My First Crush Happened To Be My Hubby! novel Chapter 52

D's PoV

I literally wanted him to make love to me. Every cell in my body aches for his touches. I couldn't stop myself when I saw his eyes roam on every inch of my body. I saw his hunger for me in his eyes. It's been a month since we married. I know how much he likes me. I know how much he controls himself. His arms flex and his muscles on the chest ripple as he holds himself back from touching me.

The way his eyes turned a darker shade of lust on seeing me gave me extra pride in my body! It turned me on to an unexplainable extent. I took a step forward to pull him into a kiss. 

But as soon as I stepped forward, I was pulled to his rock like chest. He is so unpredictable, sudden and harsh. I love it. I love when he dominates me. I like it when it happens with raw erotic emotion. 

He picked me up and dropped me on the bed. His touches are burning me from inside out. I want to crush him in a hug. I wanted to feel him against me. He makes sparks all over my body! 

I stopped him when he reached my bosoms. I totally wanna feel his hands on me. But I'm scared. He didn’t stop. He started kissing my exposed legs. God he is killing me. I couldn't take it anymore. I pulled him to me. I hugged him tight to my stomach, stopping his kisses. 

He held me with an arm around my waist and roamed his other hand on my thighs. He drew patterns on my thighs and slipped his hand under the towel reaching my inner thigh. He was very close to my womanhood. I am dying. 

I clenched my thighs together. I'm afraid. I can’t let him do this. The previous time I let him touch me, he threw me away like I was nothing. What if he gets a phone call now?  I cannot assure his reaction. It's not the right time. We have many things to clear up. It would be a blunder if we do this now.

I told him what I felt. He just left me and went away again. It hurts me. He has lust on me! But love? From the day we married, he displayed his lust for me. I have seen it in his eyes. But has he displayed his love for me? Yes, I think. Again nothing has come out of his mouth yet.

Am I confusing his lust for love? I don’t want to think about it anymore. I'm scared of the answer I will get. I let it pass through my mind. I decided to go with the flow. Smirthi has to be removed first. Everything else will fall in its place if she is gone.

Dakshu’s PoV

Days passed as usual. After D's run-away, I never saw Rishi here in the office. It's been one and a half weeks. Danya is her regular self. I think they are making progress in their relationship. Karthik is avoiding me for no reason. The more he avoids me, the more I'm pulled towards him. I clearly know what I feel towards him. I love him.

But after that day, he said I don’t want to report to him while leaving. He stopped the only time we met. I don’t know what happened to him. He fills my heart and mind. I try every other way to meet him. But even if we meet, he just answers to what I ask. 

I can clearly see that he avoids me. But why? I can sense something in him. He has feelings for me too. But why does he restrain himself from showing it to me? I openly show him that I like him. But what is stopping him? I bumped into someone. I was just thinking about Karthik and didn’t see where I'm going.

"I'm so sorry. It's my fault. I didn’t see you coming." I said to the guy who was just looking at me. 

"It's ok, beautiful. So you are that intern everybody is talking about!?" the new man started flirting right away.

"Um...I’m an intern. But I don't know what everybody is talking about." I told him with a straight face.

"Oh! They don't do justice in telling about your beauty."

He is flirting. But he is a man capable of doing beyond flirting. My inner-self asked me to stay away from him. When I was about to move away, I saw Karthik glaring at us. I wanted to pull his legs. 

"Oh really!? So, what do you think about my beauty?" I asked him louder so that Karthik could hear me.

"You are so beautiful. You should try wearing modern dresses. You will look just like a model. You can try modelling. You are made for that."

God, Come here soon Karthik. I can't hear this stupid anymore.

"Awwww, Thank you, Mr.  What's your name by the way?"

"Rohit. I don’t work here. I came to check on the status of our company building. I come here often. This is the first time I'm seeing a beautiful girl here."

"Thank you for your compliments, Rohit."

"Mr. Rohit, Balaji is waiting for you." Karthik spoke harshly. I felt all happy inside. But I put up my innocent face to him.

"Will see you later, beautiful. Bye." He waved his hand before he left.

"Bye Mr. Rohit." I smiled at him. 

"Come to my room." Karthik spat the words at me and went to his room.

Yay! My plan worked. He feels jealous. That means he has feelings for me. Why are men so confusing? Why can't they just admit their feelings? Danya is struggling with Rishi and here I am struggling with this man.

I knocked on the door and went in.

"um...What's it, Karthik? You wanted to see me?" I asked with utmost politeness.

"Stop your drama. What the hell were you doing with that man?"

"Huh! Why are you yelling at me? He just complimented me. I thanked him. What's wrong? And why does that bother you?"

"It bothers me in no way. His looks on you were not good. I just wanted to warn you. But it looks like you enjoy such looks. You behaved the same with me on the train when we didn't know each other. So, it’s not new to you. I'm at fault now, to warn you. Get out!" He said, looking away from me.

What did he just say? He indirectly says I'm a girl of no morals. He thinks that I behave like this to every man I see. How dare he? He was standing looking at the window showing his back to me. I went near him and turned him towards me. I hugged him tight. I buried my face on his chest. I felt him go rigid and struggle to compose himself. I left him and moved a step back.

"I don’t go around hugging men. You better think before you talk. I love you. I know that you love me too. I still have 2years of studies. You have to wait until then. Tell our matter to Rishi mama and bring him along to my father when I tell you. You are marrying me. So, stop trying to bury your feelings for me. And if you talk ill of me ever again, I will kill you." I spoke in warning.

I went out of the room and went to my desk to gather my belongings. I have to go home. He needs time to process what I said to him. He can’t see me until he realizes my Love. He has to realize that he can't talk to me like that. I can't just take it.