Life After the Storm novel Chapter 37

I jump up and wrap my arms around him with tears coming out of my eyes, I know that he can tell something is wrong. "Ivan we need to go, something has happened I was wrong and Landon lied to me that your pack was attacked I'm so sorry."

"Who answered when you called?"

"A woman I think she was your mother she told me that Sam is dying. I can save him. But she wouldn't tell me where she was, she wanted to talk to you first."

As I watch tears fill his eyes, I feel so sorry for him he then says nothing. I know we have little time to come up with a plan. I can see that he still is weak, and he might even be afraid. I hear Star Lilly he needs his mate to connect with him even if it's a hug, hold on to him and only think about healing him.

I don't hesitate, I wrap my arms around him and hold on to him so tight like I'm never going to let him go. It feels amazing the feeling that he makes my body feel, but my mind is far away from what my body feels. I'm so confused but right now all I can think about is healing him. I go to look into his eyes and I can see the surprised look in his eyes.

"Lilly, your eyes are glowing, are you okay?"

He looks at me and says. "Lilly, you 're amazing." 

As he connects his lips to mine, the spark is insane. I can feel my body just feel relieved, so confused about this feeling, not really sure what it is. "Do you know where we need to go to find Sam, I need to save him before it's too late." I say to him as we both pant, the ecstasy is almost unbearable.

I wait for him to respond, but instead he connects back to my lips and puts his hands on my waist. I want to push away, I want to say no, but I can't. I want him so badly that my body explodes, I can't help but to kiss him back. I know that this shouldn't happen, but I can't help it. As his hands travel up to my breast, and he grips them, I am so turned on by him I can't resist.

I try to snap out of it, but I can't because he picks me up, I wrap my legs around his hips. He then gently places me on the bed as he starts kissing down my body. It's like he's savoring every kiss, wanting to taste every part of me. I am so confused, knowing that this isn't the time for this, but not wanting him to stop  at the same time, knowing I would be full of disappointment if it ended.

As he starts to kiss my pussy, it begins to gosh. I try to stop him, but my body won't allow me to. As I feel his tongue play with my clitoris. I put a pillow over my face to control myself, not being able to not scream. I then fill him, arch my hips up. As he inserts his cock inside me, I can feel my juices just surround his throbbing cock, the wetness that he is causing me is mind blowing.

How can he make me feel this way after all that has happened, my body still wants every part of him, god? As he is fucking me, sweat is pouring off our body's. My body is moving in sync with his, it's like we have known each our entire lives and our greatest desires on how to please one another. 

I wanted to get close to him to help him heal, so we could find Sam, so I could save him. I feel so dirty knowing that Sam needs me, but I can't resist. I don't regret what is happening but all I can think  about is the pleasure I am getting. Not wanting it ever to end.

As I can tell that his body was getting ready to explode, my body clinchs together, I then grab a hold of his arms as his hands are cresting my breast. I squeeze onto him as I cum I then feel his cum fill pussy. Not really sure why, but I feel accomplished like I did what I was supposed to do.

As we are both trying to catch our breath. I scramble around trying to find my clothes piece by piece as I watch a smile develop on his face, hating that he has to be so handsome it fucking irritates me knowing that he's getting amusement from me. I know that he can see how awkward I feel. I am trying to hide it, but it's so hard to do.

As he lays naked on the bed and just stares at me, I want to punch him in the face. There are so many things happening that's out of my control and I need his help to find Sam. As he is not moving fast enough, I get frustrated, and I yell "get the fuck up and dressed we need to go help Sam, if he is in fact, dying you need to let me help to try to save him."

"Sam is fine, we have different codes for different areas where my family will escape too. When there is an attack we use codes to let each other know where we are, just in case we get separated."

"Are you serious, so what we just did was unnecessary, I only connected with you to help you heal, so you would become stronger, so we would be able to save Sam."

He looks at me with disappointment. I know what I said was sort of cruel, but I don't want him. I was only trying to save Sam if it wasn't for that I would have never touched him. I don't want his hands to touch me, I don't want you for my mate. I Know how good he makes my body feel, I don't care I don't need him I tell myself but then I wonder am I going to be able to resist him for long.

"If you hate me so much why did you allow me to survive, Lilly why not just let me fucking die."

I then think to myself, does he not recall what i told him? Now I'm not sure if I want him to know I could still be free. Would it be all right to keep him away from his child? He isn't all bad there is also good in him too, I don't know what to do I freeze.