His Doll novel Chapter 54

Devika's p.o.v

When he tried to touch my children I completely lost it.

I am feeling too much angry and helpless thinking that I am here to meet this man and I have to live with him again.

He looked at me so innocently like he has never done any kind of crime. Looking at him I am sure that his days inside the white cell are not going that great. His eyes are puffy and dark circle are clearly visible under his eyes. He is looking quite older than his actual age and he has become thin. He is looking like a thin stick.

He asked me standing up with a hurtful voice," What happened, devika? Why aren't you permitting me to touch our children?"

I was going to again scold him when I remembered that I have taken the responsibility to help this psycho. And Ruhani ma informed me that without my love and care that's impossible. Loving this psycho is impossible for me but I think I can pretend. Without doing this I am not seeing any kind of way.

Putting aside my all disgust I said to him normally," I have come here to take you to our house. We will live there together."

" Which house? Isn't it our house? We can live here. Don't you like it here anymore?" He asked me all those questions and I become surprised. He has forgotten many things. So, Ruhani ma was right. He was imagining me with him inside this hospital cabin.

I said smiling," No, I don't like it here anymore. It's also not good for you. Let's go home. I will take care of you there".

He didn't ask me anything further and like a lost puppy, he followed me. I talked with the doctor regarding his medicines and other things.

The doctor informed me," Apart from the medicine, keep him happy and give him whatever he wants. Reminds him about the good times you spent with him. Tell your other family members to do the same"

Hearing the doctor I mentally laughed."Good Times!! We never spent any good times. The whole 2 years I have spent with him was filled with my crying and begging for mercy in front of him!!

After consulting the doctor I took him to the Agnihotri mansion. After coming back into this hell I am again remembering those painful memories and a tear roll down from my eyes without my knowing.

I didn't have to knock at the door because the Agnohotri's are already here in front of the main door to receive him. Seeing them he became afraid and hid behind me like a kid.

A 31-year-old kid!! For God's sake!! How many kids I have to take care of!

Arnav said almost crying," Welcome home, bhai. We missed you a lot. Without you, the whole house was feeling empty".

Saying that he tried to touch Abhinav's hand when Abhinav clutched my saree's edge and asked me," Who is he devika? I don't know him?"

I said holding his hand," He is your brother. And the two girls are your sister and the lady is your Ruhani ma. Don't you remember them?"

I can see the hopeful eyes of his family members. He is looking at them intensely like he is studying them.

After examining them he said loudly," They are not my siblings. My siblings are dead. My mother is dead. Everyone is dead. Only devika is with me. I don't know any of them"

Saying that he covered his face with my saree's edge and tried to hide. He is crying and looking afraid. I sighed and understood that his condition is really out of control. Even he has forgotten his full name. He only remembers his nickname Abhi. I am feeling bad for his family members that Abhinav doesn't remember them. But, I don't know why Abhinav only recognise me. The bond we share isn't that strong like the bond he shares with his family members. Then why! Maybe I should ask the doctor.

I looked at his family members and found them crying. I am not understanding how should I console them. So, without wasting any time I decided to go to that bedroom which I despise most.

Entering the room I am remembering those painful days and nights I spent in this room. Few drops of tear escaped from my eyes but very soon I composed myself thinking that I am here just for a few days.

At Night

" How can you just move with that monster? Did you just forget what he had done with you?" Apeksha Di yelled over the phone.

She is very angry with me after hearing that I have returned to the Agnihotri mansion with Abhinav. I tried to convince her but she isn't understanding. After scolding me for half an hour over the phone she cut the call. I have sent Ruhi and Neel to Apeksha Di's house for someday until I return to my house.

I placed the phone on the table and turned to the bed where I found him playing with my children. He picked up Dipti in his arms and I can hear my baby's happy sound seeing her father.

He said touching Dipti's nose," What will my Princess become when she will grow up? I can not wait to give you piggyback ride and horse ride".

Seeing his affectionate side I almost forgot what he had done with me for 2 years. For a few moments, I only saw a loving father who loves his children very much. What if we have a happy family! But, alas!!

One part of me is angry watching him touching my children. But, I have to pretend to not hate him for the promise I have given to his family members.

I am looking at him intensely when I heard the crying sound of Devansh and Daksh. I know it's time to feed them. They are hungry.

I hurriedly walk towards them and sat on the bed. He is trying to stop my kids from crying.

I said picking up Devansh," They are hungry. I need to feed them. Can you just go out of this room?"

He looked at me like I have said something unusual. He replied," I feel scared without you. Don't tell me to leave the room. I am your husband. I can see when you are feeding my children"

This time I am feeling like smacking his head. I know that I can not scold him. So, I said forcing a smile," Ok, you can stay here. Just turn to another direction when I am feeding them."

He nodded his head and turn in another direction. First I fed Devansh and Daksh and then Drishti and Dipti.

I am still feeding my babies when he asked curiously," Have you chosen any name for the babies? I am not finding any beautiful names."

I informed him of the babies name and he also liked them. I am sure if he was sane then he surely has confronted me about the names.

After feeding my kids I placed them on the cradle. The whole time he was helping me changing my kids' clothes, placing new bad sheets, etc. He is behaving like a caring husband. I am sure if he is in his actual form then he would have never help me.

I am placing my babies on the cradle when a maid entered with a food tray. Oh, God!! I almost forget that I have to feed this beast also. Ruhani ma told me that he has forgotten how to eat like a normal human being. Whenever he tries to eat he makes his whole face dirty and his clothes also. So, I have to feed him too.

I ordered him to sit on the couch and he obliged. I started feeding him with my hands. The whole time when I was feeding him he was playing with my saree and my hairs. He said tucking a loose strand of my hair behind my ear," your hairs are so beautiful and soft".

I didn't reply to him. His touch is reminding me of those painful touches of him. I remember how he used to roughly touch my whole body. I wanted to scream at him but stopped thinking about my promise.

Suddenly, he asked excitedly," Devika, do you remember how I used to pick you up and twirl you around when we were kids?"

" Huh!! Did we know each other from our childhood?" I asked him curiously.

He said smiling chewing the food," Of course. I know you since my childhood. You used to come to our house with your mother."

Before I could say something I found his facial expression is changing and he is becoming angry. He said chewing the food angrily," That whore mother of you destroyed my family."

He might have remembered everything again. I know how much he hates my mother.

I asked him," Do you remember my mother?".

I saw his facial expression get changed again and he nodded his head in negative. I can see his gloomy face. His mind is totally messed up.

After feeding him, I make sure that he takes his medicines. I helped him lay down on the bed. He forced me to lay beside him because he feels scared.

He told me that he always saw a witch who is trying to harm me and my children. I didn't give any attention to his sick words because I simply don't care about him.

After he slept, I walked toward the couch and lay down there because I can not sleep with him. I was so tired that just lying on the couch I drifted into a deep sleep.

I woke up from my sleep hearing his crying sound. I rushed towards him and found him crying in sleep and thrashing his hands and feet everywhere.

He said yelling," Don't hurt devika. No, please. Don't"

Then he said clutching the bed sheet," You pathetic witch. Don't you dare to touch my children? I will kill you"

Seeing him I am sure that he is seeing nightmares. I sat beside him and held his hand. I cooed in his ear," Are you ok? Can you hear me?"

Suddenly, he opened his eyes and sat back on the bed.

He hugged me tightly and said crying," Devika, are you fine? I saw him beating you. I saw him torturing you. He is telling me to hurt you"

What the hell he is talking about. I replied," No one was beating me. Whom did you see?

" I saw a person who looks like me is beating you and calling you his doll," He said and I become stiff in my place. Only one person calls me doll and it's him. So, He is seeing himself in nightmares and fearing his own self. He has really gone mad.

I don't know what should I say to him. He isn't letting me go of himself. He said stroking my hairs," Don't worry devika. I will protect you from him. I will protect you from every harm".

I said mentally," No one can protect me until I protect myself. And you are the one who always harms me. Trust me, I can't wait for that day when I will leave you".

After 15 Days

Author's p.o.v

" Bhai, see the photo carefully. It was taken when we all went to visit Switzerland," Avantika said to Abhinav showing a photo in an album.

Then Arushi said showing another photo, " See this photo bhai. It was taken when we all visited the Maldives."

Arnav said holding Abhinav's hand," Bhai, do you remember how much you were happy when you come to know that I have passed my medical examination."

Abhinav is hearing everything and a few memories are flashing inside his head but the memories aren't that clear. He is feeling the pressure inside his head but can't remember clearly.

Right now Everyone in the Agnihotri mansion is sitting in the living room area. Abhinav is sitting with devika holding her hand and his siblings are showing him photos of their good moments so that he can remember everything.

In these 15 days, Abhinav has become a little bit comfortable around his siblings but still, he is afraid of them thinking that they might harm him. In this whole house, he only trusts devika.

Devika is fulfilling her promise which she made. Because of her Abhinav is now way better than before. He is eating properly and behaving normally. He has stopped seeing nightmares so frequently. He has become fully dependent on devika and he can't live a moment without her and his kids.

Arnav, Arushi and Avantika are trying very hard to make Abhinav remember his true self and his previous life but they are failing every time.

Suddenly, Devika remembered about his mother's room. She thought mentally," Maybe seeing his mother he will remember everything and his condition gets better"

Without wasting any time, Devika took Abhinav to his mother's room. Devika opened the door and Abhinav followed her. Abhinav's mother's photo is still hanging on the wall and drizzling with yellow lights.

Devika asked Abhinav softly pointing his finger towards the photo," Do you know her? Can you tell me who is she?"

Abhinav walked towards his mother's photo and touched the photo. He is seeing his mother intensely and some memories started flashing inside his head.

He is seeing his mother is smiling and playing with him, his mother is feeding him, teaching him piano and many more good memories. He said crying resting his head on the photo," She is my mother. I love her so much"

Devika tried to say something when Abhinav started crying loudly with pure agony. He remembered his father and his tortures.

He fell on his knees and said crying," He used to beat her in front of me. He used to scold her in front of me. He used to force her in front of me"

Saying all this Abhinav hugged his knees and started hiccuping.

On the other hand, devika is also crying because the same things also happened with her. She is feeling pity for this Abhinav who isn't aggressive and soft-hearted but she can't forgive or forget that Abhinav who tortured her so much.

She rested her hand on his shoulder and sat beside him on the floor. Abhinav looked at her and said hiccuping," She left me Devika. She left me. Please, don't leave me alone just like her."

Devika isn't understanding what she should say. Seeing his cries she is feeling very bad. She is looking at his hopeful eyes intensely and he is looking at her pitiful eyes intensely.

Devika broke the eye contact and said timidly with a heavy voice," You are a hypocrite. You are crying remembering your mother's misery but you didn't feel pity when you tortured me."

Abhinav heard her and he is remembering something. Suddenly, Abhinav's aura became changed and his eyes are getting darkened.

He is feeling like someone else is taking control over him. He doesn't know why he is feeling like that. Devika is still clueless that something is wrong with Abhinav.

And the next moment, without any warning Abhinav grabbed Devika's shoulder tightly and looked at her with dark eyes. A gasp escaped from Devika's mouth seeing Abhinav's dangerous eyes. She hissed in pain because of his tight grip.

His tears are now dried down from his cheeks and he smirked looking at her. He is looking like he is possessed by any demon.

Devika is looking at him with a horrified expression. She is wriggling on his hold to free herself. She said crying," Leave me, Abhi. You are hurting me"

Hearing her Abhinav tightened his hold more and leaned towards her ear.

Then, without saying or doing anything he fainted on Devika's shoulder making her dumbfounded.