I've Been There Before (Grace and Caden) novel Chapter 188

A person that said nothing was more terrifying than a person that yelled.

"Let go, Caden... Ah!" The words she could not finish disappeared in her throat. It was not necessary for her to say them anymore.

Caden was like going crazy. He put her on the bed and 'attacked' again and again as though hugging her tightly was the only way for him to feel the warmth of this woman, which assured him that she was still there and didn't leave.

After a rough sex, neither of them felt comfortable. She was like a broken doll, lying on the bed feebly. And him, he breathed heavily like a beast. The heavy sound of breath flooded from his throat bit by bit.

She didn't look at him. She would rather stare at the ceiling in a daze.

The man above her moved. He supported with his arms and got up. She felt lighter immediately. Even the bed beneath her was lighter. He got off the bed. The used decent man ignored his shoes and walked to the dresser with bare feet. He opened the drawer and took out the bottle.

Then he strode to the bed and stretched out his arm, "No more medicine?"

"You..." She instantly got flustered.

He sneered, "Vitamin pill, is it?" His thin lips curled up without any warmth of a human being. He used the other hand to open the bottle. His black eyes locked on the woman in front of him. He poured out a handful of pills. His lips curled up, and the coldness was more imposing.

He raised his head and stuffed all the pills into his mouth.

Grace's eyes widened at once. Before she could think about anything else, she rushed forth and grabbed his arm, "No! You can't take them!"

"Why not? Isn't it vitamin pills?" He smiled, but the smile was very strange, "Even you can take them, isn't it?"

"I... I..." What could she say? Tell him that this was not vitamin pill?

He chewed the pills while looking at this woman. The pills in his mouth were extremely bitter. No mention he ate a handful of them. Yet it seemed that he did not feel the bitter taste of the medicine in his mouth as though he was just chewing gums instead of medicine. He felt nothing.

Grace widened her mouth and every time when she wanted to say something, she found that she couldn't say anything.

She stared at his throat, watching him swallow every time. He was still chewing the pills. Her chest was somewhat painful for some reasons. She raised her head and looked into his eyes, "Spill them out."

"Why should I? Why so stingy? Don't even want to share some vitamin pills with me? I will buy you more if it runs out." He still talked to her sweetly, but his eyes were painful. His heart was like being torn apart by a pair of hands, making the sound of tearing things apart. He tried his best to ignore it. He thought this woman was loath to part with him in the end, otherwise, why would she care even if what he ate was poison? ... More ridiculously, he just realized that this was the last bargaining chip he had left!

Just because of this!

Just because of this...

She said, "It was not good to eat so many vitamin pills. Spill them out. Okay?"

Just because of this!

Just because of this...

He said, "Okay." The words that he was about say to reveal the truth were buried inside his heart. He continued to pretended to know nothing.

He spilled out the remnant of medicine in his mouth. He frowned and pretended to comment on the taste, "This vitamin pills are not good. Don't eat them next time. I will buy you some new ones."

Her expression changed instantly. She almost robbed the bottle from his hand and then explained with an unnatural expression, "I like the taste. I will wait until this one runs out."

He suddenly touched the back of her waist. And her whole body turned rigid instantly and her expression became more unnatural, "Don't touch me!"

She almost shouted and her eyes looked more painful and intolerable.

"Tell me. Will it be a coincidence that my kidney can fit in yours?"

Grace's expression changed and she retracted backward, "What do you mean?" She looked at the man in front warily.

"If there is something one for one in this world, then tell me. If I give you my kidney, can you give me something else?"

He looked at her gently.

As for Grace, she felt cold all over, "Stop playing... Stop playing, shall we? Didn't you say we should live on a happy life? Let's live on a happy life. No more jokes like this and don't think about things like this anymore."

She thought he had come up with new means to torture her. And she... She was afraid.

Caden listened to Grace's words. As she said "live on a happy life", he wanted to laugh and cry at the same time... It was rare to see that the invincible Caden Shaw to have such conflicting human emotions.

"Sure. If you say so, then we will live on a happy life." He put her head into his shoulder. In the place that she could not see, his left hand clenched into a fist.

"Grace... Why don't you ask about the thing that I want you to give me if I give you my kidney. Why don't you ask me what it is?" He whispered beside her ear.

He could clearly feel the woman's stiffness in his arms.

"Stop messing around, okay? It's not funny at all."

He heard her talk about other things in order to dodge the question and smiled lightly. His eyes grew gentler and there was a trace of gentleness as well as pain flashed across. He said lightly, "Okay, I will stop making this joke that isn't funny to you."

"The vitamin pills... Don't take them, okay?" The corner of Caden's eyes caught sight of Grace holding that bottle tightly even when she was hugged into his arms. He thought if she could compromise this time, he would immediately donate half of his estate to the society and the other half to raise her children. This would be enough.

The time was stopped. It was just a few seconds, but it was like a century long. He almost ran out of patience.

He just realized that he cared for this woman to the degree of insanity.

"Eat this bottle of pills... Don't waste them."

Boom!

The wall in his heart fell apart!

She still wanted to eat that damn "vitamin pills"!

She wasn't eating the "vitamin pills"! She just didn't want to give birth to a child for him! She just couldn't love him anymore! She just wanted to draw the line between them!

Caden pushed the woman in his arms away slightly and took the bottle from her hand. She was very worried. He smiled at her with comfort and then pour a pill out. He put the pill into his mouth under her stunned gaze. She suddenly hugged his head and kissed him in the mouth.

Bitterness went from his lips to her mouth.

At this moment, Grace covered her left chest harshly, very harshly. As if doing so, she could relieve the pain flooded from the chest.

For that exact moment, she was lost. Was she wrong?

But immediately after that, her eyes turned firm and resolute... He was her disaster, and they should not have any connection! She was not wrong!

This kiss was bitter and long-lasting, and there was some unspeakable touching. Unfortunately, neither of them put this very little bit of touching into their hearts.

He let go of her gently and smiled. Really, the way he smiled was very good-looking. Yet this handsome face was indifferent to others normally.

His large palm rubbed her hairs, "Okay, I will listen to you. Don't waste this bottle, but after finishing them, shall we not eat this brand of 'vitamin pills'?"

At night.

A man and a woman slept on the bed.

Grace looked at the man next to her... He must know it, right?

He knew that it was not vitamin pills.

So he was so mad that he dragged her upstairs.

But why would he choose to compromise if he knew it?

She thought for a long time but could not figure it out. She shook her head and was not going to think about it.

The person next to her made her feel more annoyed.

She didn't understand him more and more.

He made her agitated. He made her hate and... Painful! She would never admit that hate arose from love, otherwise, how should she face him and how should she face herself?

This person was becoming the demon of her heart more and more...

She stretched out slowly and reached the knife at the head of the bed. With a very low sound of flicking, the sharp knife was flashing with coldness in the darkness, moving closer to his neck... But her hands were trembling.

She widened her eyes, and tears were flooding in her eyes. However, she still held the knife tight and got closer to the man who was asleep.

Her hands were shaking without control. The closer she got, the more harshly her hands trembled.

Grace, stab him, stab him and everything would be over!

Grace, what are you hesitating!

Grace, have you forgotten who brought you all the sufferings? Who made you into an animal? Who humiliated every bit of you?

Grace, come on, do it! Do it! Do it!!!

Grace! You useless thing!

Click!

The knife dropped, she put the knife back immediately in panic. She looked at the person slept next to her without waking him up.

She closed her eyes and her right hand was still holding the knife as though she was crushing the knife into pieces!

Tears streamed down from her closed eyes.

She couldn't control her eyes just like she couldn't control the shaking hand that was holding the knife... What was it so terrifying?

You were already responsible for a person's life? Why not one more?

Why don't you stab him!

Useless! Useless!! Useless!!!

A sign of determination flashed across and she looked at the person next to her. She did feel reconciled, but not care... Definitely!

The knife that was hanging at the top of the man's head. Grace took a deep breath. She said she didn't care, she said she would relax if he died, but she just couldn't do it. With her hands trembling, she hated her impotence. The knife in her hands was like a piece of hot iron, and she threw away the knife in panic!

She covered her face and cried silently. She hated it, she hated her powerlessness and her grudge to leave this man.

She hated herself for not being able to do it!

The sound of knife dropping to the floor woke the man up.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying?" Caden sat up hurriedly and wanted to hug Grace, but the latter shook off his hand involuntarily.

After that, she felt it was not right, so she explained, "I have a nightmare."

The man sighed in relax, "Don't be afraid, I am here." He hugged her and put her back under the blanket, coaxing Grace like coaxing a child. And the woman in the bed fell asleep.

Maybe she was really tired. This was the first time that she indeed fell asleep while in the same bed with this man.

The man's black eyes landed precisely on the knife lying at the corner of the wall. His black eyes flashed and he lowered his eyelids, turned off the light and lay down, hugging the woman tighter in his arms.