Life After the Storm novel Chapter 57

I hear Landon talking, but I don't understand the words as I watch his lips move but not understanding the words, I watch as He reaches his arm out to me to comfort me. I then move backwards, not wanting any of his comfort. I'm shocked, wondering if he was involved in everything that has taken place.

I don't speak to him, I turn around, and I run, I don't shift, I just run as myself. Tears flowed down my eyes, realizing all that had happened was a test. To figure out, I was a healer. I'm so uncertain about everything. I want answers, but I feel betrayed. I, no what I wanted in the beginning, wanting to find out who I was, but knowing now what it all cost just wasn't worth any of it.

It seems like I'm losing small pieces of myself as time goes on. I'm scared that eventually I'm just going to disappear and hate who I become. I don't look back, I just continue to run faster and faster. I need to get away from all of this. I have been held here for too long, it's time to get out of here, especially now that Ivan has set me free.

I'm shocked at the way my body feels, especially since I was so malnourished. From Jayden healing me, I feel more power than I have ever felt. I begin to slow as I think of Jayden. Can I leave him behind? I don't have a choice, I have to protect myself. No matter the bond that I have with Jayden, I need to escape this place. I've only ever been put through pain. I need to escape this place once and for all.

I then can hear the shuffling between the leaves and in a distance I know someone is following me. Scared that it is Ivan, ready to attack me and put me through all the misery you possibly can. But it isn't his scent that I smell, it is Landon. I become confused, why would he Chase me, what does he want now?

I then feel pain as I'm being tumbled down to the ground. I try to escape, but there's no use as he holds my hands down to the ground, and a naked Landon is on top of me. “Landon, what are you doing, let me go.”

“You can't be angry, we only did what you wanted. You wanted to find who you are, you had questions and now have the answers.”

I don't know what to do. I don't want to be controlled by anyone. I know I wanted to find out who I was. Not knowing the cost and not caring, but now That I have lost everything, it matters. I don't know what to say to him, I'm so angry, but he only did what he did because I asked him to.

“Lilly, I'm sorry that things did not turn out how you wanted them to, but now you have answers.”

I don't know what to say, my mind is blank. I'm so furious at myself for being so selfish. I hate that I have allowed all of this to happen to me. I have made all the wrong choices, and I don't know how to fix any of it. I know that I just want to run away from all of this. Knowing if I do run away, it won't change anything. I need to stay to figure all of this out. I need to face all of this, no matter the cost.

“Let me go, Landon, I'm tired of being held down.”

“Are you going to run away from me?”

“What's it matter if I do, it's my choice to stay or leave.”

“It is your choice, but I want to explain everything to you first. Will you please just come back to my house? I really want you to know the truth about everything.”

When I look into his eyes, I can tell that he's frightened about what he is about to tell me. It sort of makes me feel uneasy knowing whatever he is going to say to me, he is afraid of my reaction. I then become curious to see what he is so nervous about telling me. “Fine, I will go back with you, but I can't promise that I'm staying.”

“That's fine. I just want you to finally know the truth about everything. I think that it's time that you finally know.”

They say that finding out the truth will set you free, but is that really the case. What if the truth isn't at all what I want to hear? What if the truth is what destroys me even more? I am so tired of heartbreak that I'm uncertain if I can take much more. “Okay Landon, are going to get up off me, I will come back.”

As he smirks at me, I can see the lust in his eyes. Knowing that he is craving my body. “Are you sure that is what you want me to do, that you don't want anything else from me.”

“Yes, now get your big ass off me.”

“Damn, lady, you don't have to be so mean.” He then lets out a playful laugh.

I watch as he gets up and once he gets to his feet, he then reaches out to me to help me get up. I then reach my hand to connect my hand to his. As he pulls me up, my body falls into his. I can feel his breath on my cheek. Not wanting to react to him, I turned my head. Trying to ignore the tingling feeling in-between my legs.

I push him away, not wanting to complicate things even more than they already are. I then begin to walk back to his house. I can hear him trailing behind me. I don't talk to be honest, I don't know what to say, and I'm worried about what is about to happen.