My Name is NOT Cupcake novel Chapter 50

I woke feeling rejuvenated and rested. Elias' arms were still wrapped tightly around my waist. I smiled lightly to myself as I relaxed further into the pillow. I felt bile build up as I rushed to the bathroom. I heaved as the acid emptied from my stomach. Just perfect...

Morning sickness.

I felt a hand on my back as I coughed as sat back on my heels. I was cradled into a chest and felt the familiar comfort and warmth spread through my body and a hand rubbed my back gently.

"Are you okay, Nova? Are you sick? What's wrong?" Elias asked quickly. I chuckled and shook my head as I stood and went to brush my teeth. I put toothpaste on my toothbrush as Elias stood behind me.

"It's just morning sickness, Eli. It's normally a package deal when a baby is involved," I said before I stuck the toothbrush in my mouth. Elias only wrapped his arms around me and rested his chin on the top of my head.

"I don't get it," Elias said after I put my toothbrush away. I looked at him confused as I turned to face him. His arms snaked behind my back again as he looked at me perplexed.

"Don't get what?" I asked.

"I don't get why you're not excited to have this baby. You love kids and taking care of people and children," he said.

"It wasn't... You're right, I love kids," I said, moving away from him. "It wasn't the baby, it was the timing and... you. I'm not ready for a baby... I'm don't feel solid enough with you to take on this responsibility. I love you, but I can't explain why. That doesn't mean that I trust you with something as big as a baby... our baby," I said. I felt bad as I saw his face drop.

"Oh," he said simply. I put a hand on his arm as he began to walk away.

"Elias wait," I stopped him. "I did this, came here, to get to trust you. I want to. It's just going to be a process," I said, subconsciously rubbing my hand over my stomach. Elias stepped forward and kissed me gently.

"Well... thank you for giving me a chance to earn your trust," he said before he put his hand on my stomach as he looked at it. "That's our pup in there," he said lovingly. I rolled my eyes and moved his hand before going back into the bedroom.

"It's a baby, Eli; not a dog," I said as I went to the closet. Elias had all of my stuff moved into this room when I was gone.

"Still, we made him," he said, following me.

"What makes you think it's going to be a boy?" I asked as I changed into a loose sundress. I walked out of the closet only to run into Elias. He held me close to him and sighed in content. My stomach growled loudly as I pat Elias' back awkwardly.

"Um... Eli, I'm going to go to the kitchen," I said. He let go only long enough to scoop me up and walk me downstairs. "Eli, I can walk you know," I said. He just ignored me and carried me all the way into the kitchen. Kendra was already there, bustling around the kitchen, cooking. Alexa was also there, sipping on some water at the bar. She turned when she heard us and smiled at me.