My Paranoid Lover (Lance Mason) novel Chapter 108

Chapter 108 Gone

I was so in pain that I could feel, myself become unconscious, I closed my eyes, feeling the servants carrying my body into the car. The butler tried to contact Lance but he didn’t pick up his phone.

Another servant said, was it because Lance didn’t want this kid anymore? The news and tabloids were very clear, who doesn’t know this child was Lance’s?

The butler said, “This is not what servants should be concerned of. There are two lives here, we should send them to the hospital.”

I was lucky that Lance’s butler didn’t treat me any different even after he heard about the news.

I was so in pain that I started to have problem breathing, I knew if I wasn’t sent to the hospital immediately, it would be a one-way ticket for and my child to the afterlife.

At this point, I was really angry. Lance played with my trust once again, he’s really forcing me to die, wasn’t he?

If I had known this day would come, I would have killed him in his sleep.

I was afraid, but I was also afraid when I tried to kill myself for the first time. A person who nearly died once, would be even terrified of dying. I didn’t want to die.

My father crossed my mind. I always thought of him, because whenever my father’s face appeared in my mind, at least I know that someone actually loved me for who I am, unconditionally.

I thought about Leo Mason. My love for him still didn’t disappear completely even after we hurt each other.

I thought since I was going to die, just let me think and miss him more.

The journey from the mansion to the hospital seemed to be very long, I was so worried that my tears started to form. I wanted to ask the driver if he could speed up, I wanted to live!

But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t open my mouth and speak! I could only cry. The butler put his hand around me and comforted me. “It’s going to be alright, stay strong.”

They always say, mothers will love their own children no matter what.

But right at this moment, I couldn’t bring myself to love this child. I knew he was very pitiful, his father abandoned him too.

I felt the car stopped moving and someone was moving my body. “Hurry! To the ER, NOW!” someone yelled.

Somebody was asking. “Where’s the family? Someone needs to sign …..”

I wanted to yell back to the doctor and said, “Save me, I don’t want to die!”

I didn’t want to die with a 7 months-old baby. But what’s the point of me living?

But I just didn’t want to die, I was only 24…. it has been a bitter life for me.

I wanted to live a new life, a happy one,

I was pushed into the ER, and soon after that, I lost consciousness.

When I woke up again, it was already a few days after. I opened my eyes and looked around the empty ward, it was quiet. My abdomen was covered with bandages, it was painful.

With shaking hands, I slowly touched my already flat stomach. I knew right at that moment that my baby was gone……

I brought him to this world, but I wasn’t able to give him the chance to see this world with his own eyes.

No matter how hard I tried to convince myself that this was Lance Mason’s child, I still couldn’t bring myself to not care about him. Yes, I can try to pretend that I didn’t love this child, but I did care about him.

He was inside of me for 7 months, and now he’s gone. I touched my eyes with my fingers, tears rolling down and wetting my fingers.

Tears were the only thing I could offer this child, to pray for him.

I sincerely hope he reincarnate into a better family.

I cried only for a while. I didn’t die, yet I wasn’t happy. What am I supposed to do now?

I was already treated like trash by Lance Mason, he kicked me away. I couldn’t even stay in California any longer. I had no money, so it was impossible for me to migrate to another place.

There was nothing left that I could do, what should I do?!

The nurses came to check up on me, they came with a doctor. It was a different doctor this time.

She checked my wound and said, “You can eat, it will help you recover quickly.”