Resent Reject Regret by Aqua Summers novel Chapter 369

Her head went blank, and understanding soon dawned upon her.

Only now did she see the light as to why Kyran would be attracted to her, why he knew how to take care of her, and how he knew in advance that she would sprain her ankle when walking down the stairs.

She had assumed he was acquainted with a blind person before, so it was because his ex-girlfriend was a blind person like her.

“I see…” Deirdre smiled. She did not know why, but she felt a pang, as if someone was hitting her heart with a hammer.

‘So, does this mean that he confessed to me because of his ex-girlfriend? Is he using me as a replacement for his ex-girlfriend?’

If there was one thing in this world that Deirdre hated the most, that would be becoming someone else’s replacement. She already had it enough when Brendan treated her like a replacement for the girl he truly loved. She did not want to become a replacement for Kyran again this time.

“So you must love her very much, right? Then why did you two break up?”

Kyran looked at Deirdre and said, “Because I did something wrong.”

“You did something wrong?”

“Yeah.” Kyran took a deep breath and continued. “I know she treated me like I was her whole world, so I took advantage of her devotion. I disregarded her feelings and returned home late every night. We spent more of our time apart than together.

“She’s a blind person. She sacrificed her own freedom for me. She didn't have any friends, so she didn't have anyone to talk to when she was facing trouble and couldn't reach me when she needed me the most as I was working outside at that time.”

Deirdre suddenly felt as if someone was choking her. She was a blind person as well, so she was able to empathize with her.

She understood what it felt like to stay alone in a spacious living room when her world was dark.

Deirdre was restless, anxious, and helpless and just wanted to get out of there.

“It isn’t a very good feeling, honestly.”

“Yeah.” Kyran let out a mocking smile. “So she escaped.”

“Escaped?” Deirdre lifted her head up in a daze. Her eyes, which were as clear as deer’s eyes, were filled with confusion and surprise. “Why did you use the word escape?”

Kyran fell into silence. It took him a long while before he finally mustered up his courage and continued. "Because I'm a j*rk. I locked her in the house when she wanted to leave because I was afraid of losing her. I thought I could make her change her mind like this, but she was completely disappointed in me and tried to run away."

Deirdre's chest was heaving up and down heavily as her breathing became ragged. For a moment, she felt as if Brendan, her nightmare, was beside her once again.

He had done everything he could to keep her by his side. He had destroyed her freedom and exhausted her patience.

“Dierdre, are you disappointed with me after listening to the story?” asked Kyran. He stretched out his arm, slowly and carefully trying to reach out for Deirdre's face as he was afraid of startling her.

Deirdre lifted her eyelids and snapped herself back to reality. She chased away the dark thoughts and said with a frown. "This isn't right. You ignored her when she had no one but you, and you forced her to stay by your side when she had enough disappointment. How could you do that to her?”

Deirdre’s voice was stern. “You’re not the Kyran I know anymore.”

‘You’re like—’

Deirdre hastily ended the thought as soon as it appeared in her head. No matter what Kyran did, she mustn’t compare him with Brendan.

After all, Brendan was a total psychopath.

“Yeah, there was only one thing on my mind, to get her back to my side. As long as we could return to how we used to be, I could treat her better with all my heart. I became so desperate that I didn't expect how horrible my actions were. So when she left me, I only blamed myself.”

Deirdre couldn't bring herself to scold him upon seeing that Kyran had realized his own mistake.

At the very least, he knew that he had done something wrong.

“Then what happened next? Did you go find her?”

“Yes, I did.”

Deirdre was momentarily stunned before saying, “Then you should go after her and ask for her forgiveness. You should let her know your feelings, and if she really refuses to forgive you, then maybe it’s time for you to move forward.”