go in front of him after many years. But, remembering his injustice towards me I make my mind that I will punish him cruelly whatever relation I have with him.

I entered the room with my dominating aura and seeing me First, he wasn't recognising me. After a few moments, he recognised me and shock is clearly visible on his face.

He said with a shocking tone, " Abhi?"

" So, You remembered me!!" I said with a mocking tone.

He asked more surprisingly, " You are alive!! I thought you were dead by the fire accident!!

" Oh!! Come on. I know you are very disappointed after seeing me alive! Aren't you?" I said giving him a sarcastic smile.

Seeing me after many years shock is clearly visible on his face. He must be wondering why he is here? How I captured him etc!! And as expected he asked these questions.

" Why am I here? Why am I tied with the ropes? He asked me with an irritated tone.

I dragged a chair in front of him and sat on the chair crossing my legs. I rubbed my forehead a few times and said smiling, " You are here to pay for your every sin".

" What are you talking about? Don't forget that I am your fa...." He tried to say shouting.

" Don't you take that word with your filthy mouth? You have tainted that word" I said yelling.

After ruining everything he still demands me to consider him as father!! 

I took a whip in my hand and started trailing it on his body. I can see his terrified face.

He asked me with a slightly trembling voice, " What's your intention? Let me go"

I gave him a sinister smile and said, " Once you told me that I am a thug. Look I have made you proud of becoming a real thug. Do you know I am being trained to become a mafia"

He looked at me with disbelief. I am sure he isn't understanding anything about me.

I leaned at his ear and whispered, " I will return every beating which you used to give me and my mother. I will return every humiliation which my mother felt once. I will take out your that heart for which my ma used to cry. I will show you the real hell, Vivek Aggarwal".

Flashback ended

I am sitting on my easy chair and thinking about everything. His every sin are still roaming inside my head. 

It's night time. Everyone is sleeping and I am here in ma's room. I am holding a photo of him. I have killed him but still, I want to kill him again and again.

I feel disgusted whenever I think that his blood is also flowing through my vein.  How can ma loved a bastard like him!! I feel like to scratch my whole body whenever I think that I have earned this beastly body from him. I feel disgusted by his name. I feel disgusted whenever I think that I am Vivek Aggarwal's son!