My Alpha Mate's Christmas Gift novel Chapter 73

　　Roxanne heard this and remembered what Rita told her the previous day. So this was why he did his work with such diligence and joy. Why he felt such pride in it and was so consistent in it.

　　“Without us Omegas, the pack wouldn’t exist. We keep the balance.” He added.

　　Roxanne began to relate with his words. She considered all the roles in the pack, and clearly she could not see the pack being comfortable without Lenard's wood chopping every morning. Without him doing that, in such a cold condition how would they get to keep warm in the house, and since they had no cooker, Roxanne discovered they used firewood to prepare their meals. Without the firewood made by Lenard, the pack would suffer. Besides, other than Lenard, there were other Omegas who worked for the betterment of the Pack.

　　“That’s a load of bullshit!” Larry suddenly let out.

　　This was the first time Roxanne had heard Larry this way. He had a fierce look in his eyes and his face was full of hate and disapproval.

　　Roxanne turned to look at Lenard, but found that he merely shook his head slightly and looked sad. From his expression, it seemed it wasn’t unusual for Larry to express himself like this. Roxanne, who was already giving herself to Lenard's logic, began to grow even more curious about Larry's opinion.

　　“I refuse to accept that!” He added, still in slight rage.

　　“Larry… Mind your words. Lady Roxanne is here” Lenard cautioned.

　　Larry’s eyes darted to Roxanne and kept his cool. He clenched his fists and gritted his teeth, appearing to be powerless and frustrated.

　　“No, Mr. Lenard… I want to hear Larry’s thoughts. Larry, would you please tell me what the matter is?” Roxanne asked in a calm tone. She had a concerned look, making Larry's expression soften.

　　“I-It's nothing Lady Roxanne… Please forgive my disrespectful outburst” He said and bowed his head.

　　Roxanne understood by his tone, what he was trying to tell her. While he didn’t explicitly say it, his words could be loosely translated to-

　　“I can’t tell you anything that can implicate me or my father, as well as the rest of us Omegas. You are Lord Asher's bride-to-be. Anything we say to you may very well put us in trouble.”

　　The meaning of this weighed heavily on her and suddenly, her feelings of accomplishment began to sizzle and fade away. Even though Lenard had told her he appreciated her presence and smiled happily throughout their time together, it could have all been an act. After all, he wouldn’t want to make her, their future Luna, displeased with them. He could have pretended to be happy about her interference.

　　“O-Oh, I see…” She said with a sad smile.

　　“Well then, Mr. Lenard. I better take my leave now. I just realised Rita might be looking for me…” Roxanne said with a disappointed tone.

　　“A-Ah, is that so…?” Lenard asked with an awkward smile.

　　“In that case, we can’t keep you held up here. Please, you should go. We can take care of this ourselves”

　　“Yeah… Okay….” She muttered.

　　Roxanne started off by walking slowly, her axe in hand. She walked from beside Lenard, past Larry, leaving the corner. After she had departed from their presence, she picked her pace and started running. Her legs brushed the snow that seemed to hold her down as her feet sank into it from within her boots.

　　She felt pain within her heart as she ran. The pain of disappointment from those she thought she could understand and could understand her. It was a terrible feeling-

　　“…Dammit! I never asked to be chosen as a Luna!” She cried to herself.

　　However, this encounter had strengthened her resolve even more. She was going to go through with the ritual. Not because she was finally going to accept being Asher's mate, but because she wanted enough strength to go against it. If she could do that, then maybe…

　　“I won’t let things go as you want!” She was determined within herself.