I Will Escape novel Chapter 120

There is no arguing between us, we both know that decision that we made is the best decision for everybody. I wait for Dominic to come back to the Room before I figure out that he's in the bathroom. I can hear the shower turn on. I don't want to go and get up and go into the bathroom. I can't see him naked I am afraid that I will want him. Knowing that I am not ready for any intimacy. I am struggling with it, I don't know why, but I just can't right now.

As I lie on the bed, I put my hands on my belly and fill our baby's movements. I love feeling our pup move and I am curious to see what we are having but knowing I want to be surprised. I have been pregnant now for almost 3 months. I only have 3 more to go. I am nervous about if I am going to be a good mother hoping that I will be. I am scared that all of this will not be resolved in time that Alex will take advantage and wait until I go into labor to attack. That would be the best time, especially when I will be at my weakest point.

I want to plan an attack first, so I don't have to worry about my child. There is no time to waste before we start planning to attack. Knowing that it's going to be one hell of a fight. Hoping that there won't be any casualties on our side anyhow. I want to be the one that rips Alex's heart from his chest. Knowing that I am pregnant I can't risk the loss of my child just in case he tries to kill my baby. He knows that I will do whatever it takes to protect my baby.

I am so lost in thought I don't even realize that Dominic comes out of the bathroom with nothing more than a towel until he sits right in front of me. I say nothing as I bite my bottom lip trying to resist him but knowing that I will not be able to. I want to fuck him so bad I can't help but to give in to him even though he's not even asking, but I am demanding it.

Pushing him down onto the bed and start to kiss him I began kissing down his neck leading to his hard cock I put it in my mouth and start to suck on his hard cock loving the taste of him not being able to fit his full length in my mouth I begin stroking the rest of his cock with my hand my pussy is getting so wet for him. Listening to his moans are making me even wetter. When he goes to cum in my mouth I swallow I start to cry not even realizing it.

“Sabrina what is wrong baby.” He put me in his arms.

“I'm so sorry, Dominic.” I am so ashamed to react this way to my mate. He is nothing like Alex. Hating that being intimate with my mate reminds of that monster. Wishing that I could just forget about all that has happened to me and just move on from it.

“Sabrina you don't have to be sorry I should have been more sensitive to your situation. I should have stopped you and not allowed you to go through with it.”

As he is holding me into his chest, I don't want to respond, I just want to forget. I want to be happy with my mate, especially because we are about to be parents. How do I do it? How can I just forget all that I have been through the past 3 months. It's not something I can just instantly heal from. I want to go back to how things were before I was captured.

“Sabrina, are you ok? Please answer me you're starting to worry me.”

“Dominic I'm sorry I don't want to tell you all that I have gone through with Alex the past 3 months. I don't want to relive it all by talking about.” 

“Sabrina you don't need to talk to me about it but if you need to, I'm here for you always.”

I get up and go walk into the bathroom. I turn the shower on not wanting to shower but just wanting to cry, not wanting Dominic to hear me. Once I leave all my emotions out, I shut the shower off and walk back out to the bedroom.

I look at Dominic “get Damien, please I need to talk to him as soon as possible.”

It's time to get shit on the road. I need to start planning on defeating the devil's pack. The first step is appointing a Beta my second in command. I know that Damien will get the job done, and he will be an amazing Beta, and he will tell me what he thinks no matter if I am his Alpha.

I get dressed as I wait for Damien to come to my room. It's time to make an appearance to my pack after I appoint my Beta to the pack. We need to start preparing for what is about to come. This isn't going to be easy. By far people are going to die. I want everyone to know what they are being asked. I want them to understand they are going to be risking their lives. That I'm not going to force them to fight if they choose not to. Even though I need them to defeat the devil's pack, they will not be forced.

I began to think of my sister. She is probably going crazy. We haven't really spoken since I have returned. She probably thinks I'm mad at her, I can't wait to reunite with her. I have missed her so much all this time that I have been away. I know that she has probably been feeling guilt. Especially about the last time we spoke to each other, but I'm glad that it went that way. Thinking what could have happened if she was at the cabin when Alex came back to capture me.

The door opens and I see Damien and Dominic. “Thank you for coming to speak with me, I have a request to ask you.”

“Yes my Alpha, what is your request?” I can tell that the words come out like he's irritated wondering why.

I can't control myself. I call him out on it. “Damien I do not like how you speak to me, that is not the way you talk to your alpha with such an irritated tone.”

“I am sorry alpha I am not myself things have been a little crazy especially over you.”

“It's fine Damien I did not call you in here to fight. I would like to appoint you my Beta if you would accept.”

“Why would you choose me as your Beta when you have better options.”

I am losing my patience. “Are you questioning the decision of your alpha?”

“No I am not. I am just wondering why you want me as your Beta. Can you answer that for me.”

“This is the exact reason why I want you as my Beta. You question me and if I do something that is not reasonable you will tell me about it where others would ignore it.”

“I am going to have to talk this over with Tonya first to make sure that she was OK with it.”

“This isn't Tonya's decision , this is yours to decide. My wolf has chosen you; she hasn't had any interest in anybody else.”

“I understand, but I have to make sure it is OK with her, she might think that she should be by your side.”

“She is always going to be by my side. She doesn't need a title to be by my side.”

“Even with that said, I still need to talk to her about it. I will tell you my decision by the end of the day.”

“Damien this is one of the greatest honors you will be the Beta of the most powerful pack. So please make sure you make your choice wisely you can go now thank you.”

I am irritated that he did not just come out and accept the position as the new Beta. Wondering now if I made the right choice. Knowing that he has to confine in his mate before he makes his choice. When it comes to decision-making it will not matter what your mate thinks. It will have to be what is best for everyone even if our mate does not agree with our choices. For him to be the Beta of this pack, he is going to have to realize that. I love my sister, but this is not her choice, it is mine.