His Doll novel Chapter 64

Devika's p.o.v

"I don't want to marry anyone. Don't force me," I said and turned my head to the bed.

Apeksha di held my wrists and said," I am not telling you to marry right now. First, try to know him and then.........."

"I don't want to know anyone. I am happy with my children," I replied sternly.

She said huffing," Devika, try to understand, you are young. You have a life ahead of you. You deserve someone who will love you and cherish you."

I said to her loudly almost screaming," Di, you are not understanding. I don't want another person in my life."

" Why? Do you love him?  Did you fall in love with that beast? She asked me angrily. I can see that she is now quite annoyed.

I held her hands and took her towards a chair and made her sit on it. Then I bent down to her level and said holding her hands," Di, the question is I love Abhinav or not! The question is the new person in my life will accept my children or not?

She asked me frowning her brows," What do you mean?"

" Di, after our father's death, our mother married Vivek uncle and he always pretended that he always loved me as his own daughter. But, in reality, I was just a profitable object for him as well as for my mother. I don't want my children to face this type of betrayal.

There is no guarantee that the person in my life will accept my children wholeheartedly. There is no guarantee that he will love my children just the way their own father love them," I told her and she took a deep breath looking at me being surprised.

She said caressing my cheeks," Little sister, try to understand, not every person in this world are like Vivek Aggarwal. Good persons also exist in this world. I want to see you happy."

I said assuring her," Di, I know that you want to see me happy. And I am happy. My happiness lies with my children. My children are happy having their father in their life. I don't want another man in my life and my kids' life. My relationship with another man can affect my kids' innocent mind."

" So, you are telling that you will pretend in front of your children that everything is fine between you and Abhinav? She asked me standing up from the chair.

I took a deep breath and smiled looking at my children.

I said to her fixing my gaze on my children," For my children's happiness I can do anything. If for their healthy upbringing I have to pretend then I am ok with that. I will never let my children realize that their parents are divorced and have no relation anymore."

" Devika, you are not unde......." Apeksha Di tried to say more when I said stopping her sentence in the middle," Di, I am a mother. In front of my children's happiness, nothing matters to me."

Then she asked loudly," Are you going to spend the rest of your life alone?"

" I am not alone, Di. My children, my younger siblings and my protective elder sister are with me then how can I be alone!" I said smiling at her.

She is going to say something more when I said holding her shoulder," Di, don't worry about me. I am absolutely happy. "

Hearing me she kissed my forehead and said affectionately," I just want you to be happy."

I smiled at her and also thanked her for always be there with me.

After talking for some time she is now ready to leave the room.

Before leaving she turned at me and said giving a suspicious look to me," Devika, I don't know why I am feeling that something is bothering you. What is it?"

I said smiling," Nothing, Di. I am fine."

" Don't deceive yourself. Whatever is bothering you, I am sure it's regarding Abh........She couldn't complete her sentence when I said with a blank expression," Di, we have nothing between us anymore. Don't you remember we are divorced?"

Then she said giving a slight smile," I remember but I am feeling that you are forgetting the fact."

Before I could say that she is wrong, she left my room and I sighed.

I laid down in the bed beside my children when my phone started ringing and it's from Abhinav.

For a few seconds, I thought to ignore the call. I am not understanding why is he calling me right now. He knows that the children must be sleeping right now. He can not talk with them right now.

Without further thinking, I picked up the call and said," Hello".

Abhinav- hello, Devika. What are you doing?

Me- I think you don't have the right to ask me this question. Why did you call right now?

Abhinav- How can I forget that I don't have any rights on you anymore! Well, I have something important to discuss with you. Can we meet tomorrow? Don't say no.

'I was silent for a few moments. He almost pleaded to meet him.'

Me- Fine. I will meet you.

Abhinav- ok. Meet me at the nearby park. Also, bring the kids with you.

Me- Fine.

Abhinav- Good night. I love you and our children.

I didn't say anything further. I just cut the call. I am wondering about which matter he wants to talk about. I have already told him that I will never forgive him and to not waste his time by trying to convince me about our relationship.

" Am I doing right without forgiving him? Does he deserve my forgiveness?

I couldn't think anymore. I should sleep. I kissed my children's forehead and closed my eyes. I don't know what's the future holding for me.

Whatever it is holding, I just want to see my children's happiness.

The Next Day

Author's p.o.v

Abhinav is standing inside a park and waiting for Devika & his kids. He is becoming restless without them. He just wants to see his little kids and Devika.

His health condition is completely fine except his one leg was castrated. The doctors have attached a prosthetic leg so that he can walk. Moreover, his whole body is covered with burn marks. Very soon he will have plastic surgery to prevent all the burn marks.

" Papa," Abhinav heard his kids voice and turned behind immediately.

He found that Devika and his kids have entered the park just now. A big smile formed on his lips seeing his kids.

" Papa," His kids said in unison and ran towards him excitedly. They all hugged Abhinav's waist very tightly.

Devika just smiled a little seeing her children too much happy. She knows how much her children have missed their father. She also agrees with the fact that the kids need their father.

" Papa missed you so much," Abhinav said and bent down to the kids level. He kissed their chubby cheeks and they all kissed him back.

Devansh said to Abhinav innocently," Papa, why don't you come to our house? Let's live together. It will be fun."

Hearing Devansh's cute demand Abhinav looked at Devika and found her looking at him with her scrutinising eyes.

" Umm....It depends on your mamma, baccha(kiddo)," Abhinav said awkwardly fixing his gaze on Devika.

This time Daksh said pulling Devika's saree," Mamma, piz. Lat papa lib wit us. Me elwys went pijjybeck lide pom papa( Mamma, please. Let papa live with us. I always want to piggyback ride from Papa)."

" Please mamma. Papa is alone. I want to live with him," Drishti and Dipti said to Devika nagging.

Devika became uncomfortable hearing her children. She isn't understanding what she should say to her kids right now. She looked at Abhinav and found him looking at her with his hopeful eyes.

" We will talk about all this later. Now go and play with each other. I have something to discuss with your papa," Devika ordered her kids affectionately and they all obliged her like good children.

They ran towards the nearby cradler and started cradling. Abhinav and Devika both smiled seeing their cute doings.

" Why did you call me here?" Devika asked Abhinav with her icy cold voice.

Abhinav sighed and replied," I am sorry, Devika."

" Your one sorry can't heal my internal wounds," Devika said sternly and looked away from Abhinav.

This time Abhinav kneeled in front of her and hugged her legs tightly. He cried out loudly as he couldn't control his emotions anymore. He is regretting all of his actions.

" What the hell are you doing?" Devika said becoming dumbfounded as she wasn't expecting something like that. She never imagined that Abhinav will kneel in front of her.

Abhinav said tightening his hug on Devika's legs," Devika, I know that I don't deserve any forgiveness. But, still, I will ask for your forgiveness. Please forgive me for once and give me a chance to prove my love for you."

" It's impossible. Your sins are huge and I can never forgive you. Please, stop all this," Devika said with her disturbed voice.

Abhinav replied with his trembling voice while his tears are soaking his cheeks," Devika, just punish me. I will take your any kind of punishment. But, please don't push me away from you. I can't live without you."

This time Devika also started crying. She doesn't know why she is crying. She raised her one hand to touch Abhinav's hairs but before she could touch them she withdraw her hands very fast.

" Abhi, it's difficult for me to accept you. You can meet the children as you have every right on them. But, I just can't forgive you. Whenever I see you, all those horrible memories started flashing in front of my eyes and I feel scared," Devika replied biting her lips to control her outburst.

Abhinav pleaded looking at Devika's face," Devika, I know that I am toxic for you. But, just give me a last chance. Give me a last chance to treat you as my queen. Please, I beg you. Without you, I am nothing. I will be a living corpse without you. Give me a chance to make happy memories with you."

" Abhi.....try to und....... Devika tried to say when Abhinav replied," I know that I don't deserve you. I know that you deserve someone better. Devika, just give me a last chance to show you my real love for you."

Hearing him, Devika felt pity for him but still, she can't forgive him. He has damaged her beyond repair. Her external wounds are healed but her internal wounds are still fresh which Abhinav has given her. She can't forget all those horrific days.

" I can't," Devika said sternly and tried to free her legs from Abhinav's hold.

Abhinav didn't leave her legs instead he tightened his hold on Devika's legs. He cried out more loudly and said," Devika, in my whole life I have only loved you. I will never be able to move on without you. Please, don't push me away from you. Please, forgive me."

" I am sorry. I will never be able to forgive you. Nor I will be able to accept you. It's impossible for me," Devika said taking a deep breath and somehow freed her legs from Abhinav's hold.

She turned her back and a few drops of tears also escaped her eyes. Abhinav is still in his kneeling position and crying his eyes out.

Devika and Abhinav's kids noticed that their parents are crying. They are innocent and unknown to every fact. They thought that someone hurt their parents.

" Mamma....Papa....." The kids said in unison and come to their parents.

Abhinav and Devika immediately wiped their tears and became normal for the sake of their kids.

Abhinav picked up Devansh and Dipti in his embrace and they asked him wiping his remaining tears," What happened, Papa? Why are you crying?

" Nothing babies. Papa is fine," Abhinav replied forcing a smile on his face.

The same question was asked by Drishti and Daksh to Devika. She just said that everything is fine. Though nothing is fine.

" I think we should return home now," Devika said awkwardly looking at Abhinav.

Abhinav replied sighing," Yeah. After all, it's getting dark."

After that Devika and Abhinav started going towards the car to leave the park. Their kids are so tired after playing that they slept on their parent's shoulder.

" If you try hard then I may forgive you," Devika said suddenly.

Abhinav's face lit up hearing her and hope started rising inside him. He is becoming optimistic that Devika will give him a chance.

" Won't you accept me ever?" Abhinav asked with his nervous voice.

Devika replied directly," Don't hope for acceptance. I said I may forgive you. I didn't say that I may accept you. After tolerating your brutal tortures I will never be able to accept you."

" Devika, please... try to.........." Abhinav couldn't finish his sentence when Devika got inside the car.

She told Abhinav," Give back the kids. You can meet them anytime you want."

" Hmm," Abhinav hummed and gave back the kids. He is feeling like to scream at Devika that he doesn't want to let them go. But, he can't. He has no right on Devika.

After that Devika's car drove away leaving behind a broken Abhinav. He kept looking at the car with his teary eyes. He closed his eyes for a few minutes and remembered everything.

He remembered how tortured Devika. He remembered how he raped her brutally. He remembered how he humiliated and hurt her. He remembered how Devika tried to make their marriage successful but he pushed her away.

Remembering all these he felt very angry at himself. He is now regretting his all actions.

" I have suffered my whole life. Isn't it enough?" Abhinav asked God looking at the sky.

He fell on his knees and said crying his eyes out," Why God? Why? Why didn't you show me the right path? Why didn't you stop me from hurting Devika?"

" Don't lose hope. You should ask forgiveness from Devika until she forgives you," Abhinav's subconscious said and he just sighed.

He thought mentally," No matter what I will never give up. I will go any length to earn her forgiveness."