If only he loved me too novel Chapter 9

"And you do?" Dimitri asked me in a challenging manner, looking on the road ahead and not spearing me a glance. I chuckled in a very good mood

"Of co--" I tried to reply but the words seemed to stick in my mouth, I kept trying to say those words but nothing came out.

"Why don't you answer me?" he asked angrily clenching his jaw and not just talking but it was getting difficult for me to breathe as well, I held my throat trying to talk but the pressure was too much. "why?" he turned his head in my direction and I screamed wordlessly

Blood seeped out of his head and down his beautiful face, his face was turning pale, his cheeks hollow, then his eyes turned lifeless. "Do you love me, now?" he asked in a very hollow and scary voice that did not belong to him. slowly his face was decaying right in front of my eyes and there was nothing I could do, I tried to move forward to touch him, feel him, hug him, but my body was glued in its place

"Yes" I chocked on my words but it came out bearly as a whisper and everything was getting fuzzy, slowing my vision was fading away from my husband

The last thing I heard before I lost consciousness was "Too late" 

I kept struggling to breathe, gasping, choking, and all sorts of things but no use

"We are losing her," said a voice from a distance, I could not feel my body, I was floating in the abyss, I had no control over anything and for some strange reason I didn't want to too, I wanted to give everything up and just let go.

"she is going into cardiac arrest," the same voice said again, suddenly I felt a shot of electricity through my body and then again, and again. 

I shot up from where I was lying and inhaled a huge amount of air, lights blurred my vision, there were ao many people and so many machines, I started panicking, my body shook in fear. 

"Hey, hey, stay with me alright," a familiar face came into my vision and he held my hand "It's gonna be ok, you are ok," then slowly everything faded but before I was swept into the darkness I said one word 

"Dimitri," 

Pain, the pain in my head and different parts of my body woke me up, a slow beeping echoed in the room, groaning I hesitantly opened my eyes, everything was painfully white, I laid on a hospital bed, wearing a hospital gown, plaster on my right leg and left arm, an IV attached to my left hand along with heart monitor, what shocked me was the two people in my room. Mom and Vannessa were leaning on the couch at the end of the small room. 

As I attempted to move the heart monitor spiked up, alerting my family. mom looked up and ran to me, she burst into tears and hugged my non-plastered body. Vannessa sat next to me opposite to mom and cried holding my arm. 

"Thank god, baby, you are alright" mom cried looking at me holding my face in her wrinkled hand "I was so scared, I thought I lost you too" she wept but I couldn't remember why? then like a flood. everything came to me, the party, dancing, pool, being in his arms, the car, the question, and the crash.

My eyes widened in shock and fear, I gasped from all the pain and pressure the memories brought me. I looked at my family alarmed.

"Dimitri, Where is he?" I asked both of them but they cried harder, panic slowly flew in my body and I looked at them scared "Where is he?" I asked again but no reply, having enough of it I pushed my body to get out of the bed and ripped the IV out, blood dripped from my hand as every bone in my body screamed in protest but I didn't stop.

"Baby, please lie down. you will rip open your stitches," My mom begged but I couldn't stop. my plastered leg gave out and I fell, painfully. the door to my room opened and Oliver walked in

"Erika!" Oliver yelled before he came to my ade and helped me up, "What are you doing? get back to bed" he said I looked at him, he was wearing his doctor's coat, but his face looked tired and his eyes were swollen red.

" Dimitri, take me to him, I need to see him now," I begged him, his face turned pale and sadness took over him. he didn't reply just kept glancing at my mother and sister who cried silently. "Answer me, god, damn it" I yelled holding his collar, a lone tear fell from his eye and he started shaking

"He... he-" he stammered while replying, I tightened my hold on him "He is gone" when the words left his mouth I staggered back losing my footing, "Erika," he pulled me before I fell again 

"No, no, no" I mumbled shaking my head denying what I heard, it's not possible, he couldn't leave me, not like this.

"I'm sorry," he cried holding my hand tighter, "I'm so sorry" he cried harder but I felt numb, I couldn't believe the words leaving his mouth.

"You're lying, " I whispered "you are lying" I screamed when he kept apologizing over and over again, he wouldn't stop apologizing so I don't one thing that would stop him all together I slapped him

He didn't say anything just stood there facing the way I had slapped him, he wouldn't meet my eyes, I inhaled deeply "How?" I asked trying hard not to break down then and there

"Your car exploded after the crash, you were outside but he... he burned in it with it" Oliver choked while trying to control himself from having his breakdown.

A shiver ran down my spine when the vision of the car crash swept into my head, I closed my eyes but Dimitri' face covered with blood was the only thing on my mind

"Take me to him," I demanded to stare at Oliver. he shook his head "Please, I need to see him" I begged, my voice was barely above a whisper. he looked pained but nodded and went out of the room.

My mom wiped my cheek and I then realized that I had been crying all along "It's ok my child, cry" she whispered hugging me close to her body "Mamma's got you" and then I did.

I cried