Life After the Storm novel Chapter 54

I am unsure of what to do. I'm scared, wondering what games he may be playing. I watch as he goes to stand. I back up standing in the middle of the doorway. He stumbles and looks into my eyes, "mine, you're my mate."

I am unsure of what is happening. He is starting to scare me. I begin to tremble as I wait for him to snap back into reality. I can be strong, but it doesn't mean I'm not scared. I watch as he steps towards me. I want to stand my ground, but I can't. I go to run, but then all I can think about is what will happen to Jayden.

So, I stopped, and I turned around to go back into the bedroom. But he is standing in the doorway, just staring at me. I become uncomfortable with his gaze, and then I realize I am naked. I'm confused by his eyes. It is like this is the first time that he has ever seen me naked before.

I get tired of his games. I know that he's pretending he's a monster. He has never been the gentle type, not with me, anyway. "Ivan, what games are you trying to play here?"

"I'm not sure what games you are talking about, you're the one standing in front of me with no clothes on. You expect me not to stare at my beautiful mate's body."

"Ivan, stop this, please. I know you're going to hurt. Just get it over with, please."

As he comes close to me, he goes to put his hands on my shoulder. I jump back, and my body shakes. Surprised that I reacted like this just by his touch. Hating that he has any control over me in the first place. I notice that he is about to say something, hoping that he is about to come clean and be the monster I know he is.

"Look, I'm not sure why you are so scared, but you don't have to be. I would never hurt you, I promise."

I become so anger from his words "Are you fucking kidding me you wouldn't hurt me, bullshit? You have tortured me, for I don't even know how long it's been, due to you tying me to the bed. Letting me suffer as you beat and raped me whenever you wanted too."

I can't stop myself as tears fall from my eyes. How dare him forget all the pain that he made me suffer. Saying he doesn't remember, like it's just so forgettable. I will never forget what he has done to me. I feel as my face gets hot as my anger begins to take over my body. I need to control myself, so I can figure out what the fuck is going on.

He walks closer and goes to put his arm around me. I move back away from him where he can not reach me. He looks at me, so confused, "I'm sorry, but I think you have me confused with some else. I would never hurt you trust me."

I know that he has to playing some kind of game trust him are you fucking kidding me. He probably has an evil plan on how he is going to trick me, so he can then torture me. He reaches his hand out for me to take, but I don't budge. He must be fucking nuts if he thinks that he can pull a fast one on me.

I scream at him " I don't fucking have you confused with anyone, your a monster. I don't want you to touch me, just stay away from me, please."

"You came into my room if you don't want to be here, then leave."

I'm shocked by his words "Leave, you're allowing me to leave. You won't keep me here as your mate. I can just go."

"I can't force you to love me, so what is the point in trying, if you want to leave, it's your choice."

I'm so dumb founded, he has to be fucking joking. There is know way he would just let me go. What the hell is going on? I then look into Ivan's eyes, and all the hatred I saw before is gone. Is it really possible that he is a different person? That he isn't a monster. When I look at into his eyes, I'm so confused and uncertain who the fuck I'm looking at. What the fuck has happened to him.

Then I remembered I marked him is it possible that me marking him change him. Did it take all the evil out of him? Even so, I will never l be his. I can't be. I don't know who this man is in front of me, but I know one thing: it's not Ivan. I really don't know what to think, if he is just pretending or maybe when I marked him, something happened, and he has forgotten the monster that he really is. I don't know what to do. He is allowing me to leave, so why not just do that and see if he comes after me.

I go and pretend to play this game "So you don't mind if I just leave and never return, it's okay with you even if I fuck a another man."

He looks at me and laughs "I don't even know why you would, think I would even care if you were with any other man."

I look at him confused, "I marked you as mine."

"So what I didn't even accept your mark and I didn't mark you as mine so it doesn't mean anything, our connection isn't complete until we both are marked by each other. I don't know you So, how would I even know that you would even be a good Luna to my pack."

I'm so confused about how he is acting that I need to talk to someone to try to figure out what the hell has happened. I go to walk away, but then I see myself in the mirror. I see how dirty I am and that I'm still naked. My cheeks begin to blush, not understanding why, but I'm embarrassed, wondering why I feel the need to impress him. So, I then decide to walk into the bedroom. I need to get dressed as he is looking at me. I then say quietly, "I'm going to get a shower, then I'll be on my way."

I haven't taken a shower in a long time. I can't wait as I step into the bathroom. I wait to see if he is going to follow me. I know that he won't be able to resist hurting me for long, especially if I go to leave he would never allow me to leave ever. So, why not play this game with him if it is really what he wants, let's play.