Love Aint Always Pretty novel Chapter 75

Unrequited Love

- a love or feeling that is not reciprocated or returned back

75

That night, I found myself sitting inside a bar all by myself with another glass of whisky on my hand, contemplating about how life has been really unfair to me. Totally ridiculously unfair to me.

I mean I tried to please my parents, all the freaking time. I tried to make them even more proud of me by accomplishing everything they wanted but I guess they're the ones ruining it. They're ruining the life I want to have so much. The kind of life that I see Nick in it. The life I only want Nick to be in it cos it's what I want. It's him who I want the most.

"Another glass please." I slurred my words as I said to the bartender.

"Coming right up." He says right away.

I stared at my empty glass and just want to throw it against the wall and just smash it as hard as I can. Sometimes I just wish my mom and dad weren't as huge as they are because of their fame and power gets out of control all he time. I need to pass all the high expectations they have in me and the people have in me. Sometimes I worry about my little sister cos she's just too young for all of this and I could feel the weight on her shoulder already. I was just like her when everything started.

"I knew I'd find you here."

I turned my head around and it was Damon. God knows how he found me. I smiled at him as I kiss his cheek briefly while he sits right next to me. The bartender handed me my drink and Damon ordered one for himself too. Now Damon wasn't really a bad boyfriend, he was amazing and fun and very loving. Of course I love him, I've learned to love him after a year of being together but it's not the same with Nick. I always end up comparing everything between the two of them. It's different with Damon. I love Damon but not fully.

"If your brother didn't tell me you were outraging today, I wouldn't know where to find you." He says while he wraps his arm around my waist.

"Am I bad person Damon?" I asked him.

He laughs softly and kissed my temple. "You're not babe. Who says you are?"

"Me. I think I am a bad person. Life is torturing me."

"You're not. You're just having a bad day that's all." He rubs my shoulder.

"I think you mean to say I'm having a bad life." I snorted.

"Oh babe."

I just hugged onto Damon and he holds me closer. "You want me to drive you home now? You smell too much liquor. Your eyes are sloppy." He says jokingly while he kissed my eyes.

I giggled.

The thing I loved about Damon is that even though he looks so mysteriously strict on the outside but he just can't fail to make me smile and make me happy. He always cheers me up and is always there when something is wrong. I've been holding onto him for quite a while now and still I couldn't kill the love I have for Nick. I know I sort of used Damon at the beginning but it's no use. Even though I found another love, Nick is still alive in my heart.

"I wanna sleep in your apartment." I say.

"You still have work tomorrow."

I smile. "I don't want to show up."

"Why?"

I sigh. "Can you take me somewhere else? I feel like I wanna have a vacation."

His brows creasing.

"Oh don't look at me like that." I run my finger on between his brows.

"Where?"

"You'll take a leave at work for me tomorrow?" I asked.

He nods. "Anything for you."

I smile. "I wanna go somewhere far away."

"But first tell me why you're acting like this? Is there something wrong?"

I looked at Damon and how I pity him because he doesn't have a single clue on what is going on with me. My mind is confused about the facts that Nick's marriage to Dakota is fake and how he still wants me, how my dad treated him before and how am I gonna get away from this relationship I have with this amazing guy called Damon because I still want to be with Nick. He's too nice and I don't want to break him.

"You can always tell me Savannah. You know you can trust me." He says.

I sigh.

"I just wanna go home now Damon. We'll talk tomorrow." I tell him.

He helps me in standing and I didn't know how drunk I was already if I didn't move from where I was sitting down. My eyesight is blurry as hell.

"Are we still on for the vacation tomorrow?" He asked.

"Nah, I wouldn't want you to get fired cos of me. Let me just sleep in your place."

•••••

The following morning I woke up with a massive headache. I found myself on top of Damon's bed and I was wearing his oversized jacket. His apartment was insanely huge, even though he keeps forcing me to move in with him, I know I wasn't ready for that just yet. It's too early for me and him. If we move in together then we'll have sex all the time then I'll get pregnant if we do that.

My head was bombarded by pangs of pain and my hair was just everywhere around my face. I pulled myself up from the bed and watch as the clock says to me that it was already ten in the morning. I grabbed the small piece of note that Damon left on the side table drawer next to his bed.

Dear,

Good morning! I left early for work. Didn't want to wake you up. Please take these medicine and don't forget to eat. I love you.

P.S if you're still thinking about that vacation you were talking about last night, we can book a flight to Bahamas tomorrow if you want.

Take care.

Damon. x

I smiled at the cute and simply thoughtful thing that he just did. See why I fell in love with him? It's the little things he does that Nick never ever did these things for me before and I find it really cute every time Damon do stuff like this.

I grabbed the medicine and drank it up. I slipped myself out from the bed and walked around Damon's penthouse. I headed to his kitchen and poured myself a glass of juice. He knows I don't know how to cook but he made sure he left the numbers of my favorite restaurants in New York on top of his dining table.

When my delivery has arrived, I sat on my chair and while I was eating, I was thinking again about how my life turned out when Nick left me. I lived and survived though I was terribly in battle of missing him and not missing him cos I was mad that he left me out of the blue.

But the fact that I met a nice guy like Damon and how Nick wanted me to find a stable guy that loves me, is all coming true. But why am I still going back to him? Sometimes I blame myself for loving Nick too much, it's always complicated when it's with him. I loved him too much that I didn't leave a little for myself. I gave him everything I had to give and I regret it.

Later that day, Damon finally arrived back to his pad around five fifteen and we were just lounging on his couch. Damon was lying his head down on my lap while I was massaging his temples.

"Had a long day at work?" I asked.

He nods. "Nine-hour meeting. Have you thought about the vacation?"

I smiled.

"Bahamas is lovely." I say.

Damon pulled himself up and looked at me while he pushes my hair behind my ear. "I've called the airport and they're just waiting for me to confirm."

I paused and looked at my boyfriend. He's handsome but he's not Nick.

"You wanna go?" I asked.

"If you want to then let's go."

I smiled at him and moved closer to kiss his lips briefly. "Let's go." I say.

"Anything for you honey."

•••••

"Savannah!"

I turned my head to face Damon while he was wearing a dark blue board shorts with his aviator sunglasses covering his eyes. I walked closer to my boyfriend who has been catching other women's attention. I wrapped my arms around his waist while he pulls me closer to his body.

"We're here to relax. Stop looking so far ahead." He pushes my hair off my face.

"Thank you Damon. Thank you for bringing me here."

"You don't need to thank me hon."

He slightly releases me but our hands were still holding onto each other.

"And you look very sexy with this bikini." He grins while biting his lip.

"Oh please Damon. If you're only saying that to get laid tonight, it's not working." I joked.

"Oh. Really now?" He arched an eyebrow at me.

"Yes. I'm serious." I started moving away from him.

"Come here." He demands.

"No way." I ran away from Damon and he chases me.

Both of us were running around the shore as if we were teens. We didn't really mind the other people who were looking at us. But all I'm thinking is that I'm having a good time with Damon and at least Im not thinking about Nick or what my father has done.

Damon grabbed my waist and pulled me in close to him. He kept kissing my neck and I was on his arms giggling. He turns me around to face him and both of us were smiling at each other. I placed my arms around his neck while my breasts were pressed against his chest. He kissed my forehead.

"I love you." he says to me.

I still love Nick.

"I love you." I tell him.

He smiles and pulls me in close. "I have a surprise for you tonight."

My brows creasing as I try to figure out what he's surprise is gonna be. "Let me guess, you're going to be taking me to a place where it's only you and me for dinner."

"Maybe, but better."

"Better? There's something than dinner and foods?"

He chuckles and just hugs me.

Later that night, I was finishing on combing my curls as I take a look at myself on the mirror in front of me. I put on a small amount of lipstick to color my lips. I hurriedly fixed my bathrobe that was wrapped around my body when I heard the doorbell rang. It's probably Damon now. I rushed to the door and opened it, but to my surprise it was a hotel boy with a huge white box on his hand.

"Miss Savannah Canterbury?" He asked.

"Yes. That's me."

"A package from Mr. Damon. There's also a small letter inside the box, he said you need to read it. He'll be seeing you in a while."

I accepted the box and smiled at the hotel boy before closing the door. I rushed to my bed, putting down the white box on top of our bedsheets. I quickly opened it and found a lovely dress. I smiled as I bite my lower lip. I hurriedly grabbed the small letter.

To my lovely woman,

A car will be waiting for you right outside the hotel to pick you up. I'm looking forward to seeing you on this dress tonight. I'll be waiting honey.

Damon.

I grabbed what was inside the box and changed to it. I grabbed my perfume and sprayed it all over me. I fixed my blush-on and run my fingers through the ends of my hair. I stare at my own reflection, wearing this peach colored top cut low beach dress that Damon bought for me, I've realized that I've really grown older and wiser on the decisions that I've made in the last years. I've made decisions with Damon and not with Nick. I stare at myself longer, I lived without Nick. I lived when he left me.

You found out the truth Savannah, what are you gonna do now?

I sigh heavily.

I bent my head down and stared at my feet, barefoot. I think for a little while with the entire room wickedly silent. I pulled my head back up and stared myself at the mirror.

"Stop hurting Damon with a lie, Savannah." I tell myself.

I grabbed my flats and put it on my feet. I grabbed my small purse and walked out of my room. As soon as I saw a white limousine parked right in front of the hotel, the driver in a black suit opened the backseat door for me. I think he knows who I am. I climbed inside and we hurriedly drive off.

As the ride goes for about ten minutes more, I stare at everything that this limousine passes by. I continue thinking about Damon and Nick. How am I gonna end it with Damon when I can't even think of a reason to break up with him. He's been nothing but nice to me. He showed me love after Nick left me but why am I still going back to him?

The car finally came to a stop and driver opened the door for me. I was lead by a waiter inside this marvelous building. Finally, I reached a beautiful spacious garden filled with bushes and wonderful flowers around us. I found Damon at the center of the garden, next to a well-set and well-presented table, with a bouquet of huge American red roses. There was a pianist on stage and a singer that was singing along, I smiled at him.

As I take a longer look at Damon, I can't help but think that I'm breaking up with him tonight on this kind of thing he's doing for me. It's one of the sweetest thing he did for me. He smiled at me so handsomely, wearing a white polo shirt and cream colored pants with a white leather shoes on his feet. He extended the bouquet to me and I quickly accepted it.

"Oh Damon." I gushed.

He smiles. "You look lovely, honey."

I smiled. I could feel tears building behind my eyelids but I blink it away. I feel crying cos I pity him over this thing that I'm gonna do tonight. Damon pulled a chair for me and I sat down. He sits right across me and the waiters started putting foods on our table. It were all my favorite dish.

We talked for a while and I asked him what was the occasion tonight, he just said he wants this night to be special for me. We talked about a few other things took but I just remained quiet and I didn't eat a lot from the dishes he ordered for us, even though it were all my favorites.

"Savannah." He reached for my hand and holds it.

I pulled my head up to him and stared at Damon intently.

"Wanna dance?" He asked.

I nod.

He leads me to the center of the dance floor and we started moving to the sound of Wonderful Tonight. My face was close to his as I feel him kissing the tip of my nose while we kept swaying. I stare at his eyes and I could see how much he loves me but I just couldn't give him the kind of love he can offer to me and he's willing to offer to me.

"I'm so lucky to have you. I mean look at you, what a beauty." He says.

I smiled.

"You're the woman I see sharing my future with. You're the woman I see having my kids with. You're the woman I see getting old with." He adds.

You're not that man for me, Damon.

Suddenly, he came to a stop and pulled out something from his back pocket. He knelt down before me all of a sudden and I stood still as if my world came to a stop. He opened the small red box on his hand with a huge diamond ring in it. My jaws dropped and didn't expect that he would do this right now. Right here.

"Will you marry me Savannah?" He says as he looks up to me.

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SFTC:

Untold - Daniel Gidlund