Life After the Storm novel Chapter 80

Uncertain what to do with Jayden missing, it's like a piece of me went with him. I have been searching for him, but I haven't found any trace of him. I haven't fault anything either which I'm glad that he at least he isn't being tortured. I don't know what else to do but search for him. I don't want to give up but everywhere I go it just leads to a dead end.

With the disappearance of Jayden the memorial never happened and no one was named Alpha. They want to do the memorial along with naming the Alpha. I don't want to go but now that I'm a part of this pack it's my duty. I just don't know if I'm going to really be any kind of good company. I can't stand even being around people right now.

I know that Jayden's disappearance isn't my fault, but I just feel that if I just showed him more attention and been there for him that this wouldn't have happened. I have been so consumed with myself that I have forgotten about him. I hate myself for not paying more attention to him, I wish I could go back and change it, but it's too late.

Landon and I have been searching for him day and night taking turns when one of us sleeps while the other is out searching for him. We haven't stopped looking for him even though there are no leads on where he is. We will not stop until we find him. Landon is supposed to be back for the pack meeting. He promised his mother that he will be here, so I know he will show.

Things have just been hard and there is no way to fix it unless we find Jayden. I don't want to say it's impossible to find him, but it feels like it is. I don't know what else to do. I am so scared that we're never going to see him again. I just don't know how he would disappear without a trace.

I then hear a voice are you really that stupid. Confused as I looked around there's no one there then I realized its star. "Why would you say such a thing? You are my wolf."

"Did you ever realize, maybe what you are seeking for what is right in front of your face, that there had been someone in the pack that was involved? He couldn't just disappear without a trace by himself. Someone saw something, but they're not saying probably because they are the spy of the pack."

Damn it how could I have been so stupid I forgot about spies of this pack God. All I've been wanting to do is find him. I didn't even investigate the pack to see If anyone had information I thought they would just come forward. " Thank you star for helping me see what I missed. My question for you is why do you keep leaving me."

"You left my mate to die you did not protect him you just left him to be tortured by others."

I become angry and surprised that she's taking our mates side after all the Times that he hurt us. She is siding with a monster." Star he was a monster he hurt us I had to save Jayden he's what is important."

"Really Lily he is what's important is that why he is lost? Our mate Was drugged. That is why he acted the way he did. He wasn't acting like who he truly is But now we will just never know because you left him to die."

"Star what choice did I have? He was injured and I didn't have time to wait for him."

She quit talking back to me which makes me angry she's my wolf she is supposed to see my side. I don't think she really cares what I have to say. She wants her mate and that's it. After all the pain that Ivan has caused I don't know if I can just forget about all of it. It might not have been him that did it but it's his face that haunts my dreams.

I get up to look out the window. I see that the sun is going to be coming up and that Landon should be here anytime. They will be naming him Alpha at sunrise. It's tradition to name the new Alpha of the pack at sunrise when it's a new alpha. It's like a new beginning. It's quite a beautiful ceremony. Even though it's really not going to be the same without Jayden here.

As I started getting ready I slipped into A dress that's not too fancy but not too casual just perfect for the occasion. You should look decent to go, but I don't want to overdress. I'm not too much into doing my hair, so I just grab a ponytail and brush it up and put the ponytail in my hair to keep it out of my face. I was never much for makeup. I didn't really like it always made my face feel heavy. My mom always told me I was a natural beauty that I didn't need it anyhow but aren't all mothers supposed to say that to their daughters.

I wait for Landon to come to my cabin, so we can go to the ceremony. But he never shows I hear the horns that it's getting ready to start. I grabbed my shoes, put them on, and I go out the door. As I'm running my heels are getting stuck in the ground, so I take them off and begin to run without shoes. I would be lying if I say that I didn't enjoy the mud going in between my toes. It's such a crazy feeling, but I like it.

I stayed in the back of the crowd not wanting to cause commotion. Since I'm just arriving I lost track of time I guess waiting on Landon. As they name each person that has lost their lives in the battle. The memorial is beautiful, there are laughs and their cries. Most of those that were injured are here they're fully healed. I can see the anger in some of their eyes over the loved ones that they have lost. Not really knowing how to show them comfort I just stay silent.

I watch as Landon's mother walks up on stage. She is so beautiful. "Hello my fellow werewolves we are here to not just remember those that we have lost but to name a new leader of this pack an alpha that will Protect and serve they're werewolf community with fairness and love. This decision did not come easy, but it is the decision that us, the elderly of the pack, came up with the decision that is best for all of us. Those that disagree are those that do not belong."

The crowd becomes quiet. I look to find Landon, but he is not here. Everyone waits to hear who our new leader is and that's when all of a sudden I hear my name.

"Your new Leader and Alpha of the pack is Lillian Caterina Smith."

I stopped dead in my tracks. I turned around and looked at the stage as everyone was turning around looking at me, I am shocked did I hear this right Am I the new alpha they named me their leader.