Life After the Storm novel Chapter 63

Fuck, what the fuck is wrong with me? I can't believe myself. There I go once again, I get all heated, and I forget everything. I scoot over to get out of the car. He reaches his hand out to help me, but I ignore him, not choosing to feel his touch. I Then feel the heat from his hand touching the middle of my back. The feeling of lust begins to take over.

I try to control myself as much as I can, feel my panties becoming wet. Not wanting him to know how I'm reacting to him. When we approach the hostess, she becomes nervous as her speech stutters, “Alpha, wow, it is so nice to see you. I hope you're having a pleasant evening.”

“Yes, I am thank you, I have reservations.”

As I watch, her put her hand on his chest, and she begins to flirt with him, taking her finger and rubbing it down his chest. As she begins to speak, “Alpha, there is no need for you to make reservations. You can come in anytime and I will find you the best table.”

“That is very kind of you. Can you please show us to our table?”

God, I am becoming so fucking irritated with this bitch. I can't help but let out a growl underneath my breath. Trying to warn her to back the fuck up. I know I don't want him, but my bond is making me react defensively. I watch as she then looks and smiles at Ivan and says, “Of course Alpha, let me lead you the way.”

I then step in front of Ivan, putting myself in between the both of them. I am shocked by my jealousy, but I can't help it. God, I hate what this bond is doing to me. I can't feel for a monster. He doesn't deserve any kind of love. I get so lost in my thoughts that I feel a strong hand grab me and hold me back then noticing we reached our table the hostess eyes up Ivan and smiles as she nibbles on her bottom lip she begins to say “Here is your table I hope you have a great evening if you need anything and I mean anything I'll be at the hostess stand.”

I can't take it any more. I look at her full of frustration. “Excuse me, do you not see that he is here with his mate.”

She looks at me and laughs. “You his mate? Yeah, right, you wish he was. 

I go to go after her, but I feel Ivan's grip tighten as he steps in front of me. He looks at the girl more serious than I have ever seen him look, “Are you laughing at your Luna?”

I can see the fear appear in her eyes. All my anger then disappears as I watch her tremble. It then reminds me of how scared I was of Ivan. I then playfully grab a hold of Ivan's arm. It's okay, she didn't know we did not announce it., yet it's okay, Ivan.”

“I'm so so so sorry, Luna, I didn't mean to disrespect you.”

“It's okay, you didn't know, but please go away.”

As I watch her walk away, I'm surprised that Ivan didn't feed into her hitting on him. Instead, he was respectful, and it seemed like he didn't even notice her beauty. To be honest, her beauty was hard to miss. “Lilly, are you going to sit down?”

“Yes, I'm sorry” as a snap out of my thoughts and sit down. I'm not sure what to say to Ivan. I become relieved when the waiter approaches us, “good evening, what can I get you to drink? I look at Ivan, then the waiter, “I will have water please.”

Ivan turns to the waiter,” I will have the same.”

As I look over the menu, I am uncertain what to get. I want to ask what is good here, but I want to avoid giving him the wrong impression that I care what he thinks of anything. Then I hear a voice that I have missed so much, it's star. I close my eyes, wanting to only focus on Star's voice. “Lilly, he is our mate, and you marked him. We will always care and wonder about him. Know matter how much you fight it, there won't be any way of resisting him forever.”

As I open my eyes, I see Ivan is ordering. I'm uncertain what he is saying. Then the waiter turns and looks at me. “Excuse me, miss, what would you like."?

I then put a forced smile on my face and answer the waiter, “I will have exactly what he is having.”

Hoping whatever he got that I'm going to like it. I'm starving. I am not sure what the hell is wrong with me. I'm so unfocused. I wanted to tell him so many mean things, but I'm so distracted that I can't even speak. I wish he would just get on with it and talk to me about whatever he needs to talk to me about. 

“So Ivan, what is coming? I can feel that something is going to happen.”

“Lilly, I don't know what you're talking about.”

“Ivan, don't lie to me. There is something bad coming, real bad. We need to prepare.”

“Lilly, I'm not lying to you. There isn't anything I'm not telling you.”

I'm confused. I thought this was why we were meeting to talk about what is coming. He has know clue what is coming. Which terrifies me. We need to figure out what is about to happen. “Ivan, we need to prepare for battle. We are going to be attacked. I can feel it in my bones.”

He looks at me, puzzled. “Lilly, there is peace in all the packs. There are not any issues happening.”

“Ivan, please, you need to believe me. I don't want us to lose any of our pack members.”

I stare at him frantically, I know what I need to do. I get up from the table and don't take a second look at Ivan as I am walking away from him. As I ignore him calling for me, I then feel a grip on my arm. “Lilly, where are you going?"

“I need to talk to Dean. He will know what is going on because he knows what I am.”

“What do you mean, he knows what you are?”

“Ivan, I'm not just like any other wolf, I'm different.”

“Different how Lily are you ok.”

I am surprised, as I look into Ivan's eyes. I can tell that he really has no clue what I am talking about. “Ivan, I am a healer wolf.”

“A healer wolf, what is that?”

“We don't have time for me to explain we need to talk with Dean now.”

I can't waste any more time and I head to the exit of the restaurant. As I'm walking out the door, I can sense Ivan is just behind me. I see the car that brought us here, and I go to get in as Ivan cuts in front of me and opens the door for me to get in the car.

“Lilly, I believe you, and I would like to help you in any kind of way that I can.”

I just want to kiss him. I'm happy that he believes me. Not that I cared if he didn't believe me. As I get into the car and scoot over to the window. A feeling I'm not used to overcoming, and I smile realizing I'm happy, but I don't dare let him see it.