Love Aint Always Pretty novel Chapter 82

Solivagant

- wandering alone

82

England

Coming to England and living in England wasn't really what I had plan in life. Yes, I wanted to come here, a visit or two maybe but spending a life here isn't what I had in mind. I didn't want to just be a household wife. I wanted to work for my own and earn my own living but Damon doesn't allow me to. I want to receive money so at least I can save up when me and Damon are going to have a divorce in a future's time. Though I'm sure he doesn't want it but I know it'll happen someday.

The fact that he doesn't want me to work anymore cos he wants to show me that he can give me everything I want and he doesn't want to stress me out cos of the baby and our future babies isn't right for my part at all. My mom told me that the husband doesn't need to be the knelt one who's working.

Though it's true that Damon is the one managing their new company expansion here in England and he receives even bigger amount of salary, Im still bugged about why he doesn't want me to work. Maybe because he wants to secure me that I'm not seeing any other guy while I'm at work. I know how jealousy Damon can be at times, yeah he has his days.

Honestly we haven't talked about naming the baby yet. He's so busy with his paperworks and when he comes home, it's either late, I'm already asleep or he's drunk as hell. I don't really ask about it though Damon doesn't really drink much but when we got here in England, he has been such a drinker.

Since he partly grew up here in England, he had some good old friends who were drinkers, as he says, and they'd get together when they have time. But he makes sure that there's no women on their table to make sure I won't feel jealous. Oh Damon, go and have fun. I won't mind it anyways.

As for me, I either go shopping for some clothes or some baby stuff if I'm bored at home. The mansion is too huge for just the two of us. My driver who's personally hired by Damon, Mr. John, is a fifty year old divorced man. He talks about his lost first love and how he's still hoping they would be together. I like him, cos we sort of have the same love story. The part where he's still hoping they'd end up together, I know he knows how it feels what I feel right now. I'm most definitely sure.

So far my five-month stay here in London is pure of lavish. I get to have what I want cos Damon gives it to me. When I'm bored he tells my driver and the maids to come with me for shopping. It's like he's guarding me all the time which is really pathetic.

I stare at myself standing in front of the mirror wearing a yellow preggy dress while my bump is showing as I stand on my right. I place my hand over my bump and started rubbing it gently.

"Oh! You kicked." I giggled as I keep on rubbing my bump.

Whenever my baby girl kicks, I get even more excited to see her personally, to carry her on my arms, to kiss her and give her hugs and to just play with her. My baby girl, I wonder who she's going to look like. Of course, I'm sure she's going to be similarly the same with her father. Nick Wilde. Or maybe have my blond hair and my nose, lips or maybe Nick's winter blue eyes.

Though I can't tell Damon about the fact that Nick is the father to this child yet, at least I've already confirmed it who's the father. It had to be Nick's.

"Where do you want to go today Mrs. Patricks?" Mr. John asked me as he opens the back door of the car.

"The usual Mr. John." I say.

The second we arrived at the mall, I walked my way to my favorite coffee shop, I have been coming here every single morning for their hot white milk drink sprinkled with chocolate and mallows on top. I sat down on the table all alone while Mr. John was busy parking the car.

"Angel?"

I quickly pulled my head up when I heard that voice. I turned my head around to find Aries coming to my table. He smiled and I quickly pulled myself up to hug him. He wrapped my arms around me and kissed my cheek.

"I feel your tummy." he laughs.

I joined him laughing and we pulled ourselves away from each other.

"Look at you angel, still a beauty. Damn that guy, he's so lucky to marry you." He says to me.

"And you're still a Casanova. Such a smooth talker."

"A Casanova who never made you fall in love with me. Sometimes I wonder why you're not like those girls that I have dated who are crazy about me."

I smiled. "You know I love you right?"

He nods.

"I don't wanna lose such great friend Aries. You've been there for me all these years and that means a lot more than anything." I added.

He holds my hand with a huge smile on his face. He gently kissed my cheek and squeezed my hand. "You know I'm always here for you."

I smiled.

"I really missed you angel." He says.

"I know you did." I smirked.

Both of us sat down and he takes a good look at my stomach. "Wow." He compliments me while taking a look at it. "Damon's?" He asked.

I took a deep breath in. He just stared at me and we grew quiet.

"Nick's?" He arched an eyebrow.

I pressed my lips together and both of us went silent again.

"You don't gotta answer that. I think I know who's the father." He says.

My brows creasing.

"That's gotta be me. Isn't it?" He joked and I laughed softly.

"You're still silly."

He smirked. "Wonder why you didn't fall for me. We could've been happy now. Married and have two kids."

I bursted into a laughter. "I doubt that Aries. You're such a womanizer. We might have been married now and I'm sure you're already busy with your other women."

He laughs softly with his head pulled back. "Oh angel. You don't trust me. I'm loyal to you."

"I do trust you. That's why you're one of my good friends."

He puts his hand over his heart and shuts his eyes. "Friendzone."

I smiled.

"What are you doing here in England? I didn't know you're here." He takes a sip from his black coffee.

"We... moved here." I say.

Aries' eyes dilated. "Moved? For good?"

I nod. "Damon wanted to live here since his work's in England."

He nods vaguely.

The waiter finally served my drink and both of us decided to take a walk around the mall. He puts his hands inside his pockets and seeing Aries without a baseball cap on us unusual. I mean, when we were in college he used to wear one a lot of times. I mean like most of the times.

"Angel?" He calls out.

"Yeah?"

"Are you happy?"

I stared at him. "What do you mean?"

"With Damon. Are you happy with Damon? And I'm sure that was his idea of moving here." He asked specifically.

I bite my lip hand stared at the drink on my hand.

"Yeah." I say.

I took a deep breath in. "I'm happy."

"You don't sound like it." He hooks his arm around me.

I smiled at him while we continued walking together while his arm was still around me. I don't really mind Aries being touchy to me or being sweet because he's been incredibly nice to me. Though he doesn't know about what happened to me and Nick in the past, a part of me still adores Aries.

"Aries, please. I'm happy with what I have with Damon. I'm happy with my life now. I'm having a baby." I tell him.

"But that's Nick's. Not Damon's."

I sigh. "Stop saying something which isn't true." I lied.

"Angel, I know when you're lying." He pinched the tip of my nose.

"You know you can always tell me anything or what's bugging you. I'm only here in England for a vacation and we'll be far away from each other again so if you want to tell someone something, I'm here." He adds.

I smiled. "Thank you Aries."

We continued walking again while his arm was still holding onto me with his other hand on the pocket of his jeans. My brows furrowing at the thought of him being alone. "Where's your girlfriend by the way?" I asked.

"Just got off a relationship five months ago."

He smiles at me and I bursted into laughter. "You seriously cannot stay in one serious relationship, can you?" I tell him.

"Well, she was no good for me."

I chuckle. "Wow. That's something."

The day went by with Aries' help on picking some clothes for me. He really knows what women wants and what women likes. I was impressed that he chooses nice dresses to my liking. We talked about a lot of other stuff that has happened lately between my life, his life and the I her people we know. I just even recently found out that he was promoted that's why he's on a vacation leave here in London. Talk about the frat boy genius, now a successful man.

While we were having dinner together at this fine restaurant, I dropped my shopping bags at my service and told Mr. John to drive it directly at home. I sat on this chair right across Aries while he talks to me about his bloopers on his first day at work and he would laugh so loud when I was the one to share my own experience too.

"Oh angel, I miss this." He takes a quick drink from his wine. "I mean us talking non-stop."

I nod. "Remember on that apartment where you took me, we got so drunk and sang our hearts out to some Avril Lavigne's on the rooftop?" I smiled at the thought of it. "That was cool."

"Yeah. T'was, wasn't it? Kinda miss it though." He answers. "We're too busy now, looks like all of us don't have time for some get together."

"Speaking of get together..." I snapped.

"Do you have any news about Tracy?" I asked. "I haven't seen her for so long now. She's not opening her Facebook for almost two months. I'm worried."

"We all know Tracy is a strong woman. Though she's losing massive weight."

"So you don't know yet?" I asked.

His brows furrowing. "Know what?"

"Tracy got diagnosed with throat cancer years ago. That's the reason of her sudden weight loss."

Aries' jaws dropped. "You're fucking with me."

"I'm dead serious Aries. She's already fine. She had surgery. She's cancer-free. But you still can't stop me on not worrying about Tracy. I haven't seen her. I haven't heard any news about her. I tried to reach Clyde but he seldom texts me."

"Ask Nick." He snapped.

I sigh hearing his name. "He's busy."

"He's always got time for you."

I shake my head. "He's always gone." I speak softly.

Aries holds my hand. "Look. I'll try to ask Nick about Tracy. I'll call you right away when I get some information from that douche."

I smiled weakly at him when he called Nick douche. "We should visit her."

"Yah. We should. A get-together sounds nice too." He says.

Get together. The sound of it cringes me because that means Nick is going to be there.

After having dinner together, Aries drove me home safely and I was happy Damon was still not around because he'll be interrogating me things about Aries again. I'm sure he'll be coming home late as usual. Though I've noticed a little changes about Damon's behavior towards me and how late he comes home usually, I didn't bother about it anymore. I don't really care at all. Sometimes he locks himself up in his office when he's at home and he reasons that he's finishing some paper works, sometimes he's cold to me too and most of the time he's not around so I'm always going out shopping.

As I put my night dress on myself, I'm still bothered about Tracy and how she is doing now. I hope she has gained weight. I hope she's married Clyde too. Now that I think about it, I seriously miss our circle of friends. Hate to say it but I miss Penny too, as weird as it sounds.

Suddenly the door slams open as I flinch and looked behind me.

"Jesus Christ Damon!" I exclaimed.

He walks inside the room drunkly and I'm sure as hell he doesn't see clearly where he is going. He's not walking straight. He slightly bumps to the table drawer then the chair before finally standing right in front of me. He smells liquor and I know he's really drunk cos his eyes are red as hell.

"Look at you." I say.

He laughs. "Oh come on. Don't tell me you're going to be some common housewife who whines about her husband coming home late and drunk."

"I have the right to do that because I'm your wife. Where were you? Why are you so drunk?"

"Why do you care Savannah? All you care about is your shopping day and meeting men at the mall. Walking around with his arm around you."

My eyes widened. "Damon that was Aries. He's a friend. You know who he is. You don't have to get jealous about that. There's nothing to get jealous of."

"Oh yah? Spending the entire day together?! Fucking seriously Savannah?!"

"You're being ridiculous right now. You're just drunk. I'll talk to you tomorrow when you get to your senses." I walked to the side of my bed but then he quickly grabbed the back of my arm and pulled me so strongly.

"Don't you fucking go anywhere. I'm not done talking to you!" He yelled at my face.

I tried to pull myself away from him because he is scaring me. My heart is pounding hard while he gives me his icy gaze. This is the first time I see Damon being like this. He's so mad that he saw me at the mall with Aries. But I don't get it why he's so jealous of it. He knows it's normal between me and Aries and he was okay with it before but why is it a big deal now?

"If you're mad that I accidentally saw Aries at the mall today, then I'm sorry. You should've come closer to join us and not become a jealous pathetic man as you are now." I say.

"Let go of me Damon. I'm going to bed." I spit.

"You're going to sleep? And then what? Wake up tomorrow and meet with your men?!" He raised his voice at me.

"I said let go of me!"

He quickly grabbed both of my cheeks with his huge hand and pulled my face closer to his face. "I fucking brought you along with me here in England so I could have you all to myself! But no. You flirt with so many men and I don't know how many more you have!"

I push him hard against his chest but he's holding a grip tighter on my cheek and the other on my left arm.

"Are you really being serious right now Damon?! I don't know what's going on with you and what's going on inside that head of yours. You're changing every single day. And right now you're being stupid about what you're thinking. God!"

I strongly pulled myself away from him and when I got away from his tight grip, he grabbed my arm once more but tighter and then all of a sudden he slapped me so hard on my face. The sound of his huge palm hitting my cheek echoed through the silence of our room and my jaws dropped in disbelief of what he just did. Damon slapped me. The most nice man I know just slapped me hard on my face.

Suddenly his grip loosens as my tears gather in my eyes. I slowly moved my head to him and he looked sorry of what he has done. "Savannah.."

I pushed him away, grabbed my phone that was on top of the table and run out of the room. He chases me but I was quick enough to lock myself up on the other room that was across ours. I leaned my back against the wall as I hear Damon knocking loudly.

"Savannah please. Open the door." He twists the locked doorknob.

"I'm sorry for what I did. Please come out." He knocks even louder.

"Leave me alone Damon! Just leave me alone!" I yelled, not caring about the maids that would hear us.

I quickly grabbed my phone with my tears blurring my sight. I scanned through my phonebook and searched for Aries. I quickly pulled my phone close to my ears as my tears starts falling on my cheeks. Aries finally picked it up.

"Hello? Aries... I just...." I sobbed as I try to stop myself from crying. "I don't know who to call anymore..." I cried out as my voice shakes.

"You dialed the wrong number Savannah... This is Nick."

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