Professor F novel Chapter 78

Fuck buddies!

It was too late for August to stop herself from saying those words. There's no need to point it out, they're doing it already. It only made her feel awkward after Flynn stopped moving.

It's as if her words brought him back to his senses.

"It's not going to work."

Those words escaped his lips with a dark expression on his face as he withdraws and fixed his clothes.

She stayed lying on the floor and smiled sadly as she tried to hide her tears, looking away from the brightness of her smartv. She bites her lower lip.

"Nothing is going to work." Flynn's voice was weak but enough to reach her ears that pained her heart.

She sniffed as she turned on her side. "We both know that from the start. But didn't we try things to make it work? So why saying this now? Why did we—" Her words stopped when Flynn pulled her up for a tight hug. She cried even harder.

"I'm sorry. I tried. Believe me." He breathes hard and gently kissed her hair. "Now it's—" He sighed soundly. "Can you promise me one thing?" She didn't respond and just waited for him to talk again. She's too numb to move. "Will you promise me to finish your studies and be the person you want to be?"

Why is he asking me this now?

"Hmm? August? Will you promise m—me?" He continued as his voice trembled. He gave out a short chuckle. "I'll take that silence as a yes." He then released her from his hug and cupped her face with his hands, as if memorizing every detail of her face. "I hope this will be the last time you'll cry because of a jerk like me. I'm sorry." He wiped her tears while his own runs down his cheek as his fingers trembled. He moved closer to give her a soft and gentle kiss.

But August was too stunned seeing him cry that even after hearing him say goodbye and the door of her apartment closing shut after he left, she still stayed seated on the floor.

Goodbye, August.

That repeated on her mind and after fixing her clothes, she went out to run after Flynn. She went to his apartment door, knocked multiple times and called his name but he never responded.

Why? Why did it feel like he's disappearing? Like he's going away?

She went back to her apartment to get her phone and call him but his phone is turned off. She runs out of the apartment and looked on both directions but she only see few people walking on the streets.

Where are you? Is this really the last time?

"Flynn..." She placed her hand over her chest. It didn't help the pain she feels inside her heart. But she told herself to keep the promise he asked of her. "I still love you."

She regretted not saying those words to him when she got the chance. Instead of just being truthful about what she really feels for him, she chose to sarcastically question his actions without hearing him out.

••••••

Graduation day

Augustine was smiling at the camera while holding a bouquet of lilies and roses given by her parents. Her Aunt Ruth and Grey attended her graduation because their husbands were at work.

"Say Engineer!" Grey smiled widely as she takes another picture of her with her parents.

"August!"

They all turned to see who it was who called her name and they smiled seeing Pierre holding a bouquet of carnations in his hand as he walked towards them.

"Congratulations!" He greeted and opened his arms to give her a hug.

"Thank you, Pierre!" She smiled. "Are you with Gail?"

"No. She's working right now. I just wanted to personally congratulate you."

"Wanna take a picture together?" She nodded as she calls Grey to take a picture of them.

After that night, Flynn disappeared in her life. He stopped teaching in Pearsons and people from the trucking company came to their apartment to get his things.

She still can't reach him on his phone. She even tried to use her mom's phone to call him but he's not reachable. He must have changed his number, too.

She cried too much that night that she had to lock herself in her room. She didn't even answer her parents' calls that weekend, causing them to rush over and check on her.

They weren't upset but was definitely worried that she won't touch her food. Her mother decided to stay with her and take a leave from work while her father went back.

She went to school despite the condition she's in, decided to keep herself busy with school and work. She lost weight and people at the cafe were worried especially Henry.

Students and her colleagues also talked about Flynn leaving Pearsons. She even heard from few students talking about Flynn getting married, or that their friend saw him teaching in another university or he was working as an engineer in a firm in New York.

But nothing has been confirmed. No one really knows where and what happened to Flynn. She once saw Morgan in campus but she couldn't bring herself to ask him about Flynn.

Pierre, on the other hand, stayed friends with her. After that night he saw Flynn in the same building where she lives, he stopped talking about his feeling for her. He spends more time with his band and music than at the cafe with her.

It was alright. It was actually what she needed. She didn't feel guilty about taking advantage of his feelings.

"We'll wait for you in the car, August." Her mother said before leaving her with Pierre.

"Would you like to join us for a meal?"

He smiled. "I would love to but I have band practice. I'll look forward to having a meal with you one of these days."

She nodded and waved her hand goodbye. As soon as she turned around to walk away, her smile disappeared. She was expecting for someone to come but he didn't.

"Isn't this what he meant that night? For me to graduate?" She sighed softly as she looked at their campus one last time. "Or did he mean—" Her grip on the bouquet she holds tightened.

—finish your studies and be the person you want to be.

"—an engineer."