My Paranoid Lover (Lance Mason) novel Chapter 66

Chapter 66 I want you to beg for death 

Leo looked at me and then back at Lance, his face seemed to be judging me and it was filled with disgust. He must have guessed my relationship with Lance by now.

“Brother, why?” Leo let go of my hands, I could never forget the look he gave me, it was disgust, and hatred.

Like I was the trash beside the road, all of the good memories about me, ruined by Lance Mason.

This must be in his plan. Did he purposely brought me here and directed this whole drama so that the man I loved so much would start to be disgusted by me? This was the worst punishment I could ever imagined. Yes, I admit, Lance succeeded. He succeeded in making me want to die instead of live.

“No reason, we are grown adults. She‘s willing to give me her body while I‘m willing to give her money. You were seduced by this woman’s appearance, she’s not as clean and innocent as you thought she was. Don‘t forget who her mother is. I told you many times before, Leo, and you never listened. I didn‘t want to het you because you are my only brother, but i didn‘t want you to sink into this bullshit any further. I love you very much, brother, so I wanted you to see her façade.”

Lance finished speaking and looked at me, who was already on the ground, my knees have given out.

So, I‘m a woman like that. What a nice ‘she‘s willing to give her my body‘. If you said this is the second time, what about the first time? When you raped me and took my virginity away? 

Leo squatted down and raised my chin. His face was cold.p: “Is my brother telling the truth? JENNIE GOMEZ!”

I stared at my ‘second brother‘, not a single tear formed. My heart had taken in all my tears, my heart wilted.

“Willing? You were willing to do that? Seriously?” Leo asked me once again.

I stared at him with empty eyes. If Leo was disgusted by me and started to hate me, then for real this time, I have nothing left. Nothing.

“Leo, we are brothers, before mother died, I swore beside her bed that I will become powerful and protect you. Don’t blame me for doing this, this woman and me? We are just trading, a woman like this doesn’t deserve you.” Lance said. And before he left the room, he added: “Leo, Jennie said she doesn’t like the bracelet you gave her, the ruby. She prefers the diamond bracelet that’s worth a few thousand dollars. Have you seen her

I want you to beg for death wearing it? Beautiful isn‘t it?”

I was really wearing the bracelet Lance gave me, it was hidden under my sleeve right now. But I wore it not because I liked it, it was to make Lance happy. I never expected him

to use this as a weapon against me to hurt Leo.

Lance left the room and closed the door, leaving me and Leo alone on purpose.

Leo asked: “ Which wrist?”

I put out my wrist, the one with my scars. The shiny diamond revealed itself. Leo looked at the expensive piece of jewelry and laughed coldly. I could sense the sarcasm and irony in his laugh. Before he left me Lao e, he said: “After so many years, I thought you were different from your mother, seems like I was wrong.”

I didn‘t know where to look at, my eyes were empty. Just before the door shut close, heard myself mumbling in a very soft voice: “You‘re wrong.”

Leo left in a hurry, he didn‘t even had dinner and went back to America,

Lance came back in the room, i was still on the floor. He yelled: “I want to work, get out.”

I raised my head, my face was emotionless. I said: “Did you have to do this? I know I’m not important, you can bully me however you want, but he‘s your brother, doesn’t it break your heart to hurt him like that?”

Lance sat behind his desk and said: “Look at yourself, you‘re nothing to him. Don‘t think that you‘re anybody.”

I laughed coldly and stood up from the floor. “OKAY.” I said.

I didn‘t know how I got out of his study room. I went to the bathroom and did as he said, I looked at myself in the mirror. I have such a young face, such beautiful features, but my face is dead. There’s no soul, no spirit.

I filled a bucket of cold water and put my head in it, trying to numb myself with cold water.

I sat on the bed, eyes empty, recalling the time‘s when we were all younger. I remember one summer afternoon, when I just entered their family. It was very hot, and Lance handed Leo an ice cream. It looked very delicious and Leo started eating it. Lance watched Leo happily while he eats, and patted his head lovingly, saying: “Little brother, you finish you ice cream here alright? You can only eat one, I need to go do my homework.”

Leo nodded happily, and I stood far away from them, watching Leo eat. I was drooling.

Leo noticed and gave me half of his ice cream. He didn’t care if i was dressed in torn shirts. He gave me half and said: “Hurry up, finish it. Don‘t let brother notice, if not he’s going to make you kneel under the sun again.”

After that, when I was older, I only realized Leo loves ice cream, but it makes his stomach hurt so Lance didn’t allow him to eat ice cream, he could only eat it once a week, and Leo gave half of his ice cream to me when I wanted…..

That was the best ice cream I have eaten.

The same year, during winter, was also the first winter I spend in the Mason’s Mansion. I wore my thin jacket, since I didn‘t have any thick ones and got high fever for many days. Leo covered me in his branded jacket and said in his boyish voice: “You will need injection when you get sick, it hurts. So you need thick clothing to prevent getting sick.”

That was the first warmth I’ve ever gotten from the Mason’s.

He even gave me his imported medicine. Leo‘s body was weak when he was a kid, and Lance loves him a lot so he gave Leo the best things he could afford.

Five year old me…… I didn‘t not if I liked the jacket he put on me, or the boy who cared for me, so when Lance came back from high school and saw me wearing Leo’s jacket, he punished me by asking me to kneel in the snow. Nobody helped me, including my own mother. It was Leo who cried like there‘s no tomorrow in Lance‘s arm, begging him to release me, did Lance really released me, because he was afraid that Leo might hurt his throat for crying too much.

The care and love that he gave me helped me survive until now. If there‘s no Leo in my life, I would have died a long time ago.

My first ever pads was even bought by Leo. He accompanied me to the convenient store and bought it for me.

If you ask me what is Leo to me, I would say he was my life and my faith.

When Lance came into the room, I stopped reminiscing. I even smiled at him, I really salute myself for being able to be so strong, even after all of the shit he has put me through.

Lance didn‘t smile at me, although I did. He went straight to the bathroom.

When he got out of the bathroom, I was already downstairs. The servants served the dishes. He came down and saw me waiting for food and scoffed: “I can’t believe you still have the mood to eat.”

I smiled at him and said: “Humans need food to survive, right?”

(Lance Mason’s short POV: The night before we departed for England, she dreamt

and called out a Leo‘s name. And beside her, I listened to her calling out for Leo Mason the whole night….)