Love Aint Always Pretty novel Chapter 91

Brotherhood

- feelings of friendship, support, and understanding between people

91

NICK'S POV

Dear Savannah,

Hey! How are you? I have been wondering how you've been since it's been roughly five years I haven't talked and seen you. As for me, I was busy taking care of Tracy at the hospital lately. She's been getting her meds and chemo. But don't worry, I still have time to write you a letter though and I promised myself to write you until I see you again. I just hope you're not getting tired of receiving all of my letters.

A few weeks from now you're turning twenty-seven. Every time I think about me being thirty-three, and how older I am from you, it just disgusts me of my age. I am really indeed too old for you. But we all know older guys are hotter. Haha ;) My wish for you, if ever I won't see you on your birthday cos I know you won't, is all the best for your future, with or without me. I know you could make it through wherever you go. I wish that I could finally spend your birthday with you again. A man can dream.

I have so many things to say to you that I wanna tell you personally but I can't cos you're faraway from me.

Every single day, I try to chase you, I try so hard to win you back, I try to ask my people to look for you, but why are you the one pulling yourself away from me? Why are you hiding from me? Are you sick and tired of everything I've done to you? If you are then tell me. I would rather hear you telling me the truth than wait for nothing. I love you so much and whenever I think about the things I've done I know I deserve this kind of pain I am going through. I just wish you're not hurting as bad as I am.

"Daddy!"

I pulled my head up and saw Dani running inside my office. I didn't know she'll be coming here tonight, I thought she was coming over tomorrow morning. She smiled her huge happy smile and then threw herself at me when she was close enough to my range. I briefly rubbed her back.

I smiled. "Hello baby."

She pulls herself away, "I missed you dad! Mommy misses you too."

"I missed you baby. Are you sleeping over here at daddy's tonight?"

"Yes!" She snaps. "I couldn't wait to see you so I came as soon as my class was done." She adds.

"Good thing I've prepared your favorite room for you. Now go tell Mrs. Matilda you're here. Have you eaten dinner?"

"Yes daddy. I did. Have you?"

I nod. "Yes baby."

She scans through the things on top of my desk. "You're writing to aunt Savannah again." She says.

I smiled at her, "Do you think she will love this color of the paper Im writing on?" I asked.

She nods. "Definitely!"

I smiled. "Now go get change."

I watch as Dani exits the room while she screams out, "I saw ice cream inside the fridge!"

"Dani your mom's gonna kill me once she'll find out! No ice cream for tonight sweetheart!" I yelled back as she exits my office.

"Mommy won't know dad!" She suddenly pops her head out from the opened door. "Plus it's my favorite ice cream. I love you!"

She leaves happily. I quickly smiled at how annoying and spoiled she is, just like her mother. I rested my back on my chair and took a deep breath in. I was almost finishing this letter I'm writing to Savannah. Actually I have never been a fan of writing love letters because I'm not really good at it. I write to her probably about anything I could think of or how my days at work would be or where I am when I'm currently writing her my letter.

The first letter I wrote to her, I honestly had many scratches of paper. I wasn't good, I tell you. I would always end up having erasures then I'd write the whole letter again because I don't want any mistake on it so I took a lot of hours writing it. It was pretty tiring but it was the only way to talk to her. Even though I know I've broken up with Dakota two years ago, I kind of gotten used to sending her love letters and for some reason it is cute.

Sometimes I wonder how Savannah is and I always wonder if Damon would still hurt her. It still gets me furious when I think about it. It still gets me mad when I think about her bruises. I never told Aries about it because she begged me not to. I tried to keep it to myself because she begged me and that she believed Damon won't hurt her again. I just wish he's not. It would hurt me every time I worry of her every day whenever I think about it.

Ever since I divorced Dakota, everything that we signed from the contract, I got all of it. Wealth, power and the company. I got everything I had to get and well, I'm not that selfish, Dakota also has her share from the company. It's originally from her mother and I am not that evil.

She later on found someone else, who's name is Hugh, when we divorced. I was happy for her. It isn't her daughter's father, it's someone she met in Starbuck's. Dani still calls and treats me her father and Dakota is planning on telling her the truth when she's old enough. I've learned to love Dani. It's as if she's the gift from God replacing my baby from Catherine that I've lost in the past. I'm jealous about my friends, they're all married and now having their kids of their own but here I am, still waiting for Savannah because she's the only woman I wanna have babies with. Thirty-three isn't too old. I could still wait because I want to wait for her.

Is Dani already with you? -Dakota

Yes. She just got here now. -Nick

That's good. Hugh wants to say hi to you by the way. Take care of Dani for me while I'm away. I trust you. Thanks Nick! -Dakota

I put my phone down on the table and rested my back against my chair. I massage my temples and continued writing this love letter for Savannah.

The following morning, I sent Dani to her museum field trip before heading to the office and she's always so happy when I'm the one driving her to any school related activities. She always tell her friends like that's my daddy who drove me and her friends would look at me with amazement. Kids these days.

Later that day at work, after having this five-hour meeting with the board members, I went back inside my office and rested for a while. I had a long day and I'm already tired but it's only three in the afternoon. I sat down on my chair and stared at the view from the outside of my glass window.

Knock knock knock...

"Mr. Wilde?"

A male voice calls out from behind me but I didn't want to look at who.

"I told my secretary I don't want visitors coming into my office anymore." I say.

"Your secretary looks bangable by the way." He response.

I quickly turned my chair around when I noticed who it was. I know exactly who would say that when someone would visit me. It was Aries, no doubt who was standing near the door with a grin plastered on his face. I smiled back at him and starts walking closer. We hugged each other quickly and patted each other's back. I missed this fella even if I hated him for liking Savannah but despite that, there was no competition because he gave way to me all the time and I blame myself for taking advantage of it all. We haven't seen each other for almost three to four years. He doesn't even know about the letters I've been sending Savannah

"Didn't know you were such a strict boss." Aries grins.

I chuckle softly. "Just tired. What's up? What brings you here?"

"Well, I just got back from England."

England.

I look at him intently and he didn't budge about it. I wanted to ask him if he met up with Savannah or if he saw her. I wanted to ask her so bad.

"Too bad I didn't go to Melissa's fifth birthday. I missed it so I came by to catch up with the lovely ladies. I didn't have the time to go cos of work." He blurted.

"Are you really sure you're not the father to Melissa?" I asked seriously.

He grabs my shoulder. "Dude, how many times do I have to tell you that I didn't have sex with Savannah."

I felt relieve even though he already told me that a lot of times.

"I would love to but I couldn't cos I know she loves you and you love her. I'm not that evil. We're brothers. One brotherhood." he adds.

I nod with a smile and I'm sure he didn't. I would love to admit that I had sex with her the day before her wedding and I couldn't all months and years and it leads to that night but I can never be sure though Damon already told me it wasn't his. So that could possibly be mine? I haven't seen Melissa personally though. We can never be sure.

"You're thinking she's yours?" Aries asked out of the blue.

"I don't know. Savannah didn't tell me anything." I answered. "Do you know who's the father? It's been five years."

He grins. "She didn't tell me too."

Both of us got quiet for a second and suddenly Aries' phone rang. I moved my head to him while he pulls his phone out from his pocket. I watch him as he reads a text message and he smiles right at his screen. I'm sure it's one of his many women, Aries still hasn't changed. He quickly pulled his head up to me.

"What are you doing here in New York by the way?" I asked.

"Just coming around here. I was free today and I have a surprise for you."

My eyes widened a second. "Surprise? That's weird. You never give me surprises." I chuckle.

He grins. "Well this time I will. How about we have dinner together? Two old friends and brothers having dinner. How's that sound?"

My brows started furrowing as I look at him. "Disgusting. You're not becoming gay aren't you?"

Aries bursted out into laughter. "Nick come on I'm never gonna go gay. I love pussies. Come on man."

I laugh with him.

"I was just making sure. You're just acting all weird." I say with a smile, recovering from my laugh.

"I'm not. So, tonight. How's seven?"

I nod. "Great."

"Then I gotta go. Still need to run some errands." He says.

"Errands? Why don't you let your assistant do that for you?"

He laughs. "I'm not like you."

I smile. "I'm not like that either. It's just between us, you're the one who's more bossy."

He laughs again. "You're the one who doesn't want to entertain visitors a while ago."

I grin.

"Gotta go, man. See you later." He says and gave me a handshake.

"Later."

I watch as he leaves my office and walked back closer to my desk then sat down on my chair. I wasted my entire time sitting down and just staring at Savannah's photo on her Facebook account. She hasn't updated it that much and her last post was almost six years ago. Talk about being so inactive.

By five thirty, I drove to the museum to fetch Dani. I walked around for a while, taking a little tour myself. I haven't gone to any museums when I was a kid, because my father didn't go with me. As I kept strolling around, I found a little girl crying in a corner. Her hair was blondish-brownish like mine but wavy, she was as tall as Dani I think, she wore a white shirt and a pair of denim jeans matched with her white sneakers. She kept crying and as I look around, I think she's lost.

I walked my way to her but her eyes kept moving around the entire place searching. She could be looking for her mommy or her daddy. She looks up at me and I squat down in front of her.

"Hi there. Why are you crying?" I asked.

"I'm lost." She weeps.

"Who are you with? Are you looking for your mommy? Your daddy?"

"Mommy." She wipes her eyes filled with tears.

I looked around to check if someone has been looking for a lost daughter then I moved my head back to her.

"Don't be scared, okay? I'm here. I'll help you look for your mommy. What's your name?" I began to tame her down, I gently rub her hair flowing behind her back.

"Lissa."

I smile. "I'm Nick. It's nice to meet you."

"It's nice to meet you too. My dad's name is Nick as well."

I smiled at her cuteness, "So we have the same name?"

She slightly smiles.

"And I love your accent." I complimented, hoping it would at least feel her any better. "Are you British? You must have gotten it from your father." I tell her.

She shakes her head sideways. "No. I just grew up in England."

I nod.

"Daddy!" Dani calls out and runs to me.

She gave me a quick hug and pulled herself away as she gaze at Lissa.

"Who is she daddy?" Dani asked. "Why is she crying?"

"She's lost. She couldn't find her mommy. Dani this is Lissa. Lissa, this is Dani. She's my daughter." I introduced them to each other.

Dani smiled happily as she pulls her hand up and extended it to Lissa. "Hi."

Lissa begins to smile. "Hi."

I started wiping Lissa's tears.

"Don't cry. My daddy will help you find your mommy." Dani says.

Lissa's gloomy face lightened up, "Really? You will find her for me Mr. Nick, sir?"

I smiled. "Yes, how about we go to the museum's customer service to inform them you are lost? Shall we go?"

"Hold my hand so you won't be afraid. Don't worry my daddy is a very nice man. We will help you Lissa." Dani tells her.

"Thank you Dani." Lissa answers.

Dani offered Lissa a hand and I watch them as they hold each other tight. They looked really cute together and how Dani tried to tame Lissa down was just adorable. She talked to her and made her smile. The three of us started walking and I was holding Dani while we were on our way to the customer's service.

"She's lost Mr. Security Guard." Dani says.

"Me and my daddy wants to help her find her mommy. Could you go find her mommy for us? Pretty please?" Dani continues.

I smiled and just nodded in response when the museum employee stared at me. Suddenly my phone started ringing inside my pocket and it was Aries.

Wear something nice man. Don't forget it's our datenight tonight. Haha. -Aries

Dude are you flirting with me rn? You're disgusting. -Nick

Haha. I swear man, wear something nice. On my way! -Aries

Already? Too soon! Got something up. I'll be late. -Nick

Dude it's almost seven. Are you fucking with me? Be there on time. I mean it. -Aries

You're a worst date partner. I'm bringing Dani with me. On my way sir! -Nick

"Dani we need to go." I snapped.

"But dad. I don't want to leave Lissa alone. " She disagrees.

"We need to go. We still have somewhere else important to go to. Lissa you'll be safe here alright?" I asked her.

She nods. "Yes. I will be fine. Thank you for helping me Mr. Nick."

I smiled and cupped her cheek. "You are welcome. After they're asking for your name and a few more informations about you and your mommy, they'll be able to find your mommy for you."

She smiles happily and hugs me all of a sudden. I hear her giggle and her small arms were holding onto me tight. I felt a sudden rush in my vein, the same feeling when I held Melissa in my arms the day she was born. I smiled and hugged her back as well.

"Thank you." She pulls herself away from me.

"You're...." I look at her and realized that we have the same eye color. "You're welcome."

She smiles, goodness she looks a little bit like me when I was a kid. I realized.

I pulled myself up when the employee starts calling Lissa's attention and that was the call that we needed to go. "Say goodbye to her Dani." I say.

Dani hugs Lissa and Lissa hugs Dani. "Goodbye Lissa. I will see you again soon."

"I will see you again too." Lissa waves at her.

We began leaving her and headed out of the museum. I feel so comfortable being around with Lissa even just for a few while, it was weird.

"I like her daddy." Dani says as she puts on her seatbelt.

"Me too baby." I started driving.

"I wish we could've waited for her mommy. We could've get to know her better and we could've been best of friends. I really like her as a friend."

"We could but then your uncle Aries is hurrying me up."

"We're seeing uncle Aries? Yey!" She chimes.

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