Mistress novel Chapter 53

After one month

Author's p.o.v

It's been one month since Sehreyar is taken to police custody. His trial is already held and the court has given him lifetime imprisonment.

Sehreyar tried his best to come out of jail but this time he wasn't that lucky. His lawyer couldn't prove him innocent in court as every proof was against him. Even, Haniya tried to help Sehreyar but failed miserably. Moreover, his tales of crimes were telecasted on the TV channels repeatedly making him a criminal in front of the whole country.

The arrest of number one businessman Sehreyar Al Seikh became a hot topic for the media. They telecasted every news about Sehreyar's arrest and they also telecasted Adeel's news. At now, Sehreyar is a complete fraud and Adeel is a good man in front of everyone.

Right now, Sehreyar is sitting in the cell room and thinking only about Meher. He still couldn't believe Meher went against him. He still can't believe she used his feelings to trap him. His condition is getting worst without Meher. She was his oxygen and now without her, he is suffocating every time. Moreover, he is missing Mehrab a lot. Mehrab's cute voice, cute pouts and demands are flashing in front of Sehreyar and he is becoming more upset by the passing time.

In this one month, Meher didn't even come for once to meet Sehreyar. Even when his trial was held. She doesn't want to see his face nor she wants her son to remember Sehreyar.

But for Sehreyar, the memories of his happy times with Meher always flashed in front of him and he felt too much hurt.

He is still thinking about Meher when a constable came and informed him that Meher has come and she wants to meet him.

Sehreyar immediately agreed to meet Meher. He doesn't know why his heart is beating so fast. Meher has come to meet him. He will be able to see her again. These thoughts are making him too much nervous.

Moreover, he has some questions to ask her. He wants to know some questions answers which are bothering him for the last one month.

Sehreyar's p.o.v

I am standing inside the jail room holding the black colour door. I am waiting for Meher. I hope she is here with Mehrab. I am missing him a lot.

Very soon she came and gave me a satisfied smile which I didn't return. I still can't believe she send me to jail. She played with my feelings. I never thought that behind her smiling innocent face she was hiding her vengeful mind. I became more upset noticing that Mehrab isn't with her.

" How are your days going inside the jail? They aren't very pleasurable, I guess!!! She taunted me and I felt like she has just slapped me with her words.

I asked her impatiently," How is Mehrab?"

" He is fine as he is now far away from a disgusting person like you," She sarcastically replied.

I asked her calmly," Why did you play with my feelings? Why?

" Just the way you played with my feelings. Just the way you played with my whole existence," She seethed at me angrily.

This time I couldn't control myself anymore and said almost crying," I apologised for my mistakes. Couldn't you consider my apologies for once? How can you be so heartless?

" Apologise!! Tell me, have you ever apologised properly for your sins? Tell me," She asked me angrily and I became quiet.

Somewhat she is right. I haven't apologised properly. Whatever I did with her is unforgivable and here I didn't even ask for forgiveness clearly. I was so busy possessing her that I forgot to apologise.

I looked at her with my guilty eyes when she yelled on my face," I never forget how you raped me. I never forget how you humiliated me. I never forget how you chained me like an animal. I never forget how you pointed your gun in my son's direction. I never forget how you used my nativity to trap me. You never thought about my feelings. You only thought about yourself as a selfish person. After doing all these you are expecting forgiveness!! Huh!!"

I lowered my eyes because whatever she said is true. I became selfish just to have her fully. But, I loved her truly. I loved her wholeheartedly.

" But, I loved you. Couldn't you consider my love for once?" I asked her with my hurtful voice.

This time she looked at me so angrily like she will eat me alive anytime. She replied gritting her teeth," Love! You loved me! Huh!! It's the biggest joke of this century that you loved me."

Before I could say anything she said with her hard expression," you just lusted after me. You never loved me."

" This isn't true Meher. I loved you," I said like a desperate teenage boy. It's her misconception that I only lusted after her.

I saw her taking a deep breath. I saw her chest is heaving up and down due to anger.

Then she said almost crying," I was just an 18-year teenage girl when you made me your mistress. Do you have any idea how I felt every time while spreading my legs in front of a stranger? Do you have any idea how I felt while you used to remind me that I am nothing but just an object to fulfil your desires?"

Saying all these she burst into tears and I felt too much guilty seeing her like that.

" I am sorry," I said trying to touch her while she flinched backwards giving me a disgusted look.

She replied wiping her tears," Just a simple sorry can't heal the wounds you have given to me. I still couldn't  forget all the humiliations you gave me."

" Meher, I admit that I was an asshole to treat you badly. But, trust me. I loved you truly," I said desperately while a drop of tear escaped from my eyes.

Hearing me, she snarled at me angrily," A person can never hurt his loved ones. But, what you did with me? Just to have my submission you chained me like an animal. You are such a monster that you didn't hesitate to point your gun at your own blood, your own son!!!!"

" I'm sorry. I just didn't want to lose you," I said with my broken voice.

She replied hardening her face," You also didn't do anything to earn my love. Every time you were just busy in threatening me and possessing me like an object."

I lowered my head and eyes. I am not finding any words to say. She is absolutely right whatever she is saying. But, one question is roaming inside me like a bug. I want to know didn't she love me even for once in these few months? We were living like a perfect family. Then, how come she didn't develop feelings for me?

" Didn't you love me ever?" I asked her directly looking at her teary eyes.

I saw her taking a deep breath and closing her eyes. I noticed that she clutched her dress tightly to control her emotions.

Then she opened her eyes and started saying with her heavy voice," Yes, I loved you. I loved you from the very first because I had hope inside me that you will change one day and respect me. But, I was wrong. You never changed."

" Meher, I was just..............." I tried to say something when she cut off my sentence in the middle saying," every time you proved me wrong by forcing me. I didn't forget your misbehaviour with me. You used to hurt me and then apologise. It became a habit for you. You took my softness as my weakness which wasn't right. You forget to treat me with respect.  For a woman, her self respect and dignity comes first before any feelings. And, I prioritize my self-respect in front of my love for you."

I sighed hearing her. Now, I am regretting my all actions. I should have approached her gently. I should have respected her. But, in my anger I destroyed everything. She loved me and I failed to hold her love. Everything is my fault. I deserve all this.

" I deserve all this, Meher. I deserve all this," I said banging my hands on the metal door repeatedly.

I heard her saying with too much hurt," You should have seen my pain for once and tried to understand my feelings."

I lowered my head hearing her and asked her with my crying voice," Will you remember me?

Asking this question I looked at her and found that she is crying like a little kid in front of me. I was feeling like wiping her tears but I can't. My sinful hands can't touch a pure person like her. My filthy hands will taint her more.

She replied wiping her tears," From today you are dead for me. But, you will remain alive in my memories. I will always remember your gentle behaviour with me."

Saying that she started to leave the place when I yelled from behind," Please, Don't tell about my sins to Mehrab. I don't want my son to hate me. Just tell him that I died of cancer."

She turned at me and replied nodding her head in positive," I will."

Saying that she left the place while I kept looking at her retreating figure going away from me. I fall on my knees and started crying badly. I destroyed the chance of having a happy family with Meher with my own hands. I deserve all this. I deserve to be punished for hurting a pure person like Meher.