Life After the Storm novel Chapter 38

I am so frustrated with Ivan right now. I just want to smack him. He made me believe that Sam was in real danger. He could have told me that Sam was fine. I was so worried. That he was dying when in reality he is just fine damn it Ivan.

“Why wouldn't you tell me that it was a code that Sam was okay Ivan, damn it I was terrified.”

“Lilly, if I had told you, then you wouldn't have wanted to be with me. I needed to fully heal, and I knew that if I had told you the truth, that you wouldn't have let me fuck you.”

Hating him but listening to him talking about us fucking has my pussy getting wet for him again. God, I hate this fucking mate bond. It is too much to handle. God, I could take him again right here, right now, fuck. I focus on my anger instead of trying to control myself.

“Damn Ivan you can't just let me chose to be with you, instead you have to trick me to be,”

“Lilly, really, you wouldn't have touched me if you knew that Sam was fine, you would have let me suffer. I wanted my strength. I need to be able to protect myself. Just in case someone tries to attack me again. I need to be as strong as I possibly can be. “

“Ivan, maybe if you would have just told me the truth it's possible just maybe I would have helped you, but now we will just never know.”

“Lilly, you can say what you want. I know that you wouldn't help me. You should be happy Sam is fine, I need to call my mother, take me to a phone.”

As tears began to feel in my eyes, I am full of emotion. I hate how he makes me feel and there's nothing that I can do. Maybe he's right. If I knew the truth, I wouldn't have helped him, letting him suffer would have been better. Sometimes I just want someone else to feel my pain. I try so hard to put on a smile and go about like everything is fine. The truth is I am screaming inside.

I don't let my tears fall. “Get dressed Ivan, I will take you to Landon's to use his phone, the sooner you can leave the better.”

I try not to show any emotion, but I'm finding it harder. This life is hard to live. Knowing that there's no way of ending it. I turned away from him, not wanting to see him as he's getting dressed. He goes to touch my shoulder, but I shrug him off, not wanting him to touch me. I'm so tired I'm all his tricks. I'm sick of it.

“Follow me, I will take you to Landon's, so you can use the phone.”

“Lilly, thank you for saving me.”

I pretend not to hear what he has said as I turn to the door to leave my cabin. As we began walking, I didn't know what to say. I'm just over everything. Wondering what is going to happen to Jenny. She is a good person, she just did a terrible thing. I want to ask him to show her mercy, but I don't know if he will. Especially because she did not show him any type of mercy and torture the hell out of him.

As we almost approach Landon's house before we begin walking up the steps to his house, we hear a scream. Ivan goes and puts me behind him, as he is acting like I need his protection. I try to push him away, but he doesn't budge, I notice he got his strength back. I'm not sure what is going on. Then I see Landon as he opens the door and comes to see what is going on when He shifts and takes off. I then shift as well and run next to him.

Then I realized my loyalty is to him and I wondered where the hell is Jayden. I mind link Landon, “where is Jayden?”

“He is at the house, I asked him to stay put until I return.”

Relief overcomes me, thanking God that Jayden is safe as we are running toward the screams I become terrified. As I see pack members laying on the ground barely alive. I want to help, but I wait to hear what Landon's command is going to be.

Landon then lets out a fearful growl. As the wolf's then stop attacking the pack members, and they turn to look at Landon with a smirk, like they're excited about the challenge that is coming towards them. As I get closer, I then realize it is one of the ladies that I was to help train. I try to find a pulse with my snout, I become so relieved once I feel her pulse I then begin to lick her wounds as I watch them close I move on to the next wolf. I continue this process until I have healed them.

When I look over to Landon, I can tell that he is struggling. I come to help but I, but Ivan jumps in front of me. I let out a warning growl for him to move as I looked into his eyes. I can see sadness from me wanting to protect Landon. As Ivan stands there and doesn't move, I jump over him. As my jaws connect with one of the wolves that are attacking Landon. I fling him into a tree with so much force that it knocks him out.

As I go for the other wolf, He takes off into the Woods, I want to chase him, but I need to make sure that Landon is OK. As I walk over to his wolf, I see his open wounds. I begin to lick his wounds, so he heals faster. Not caring that Ivan is watching me, he is not my Alpha.

“Fuck he can't escape you will be in danger, no one can figure out what are.”

Ivan walks over to him, “what do you mean why would she be in danger.”

Landon looks at him irritated as hell, says, "just help me find and kill him, so we can protect Lilly please.”

“Fine, I will help, but you will explain later.”