Love is the Sunshine novel Chapter 73

She frequently went out with her friends and almost every one of them had slept with each other or with other people when they were in a relationship. Carla didn't feel comfortable hearing about those things.

A relationship relying on sex was not something she wanted. For her, it's simply not stable in the long run. She wanted her man to take her because of their love, not for something other than that.

Terence's blood calmed down a little bit when she started to get serious on the topic. He supported his head by his hand and smiled at her. Tenderly, he told her, "Carla, I have my full respect to your mother for she raised you in a very special way. Don't get me wrong. It's good. I do admit that there are jerks everywhere who play with women and dump them after they took advantage of them. However, you can't put all men in that category. Although sleeping with each other before marriage is a little bit risky, it's just another way of getting to know each other or expressing your love to the other person. There are also a lot of people out there who decided to get married before sharing a bed and then hated each other in the marriage because they weren't compatible in the bedroom. My point is, as long as love exists, having or not having sex shouldn't matter that much."

"Oh, really? Then how does someone know that their love is genuine? How can a woman be sure that a man isn't using words just to get into her pants?"

Carla looked directly into his eyes and threw the words at him.

It was true that she hadn't have any experience with men because she didn't want to. But all she needed to do was to look around at her friends and learn from their stories.

Most of them became blind with their relationship and did a lot of things simply because society deemed it normal. They accepted it naturally and not one of them ever questioned whether it was right or wrong.

Terence furrowed his eyebrows and gazed at her face. He knew that she had made up her mind not to do it until she was ready. But, he was a fighter who would never quit so easily.

He mumbled to her ear softly, "Carla, does that mean you won't allow me to touch you until we get married?

Even if I'm tormented and struggling every day with the desire of having you? You won't abandon your beliefs and stand solid with your virginity?"

Carla sat up from the bed and stared right into his eyes. She asked, "Do I have to sleep with you to be your girlfriend? If I won't let you touch me, does that make me any less of a person?"

Terence wanted to say yes because he was a man himself. And as a man of his age, if he had to let go of his desires, of course, he would choose to do it with his girlfriend over anyone else. Otherwise, what was the point of having a girlfriend anyway?

Just like the rest of his population, he had the same thoughts on the matter. As long as love was there, having sex wasn't a sin at all.

He hesitantly replied, "As a man, the social norms might not be so wrong or why would so many people follow it?"

Knowing that it was a waste of time to continue this conversation, Carla rolled over to the other side and jumped off the bed. She tried her best to contain her anger then spoke to the man with a suppressed voice, "If that's what you believe, you may leave now. I know you're a busy person, Mr. Terence. So, stop wasting your time on me!"

"Hey, calm down. Where are all of these anger coming from? It's something we must talk about," Terence tried to calm her down. Terence knew that she was contemplating whether his intentions were true or not. He grabbed onto her arms using a little strength and pulled her on his arm. Holding her close and tight, Terence mumbled, "Although I don't agree with you but I really want to thank your mom. She raised you up so well that you know how to protect yourself. I must say I'm a lucky guy because I get to have you all to myself."

Carla gave him a quick glance and smirked, "This is exactly what I'm talking about. Men always want to have sex with their girlfriends and also have a taste of all kinds of women. But eventually, when they're ready to get married, they want a virgin so that they can 'have the girl all to themselves'. Don't you think that's ironic? Since a lot of girls have already given their first nights to those men, what else is left for them?"

"Oh Carla, hush now. I don't know what should I tell you anymore," Terence gave her a bitter look. He pinched her gently on the waist and tried one last time, "Carla, if you don't want to sleep with me, what should I do with my desires when I'm in need?"

Carla rolled her eyes even harder at him and removed his arms from her. She walked towards the door as she sneered at Terence, "Mr. Terence, why would you ask me such a question? Sarah, Freya, Rebecca, Cindy, Regina or even Elizabeth are at your disposal. I think tons of women couldn't wait to throw themselves at you. You may choose whoever you want to have you desire dealt with."

She threw her response at Terence and turned around.

Just when she was about to open the door, Terence rushed by her side and stopped her. He grinned at her and explained, "Carla, why are you so angry? Are you mad because you think I would choose those women over you? I can tell you right now that I can't make any promises to you at the moment. Lots of things are going on right now and I don't want you to be involved with any of those matters. The timing is not right.

However, you have me all wrong. As much as I want to have you, I won't force you.

To be honest, I'm a man. I have desires and I need it to be dealt with. But I won't do it with any other woman. Carla, I want you, only you. So forget about Sarah or Rebecca. That's never going to happen as long as I have you. Carla, my sweetheart. Don't leave me hanging for too long."

Before he met Carla, he wanted to find the one.

Now that he had found her, everyone else meant nothing to him. He didn't want to contain his desires any longer because each time he saw Carla, he just wanted to tear her clothes and make love to her until she was screaming his name. The more he resisted his desires, the harder it got to contain it.

"I made some porridge on the stove for you and Sean. Remember to finish it after you brush your teeth. I need to go now." After his declarations, Terence calmed himself down and once again tried to control his temptation. Lightly, he planted a kiss on Carla's forehead and left the house.

Carla heard the door close. She lost her strength and leaned against the wall. She furrowed her eyebrows intensely and looked extremely disappointed. She wondered why she said those things without a second thought? Originally, she just wanted to speak her mind so that Terence could know her better. However, he did trigger her by hinting that he would look for someone else to "deal with his desires." Her head was in a mess right now.

Soon after, she regained her senses and assisted Sean in getting ready for school. The driver had been waiting for him.

After changing her outfit and putting on some light makeup, Carla also left the house for work.

On her way to the office, she wondered when would Terence come to BH City next time, since he doesn't come here on a regular basis. Last time she saw him was about 2 weeks ago.

Luckily, she had Violet as her informer in JA City and she could hear from Violet what was Terence up to even if she was in a different city from him.

Violet always called her up and gossiped the recent news about the "golden bachelor" of the Ans.

And as if on cue, her phone rang right after she got off work.

She answered the phone and Violet's voice rushed in her ear.

"Carla, tell me what's going on between you and Terence? Is everything going well these days? Or did you guys break up already?"

Carla could feel her tension through the line.

She was walking towards the supermarket and thinking of what to buy for dinner so she couldn't comprehend Violet's inquiries immediately. She answered casually, "Violet, hey. What could you possibly mean?"

Violet replied hastily, "What do you mean what could I possibly mean? Don't you know that the youngest son of the An Family is going to be engaged with some unknown woman? Wait! You REALLY didn't know anything?"

Violet almost dropped her jaw when she realized that Carla had absolutely no idea about the shocking news.