My Paranoid Lover (Lance Mason) novel Chapter 124

Chapter 124

Once my mother was cremated, held her ashes in my hands with Javier beside me. I spoke with an empty voice, “No matter what you say, my mom will be buried in my hometown. I promised father, please don’t make it hard for

me.”

Tadded, “My mother wasn’t a good woman, she wronged my father. I wasn’t his real daughter, but only I know how good he was to me. I want my mom to pay to father for how she treated her. He was a good man.”

“Brother, let her be.” Leo said.

Lance finally nodded his head. “You’re her daughter, do what you like, I’ll drive you.”

“It’s fine, I’ll come back to see you   once this is done.” I said.

Javier spoke up. “T’ll go with you then, shall I?”

Javier has always been so gentle. No matter what, he would always ask to see if I’m okay with it, he would always get my consent first. He made me feel stability, the only feeling that I would never be able to get from the Mason’s.

Lance’s hands balled into fists, I could even hear his knuckles cracked.

“No matter what, your mother was in the Mason’s for 20 years. Although she didn’t get married, but she was my father’s wife for a long time. As the master of the family, I have to go.” Lance insisted to follow.

I was irritated. I didn’t know what Lance was thinking. He never liked my mom, why was he acting all strange now? How fake.

I didn’t even see Uncle Mason once. And now his son was trying to help him do his job.

“My father’s grave is the only thing to me that’s clean and pure, I don’t want you anywhere near there.” I said.

I could see the bitterness and sadness on Lance’s face, but I didn’t know why he would feel sad or bitter.

Javier and I rented a car. Javier drove while I sat beside him, carrying mom’s ashes.

Javier asked me who else is in my hometown, I said my grandmother.

“Do we need to go see her?” Javier asked.

I shook my head, “No, grandma doesn’t like mom. She’s old, let’s not trigger her in anyway.”

I suddenly felt like telling Javier about Lexi. I couldn’t escape, he had to  know sooner or later.

“Javier, I might have a one-year old daughter.”

I waited for Javier to say something, but he didn’t say a single word for a long, long time. Then, he said, “I know, I heard you that day, about your daughter. You should take responsibility. I don’t think she will affect us being together.”

“Are you sure only the child? Our age, tradition and culture are all different.” I said.

“I don’t think those are any problem at all!” Javier raised his voice, he seemed to be a little mad. But I was happy that he was brave enough to chase me, to chase someone and the things he like.

If Leo had been braver a little, and helped me, we would be a happy couple

now……

“Javier, how well do you think you know me?” I asked.

“Everything about your past, know. But I don’t mind, because I want to be your future, not your past. Everyone has a past, it might be a dark past to you and to others, but it’s already in the past. I don’t want to talk about the past with you.” Javier’s words were like the storm, clouding my heart.

He said: he knew everything about me, the past I tried so hard to cover up, he actually knew…