My Fiancée Hates Me novel Chapter 89

I felt like I lost something when Garett said that we should 'break up'. Something in the back of my head told me to reject it right away, but his pained expression was so true that it stopped me from saying anything else.

I was too distraught to notice when Garett left me. Before I knew it, I was left all alone under the scattering cherry blossom trees.

In such a beautiful place, I received the most lonely and saddest breakup speech.

What was my other self-thinking about hurting this man by playing with his feelings? Did I think he deserved it?

Am I really that awful of a person to play with someone's feelings to the point that their heart is crying outside of their body?

Why does it hurt to see him in pain?

Why won't anyone help fill in the gaps of my missing memory?

"Arielle, there you are," Erik said as he ran to me.

"...You were looking for me?" I asked.

...You were looking for your cheating fiancée?

No, you would have known everything, since you barely trust me on my own.

...Why did such an ugly thought appear in my head?

"My father came in secret. He said that he wanted to see you, so I went looking for you," Erik said as he looked up at the trees. "You were sitting here this whole time?"

"Yes," I answered.

"I thought that you would have at least a few petals in your hair from sitting underneath the cherry blossoms," Erik said.

"You seem disappointed," I said.

"Of course...I missed an excuse to touch your lovely hair," Erik said.

I snapped my head in the other direction.

I should be used to his teasing, but my heart feels uneasy.

"You are such a tease," I said

"Let's go see my father now," Erik said as he gently pulled me along by my hand.

"Can I see him like this?" I asked.

I do not have any memories of this life and I just heard my former fake lover's mouth that I was cheating on Erik even if it was a false relationship.

"Of course! You may not have your memories, but I can take over and support you whenever you need help," Erik said.

Again...I feel oppressed.

"I understand..."

We soon met up with His Majesty King Arundel who was wearing simple clothes and a brown wig to cover his striking blonde hair. He was casually waiting at a café.

"It is good to see you looking healthy, Lady Arielle," His Majesty said.

"Greetings, Your Majesty. I am honored to have received Your Majesty's concern," I said as I politely did a curtsy.

"Today, I am here as Sir Arun. I wanted to see my son's Graduation in person without disturbing the other guests attending," His Majesty said.

"You are benevolent as always, Sir Arun," I said with a smile.

"I believe that you are the one who has been benevolent towards my son. I am glad that you two decided to patch things up," His Majesty said.

"I am glad too," Erik said as he held my hand.

I waved my hand and asked that the waiter bring some Earl Grey tea and some scones with heavy cream on the side.

"...You do not change," His Majesty said with a small smile on his face.

"...Pardon?"

Did I do something strange?

"I thought for sure that you would become class valedictorian, but it ended up going to your cousin, Garett," His Majesty said.

Garett's grades were always great in his first life. He was not much of a people pleaser, but I knew just how much effort he put into his studies and supported Erik when they were students. I heard from Erik before that he would always support Erik in his studies before exam season and end up losing time to study for himself. Since Erik has already gone through all of the tests himself, he probably did not need to lean on Garett's help this time.

"With two members related to Royalty, it would be difficult for anyone else to have achieved class valedictorian," I said sharply.

I accidentally spoke too sharply...

"Garett has been a talented individual ever since he was young, so I have expected great excellence from him for a long time already. I also have high expectations for you next year as well, Lady Arielle," His Majesty said.

"...I would be honored," I said with a smile on my face.

After chatting for a while, His Majesty decided to go back with his guards after having his fill of fun.

"My mother never came to my Graduation Day in the end," Erik said.

Erik's mother was a beautiful woman with long black hair and dark brown eyes. These were similar features seen in Kaya Ouchi. I had only met her once from a distance before, but she had covered herself head to toe and wore hat that seemed to cover her face then. I was able to look at her face clearly when His Majesty showed me her portrait before.

She lived in a detached palace inside of the Royal Castle grounds. However, I heard that His Majesty and Erik frequently visited her. The only person barred from visiting her was only me.

"It is because I am here, yes? If I was not here, she might have come to your Graduation," I said remorsefully.

"That is..."

"I never asked before, but what is the reason behind of why she dislikes me?" I asked.

"She does not dislike you. Rather, it is your appearance," Erik said.

"I am ugly?"

"No, of course not...You look like my father's first love," Erik said.

I look exactly like my mother when I was her age.

"My mother was King Arundel's first love?" I asked.

"That was a long time ago, but Mother still thinks that he is in love with the Duchess after all of this time since he wanted her daughter to marry me but make no mistake because I love you for who you are. It has been that way since I first met you," Erik said as he held my hand.

The words 'I love you too' seem to cruel to say right after Garett just broke up with me because I could not say the same words to him.

I want to ask Erik if I truly was in a relationship with Garett, or it was all just a lie. If it was true, what is the relationship between Erik me?

All of the questions I want to ask suddenly to keep on getting shoved back into my throat.

I feel ill again...

"I would like to go back to my room to rest. It has been a long day," I said.

"I understand. Allow me to escort you back," Erik said as he walked me back to my dorm hall.

When I went back to my room, I quickly went for the washroom and threw up.

My current feelings tell me that I love Erik and he loves me. Just does my body have to reject it so much? It is almost as if my body was falling out of align with my mind.

Even the scene of rejection from Garett seemed to play in the back of my mind over and over again...

I do not understand why my thoughts keep on getting filled with Garett even though he rejected me so coldly.