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Life After the Storm novel Chapter 73

As I am looking around the room, I am surprised to see Landon by my bedside, holding my hand. What the fuck is this all that he has done? He thinks he can touch me. I pull my arm out from underneath him, I watch as he jumps awake. “Oh my God Lilly you're awake.”

He goes to hug me, but I shout out to him “don't you dare touch me.”

As I'm looking at him, I can see the disappointment on his face. I'm trying to ignore it. I am so sick and tired of everyone causing me pain. I am taking charge of myself and not allowing it to happen ever again. I feel bad that his mate betrayed him, but that is not my problem. My issue right now is protecting Jayden and taking over the werewolves oh and finding out who killed my family, so I can make them suffer for what did.

“Lilly, please, I'm sorry for all that has happened. I know that it will take a lot for you to forgive me, but please find it in your heart.”

“Are you fucking kidding me, Landon? You think that you deserve my forgiveness? I don't owe you anything. Forgiving you is like me saying everything that you did to me was ok. You used me by making me love you. You are just like your mate.”

“Lilly, I know what I did was wrong, but you don't need to bring my mate into this. She's dead, and she can't defend herself.”

I want to tell him the truth about his mate. I want to hurt him, but I can't. I want to be heartless, but it's not me. I struggle because I still love him, but I won't dare let him see it. I will never let him hurt me again the way he did. I am tired of falling for all their tricks. I can't do this anymore.

I look at him. “How well do we know anybody in this world, Landon? I thought I knew you, but it turned out I was wrong about you. What is real and what isn't I'm not even sure if I know anymore.”

“Lilly, I'm not asking you to forgive me today, not even next week. I just want a chance to earn your forgiveness. I promise you from this day on I will never betray you ever again.”

I can see the desperation in his face. I just want to put my arms around him and squeeze him as tight as I can. I am not a resentful person, but I want to be I'm so tired of getting hurt. I want to tell him that everything would be OK, that we will work this out. I can't this time. I don't want it to be so easy for him thinking that he can do whatever he wants, and I will just forgive him.

“Landon, I don't want to talk about us any longer. We have a lot more to worry about, don't you think?”

“Yes Lilly but my only concern is you.”

How could he say that his only concern is me when he fed me to the wolves, the devil himself? That makes me so angry my whole body turns hot. I want to scream on the top of my lungs. His words just shoot right through me and all I feel is anger. His concern is about me for giving him one. It should be about how we are going to save everyone.

“Landon, I'm not ready to forgive you. I don't know what you want me to say. I shall not be your concern. I don't need you. I can take care of myself. Right now, our concern should only be for those that will need us the most. Instead of them coming after us, we are going to go after them and take over the werewolves.”

“Wait what Lilly we should not go after them, they are too strong of a. pack they will kill all of us.”

“Landon, we have no other choice. If we do not try to defeat them, we will never be free, and eventually, they will capture us and take what they want.”

“You don't know that we need to protect ourselves and just keep running. They will never find us then.”

“Quit being a coward. We need to save everybody, not just. Ourselves, you are selfish wolf that only cares about himself.”

“Lilly, how dare.”

I cut him off before he even finishes his sentence. I'm so angry at him, I shout “How dare I what I'm so sick and tired of you."?

“Lilly, I'm your Alpha. You need to respect. “

“You are nothing to me. I am my own Alpha.”

“Lilly please, we can't endanger Jayden.”

He knows that Jayden is my weakness. I don't want to endanger Jayden. I want to save him. A life of running isn't going to save him, it's Going to make him grow tired. I don't know why Landon has to be in control all the time. I don't want to disobey my alpha, but I have no choice. If he is not going to do what needs to be done then I Will step up and do what is necessary.

“Landon, all I think about is Jayden. This is not going to be the life that he deserves to live. He deserves to be free and to make his own choices about what he wants. I know that you're scared to fail, but we need to fight back. An enough is enough. All that has been done to us needs to come to an end they will never stop until they capture us. What will happen when they do, and we are defenseless and have no way of escaping.”

“I am an alpha. I am not scared of anything. This isn't your choice to make Lilly. He is my son. I will protect him. You are not his mother.”

“You will not be able to hide forever, Landon. They will find you. What happens when they take Jaden as well. We need to fight back before it's too late.”

“How are we going to fight back nobody will go up against them? Everyone is afraid of his pack. He has taken out more packs than any other pack has.”

“Don't you think it's time that we start protecting our own kind before there aren't any of us left.”

I can tell that my words are getting through to him by the confusion in his eyes. He doesn't want anyone to realize that he is afraid. I know there is always that chance of failing, but I feel it in my bones that this is what needs to be done. That I will defeat them and run the wolves.

“Lilly, we don't have the resources to protect all those that need are protection.”

“Landon, then we find the resources we can't just continue to run. We will not be living, we will be hiding.”

I then hear a female voice that I heard before. “She is right Landon and I know that it is scary, but there isn't any other choice. We either fight or we hide, but eventually, they will find us and take what they want. There are so many others that have suffered it is time that someone fights back.”

“Mother, you know this is a suicide mission. There is no defeating them.”

“Oh Landon, you don't even know your own power, my sweet boy. You will be able to defeat them once you are trained.”

“Landon, don't you see it is time that we fight back and protect Everyone we can do this.”

“Lilly, there's only two of us. How are we going to be able to do this?”

“I don't know, but how are we supposed to know anything if we don't try. We need to try, so Jayden will be able to live a life that he deserves.”

“Fine, I hope you two are right about this that we will win the fight.”

“There is no doubt in my mind we will win.”

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