Shouldn't Have Kissed You novel Chapter 44

Chris kept kissing her on her shoulders as she slept. H e loved how she smelled and he couldn't help himself at all. Her scent was heaven and he was very much sure that he would never get used to it. Just like how she could still love him after everything that he had done to her.

He had humiliated her and yet she choose love him. For crying out loud he had done so much. So much that if he was the one who went through what she went he would be a bitter man. Who wouldn't anyway, after all, we're all human.

Yes, that is what we're. Only human that we crave for revenge when we're done wrong. That we only thing of hurting others more than we were hurt by them. It's not wrong to want that but to what extent. To what extent to we want to go and how sure are you that you'll come out of it a better person. A happy man?

That's how we intent to forget. We forget that in the process of having our revenge we also hurt. And worse, we hurt more than you hurt the intended one. And we also forget to ask ourselves what next after the revenge. I mean, one kills a wife because the cheated on them or they believe the did. You forget that jail is waiting for you once you're done and because you don't want to be jailed you chose the other way out which is killing yourself.

Isn't that what he did? Chris thought of his own mistake. It was his fault that they're forced into the marriage but he refused to believe that. He believed what he himself wanted to believe and that was him being wronged by Maya. And that is what he believed and wanted revenge for. But she, she taught him an important lesson.

a lesson that he would forever remember. a lesson that everyone should emulate for there own peace of mind. There was Leonel, the guy who chose to be by her side from the start and would have chosen him as a lover but she didn't. She chose the rotten apple like him. She gave him the pride of every woman in the world few hours ago.

What had he ever done to deserve it? He tried to remember any good thing he had ever done but her got none. The only answer that he could come up with was that God is a God of second chances. Yes, he had given him second chance with Maya. His Maya. She had become his few hours ago as he had become hers. That's what had happed and he was happy. Happy that he got a second chance with her.

Happy that she didn't chose to leave him. Chris felt her move in his arms and he was sure that she was waking up. She had slept like a log when they had finished their love making section which made him wonder how she could have done that. As for him, he hadn't slept a wink and if he did, he can't remember since he just kept thinking. Thinking of his life and hers. Them together. Forever.

Chris continued with his act and she stirred again in his arms. He wasn't going to lie cause the more she stirred and groaned, the more excited he got.

"I know you're up kitten." He whispered in her ears as he sucked her lobe. "I can hear you're heavy breathing."

this time Maya moaned and that made him a rock if that was even possible. He couldn't help but groan in her ears again. Maya tried to pull away from his wet kisses but Chris wasn't ready to let that happen. He wanted to be more and more intoxicated by her scent. When she fought him and managed to sleep on her back he took that opportunity to be on top of her.

The position alone had him remembering a few hours ago. Chris had warned her but she didn't listen. She chose not to and now he was having a hard time. He was never like that. Not even with Kimberly. He did love her but not the in a way that he loved Maya. To him with Kimberly one round was always enough for him. He never went for another round or cuddle up with and if he did that was when Kimberly complained.

But with Maya, everything came natural. He didn't need to do anything to be perfect in her eyes. In fact he was always clumsy since they exchanged I love you. Maya seemed to love it so he wasn't going to change that for anything in the world. Not even for his music.

Chris began to kiss her neck and she shivered under beneath him. She tasted heaven and he would do that like forever.

"Kitten, you taste so good that I want more." Again he groaned as he kissed her between her breast. "I don't know how long I'll last with you for years."

Maya pulled his head from where it was buried. "Chris, its so early and I haven't slept a thing." She complained gazing up at him.

Chris didn't break the eye conduct that they're having between then. "Cupcake, you've slept for the past seven hours." He leaned to peck her lips. "The sun is so high." Again he pecked her lips but this time twice.

"Chris, I'm still... you know?" She said shyly looking away from him.

Chris laughed. Like Literally laughed. This was the same Maya who had been teasing him for weeks and now after what happed she couldn't say what she was supposed to say? Who wouldn't laugh anyway. The fearless Maya was now a no word construct. Its crazy.

"Cupcake, I don't know anything." He said once he was done laughing. "I mean, what do you mean that you're still... you know?"

Still Maya looked else where but not him when she said, "I'm still sour down there." And after saying that she hide herself with her palms.

Chris just smiled at her. Of course he knew that and he wasn't planning of going another round until she was okay. he would take care of himself. he wanted to do was to show her how they'll be waking up every morning till the end of time. Yes, it was only that that could separate them. No one else except death and he was sure of.

"Kitten, I'm not planning on taking you because I know you're still sour." He said moving a little bit lower. "In fact I want us to just talk till the sun sets in the east."

Maya laughed and did wonder why she laughed. Did he say something funny? But he said nothing amusing at all, so he just waited for her to finish before he asked but she bit him into it.

"The sun sets at west, hubby." She said massaging his head.

Chris looked at her, did he say soothing else other than west? Hell, this woman was making him insane. Chris leaned in and took her lips with hers. They tasted heaven and he knew he said that a million times but what else could be compered with her? This time, the bold Maya was back. They're fighting for dominance and she was winning it.

Maya slipped her tongue into his and he was a goner. Talking with her had calmed the monster down but her in his mouth exploiting every corner of his mouth had him all awake again. It felt like hours being in each others mouth but it was worth every breath. Worth him lacking oxygen because of her. God, he could die a happy man at that moment.

"Aren't we a little excited here?" Maya said looking at him after breaking their kiss to catch a breath. The notorious Maya was now back and heck a part of him wasn't happy because he was going to go through hell with her.

Chris just smiled at her and decided to go with her.

"I warned you Maya and what did you say few hours ago?" he asked trying to remember what she answered him when he warned her not to wake the monster up.

Maya just smiled at him. Of course he knew she did remember but instead she changed the topic.

"I need to shower." She said trying to push Chris off of her. " And after we had breakfast, we can start our journey to coast. You know, the famous Diwani."

Chris didn't move on top of her instead he let all his weight on her. He had told her that they're spending the whole day together in bed and it seems that that kiss they shared had her memories gone. But he would remind her. Maybe this time with a different thing other than a mind blowing kiss.

Chris didn't want for them to travel again. He wanted them to just stay in does for today only. in fact they had a week plus to travel the places that Maya wanted to travel. Them traveling almost midday would take for ever and it would mean they would have no time for any kinda conversation at all. From Manor Giraffe to JKA (Jomo Kenyatta Airport) would take them an hour or more. Then the airplane to Mombasa which would take forty five minutes which is also an hour.

And him knowing Maya the way he had come to know her, she would fall asleep before they even got to there hotel. So to him, the Indian Ocean could wait for them. Besides, its not like it was going anywhere.

"Maya, I said we're aren't going anywhere today." He said locking his gaze with her green ones.

He didn't miss the look in her eyes before she said, "Chris, our flight takes of today."

"I already took care of that." He wasn't lying at all. He had changed their flight for tomorrow when he had woken up if at all he slept. "And about that bath, lemme run that for you."

He thought that she was going to complain but she didn't. So he got off of her and walked in the bathroom in all nudity. Chris run a bath for then and went back to pick his wife. He pushed the sheets away and carried her to the bath tab. Lowering her in it, he heard Maya ease once she was coursed by the bubble water. Chris just smiled and walked behind her and pulled her closer to him.

In silence, Chris washed Maya's hair massaging it. They stayed in the bathroom for almost an hour only getting out of it when the water became more cold. Maya changed into white shorts and a black t-shirt which seemed to be longer than the shorts. All this time Chris was making a phone call ordering there lunch as a room service. Once he ended the call, he pulled some grey boxers and put then on.

Twenty minutes late there was a knock on their door which had Maya saying thank God. This had Chris smile as he got up to get the door. He was glad that she was starving as much he was starving. Chris let in a young black lady walking in pushing a trolley with there food.

He walked to the bedroom and took his credit card to pay for the room service. Chris handed his credit card to the young lady and he could help but appreciate her beauty. she was beautiful and he was sure that she had allot of suiters lining up for her.

Just then, he heard someone touch his arm and by the shiver that his body got he didn't need to confirm who it was. But this hold wasn't their normal hold. This one was a possessive one. As possessive as it could get.

Chris felt pride take over his body. Maya was jealous of the young lady who stood there. To Chris she was armless or so he thought. But to know that Maya was affected by other ladies near him was a plus for him. Of course, as long as it never got out of control.

"Your services are highly appreciated but don't come back to pick this once we're done."

Chris didn't miss the look in the young lady's eyes when Maya said that.

"Jealous aren't we?" He asked when the young woman was out.

Maya laughed. "Me, jealous? Don't be so full of yourself mister." She said pulling away from him.

Chris took the remaining two bowls that she had left and followed her to the dinning area.

"Maybe I'm reading too much in the line." He said placing the bowls on the table. Maya said he was and he knew how to get her. "Then that beautiful young land will be the one taking this away once we're done."

Maya was gritting her teeth when she said, "If you want to not have that junior between your legs just try it." She pulled a plate and began to serve. "And yes, I was jealous, I mean who wouldn't be. She didn't even seem to see me in the room. She even had hard time with the card because her eyes were on you and you didn't seem to mind. And you find her beautiful?"

That last part was an out burst. And to know it was she had just heaped her food mixing everything and using the same serving spoon when they're enough for every type of food there. Chris walked to her side and hugged her from behind. She had no reason at all to be jealous of someone he didn't pay that much attention to. Yes, he had noticed that she was beautiful that was all it was.

"Maya, I only have eyes for you and only you." He kissed her exposed neck taking away the disaster that she had made with the food. "You know, since I met you, I'd this behaviour of comparing every woman I met with you, and guess what I realised as the days went by?"

Maya moaned and Chris kept kissing her neck. "What?" She asked as she gave him more access. Chris felt her argue go away with every kiss that he gave her.

"That no woman in the world had the beauty that you've Maya. Both inside and out." He turned her around so that she was now facing him. "And now that I'm madly in love with you, I'll never look at any other woman the way I look at you Maya, never. That's how much I love you and how much I want you to believe in me. So please, don't cut of my junior away cause he is also a part of making you happy."

He laugh at that last part. Hell, she had threatened to cut of his balls if the young lady came back in their honeymoon suit. One thing he was sure of was him loving this woman back to the moon.

Maya smiled at him and pecked his lips before she said, "You will be wearing clothes before you answer the door. This," she pointed at his naked body, "is only for my eyes to see. Not even Kimberly. I mean she had her own share but not from yester night. Do I make myself clear Mr?" She asked looking into his eyes.

"Yes ma'am." He saluted her. "Now lemme serve you my queen." He pulled a seat for her and went on to serve her lunch.

They eat their lunch talking about nothing in particular and Maya complaining how Chris was over feeding her. And all he could say was that she needed the energy since he had drained it from her. He went to say he didn't even know how she could still walk and not complain of pain on her lower abdomen. All Maya could say was that he hadn't done a good job at all. Of course, Chris being Chris took that as a challenge.

Once lunch was down and the dirty dishes were taken away this time an older woman, Chris and Maya moved to the on the couch. Chris laid his head on Maya's lap and she massaged his head.

"You know, I've been jealous myself on countless times." He began, maybe it was time he admitted to himself and her. He had so many times and what he would tell himself before was that he didn't want people to love her because she deserved it but not any more. He looked at her when she said nothing but she gave him that look of go ahead.

"First time was when you and my best friend Wesley acted all lovey dove in and that's why I gave you guys that short time to get ready." He smiled at her and remembering that day. He had convinced himself that he didn't want her to fool his best friend with that smile of hers like she had with him. And he believed himself or so he thought.

"Then the next one was when you went on a dinner date Mr. Ambrose." His blood boils when he things of that day. It wasn't the best for him. "I mean, I had just kissed you and I felt much alive and next I know you're with that guy. I did want to defend you when Kimberly slapped you, god I did but I was in shock. In shock of learning that you made me feel alive more Kimberly did when we kissed. And just when everything was downing on me, he became your life saver.

"So I was mad. Mad at myself for not being the first guy in your life to take you out for dinner. Mad that I was the source of your pain and he was the source of you're happiness and that's how my dinner date with Kimberly ended."

Maya had stopped comping his hair with her hands and stared at him. Its like she was also walking down those memories and all he hoped was for her not to regret her decision to love him. Because the next thing he was going to tell her was going to bring bad memories but still, he had to.

"Do you remember when I took you to go and meet with you're dad?"

"How could I ever forget that?" She asked him.

It hurt. It hurt because it was his fault. His for wanting revenge. Chris thought of the mistakes that he had made because of the damn revenge and an idea came to his mind. Maybe he should write a book telling people about revenge. Maybe.

"I am sorry for that Maya and trust me I'll apologies for the rest of my life."

"Its okay, so tell me what made you jealous?" She asked trying to lighten up the mood.

Chris smiled at her remembering what made his jealous. Its ridiculous but it still work. he told her how he was jealous of the waiter who served them by the way he kept on staying at her cleavage but of course he convinced himself of something else. Maya laughed at him and told him how ridiculous he was and he did too. But he told her he was no different from her since almost killed a young lady for admiring his perfect body.

And just like any other lady, Maya rolled hers and told him what she always does when his ego get the best of him.

"I've seen better than that Mr."

"Is that so?" He asked getting closer to her lips. "Have they ever made you feel like this?" He took her lips into hers.

Chris felt her move away after a while and she looked at him then smiled.

"Even better."

Ooh! she was teasing him and he loved where this was all going. Maya was trying to lighten up the moods after those bad memories and in a way it was working. So, they made other different talks like what Maya had confessed to him when she was drunk on the day of her birthday.

Of course she had denied it at first saying it wasn't true and Chris had to as her why then from that day she accepted his shirts to wear on bed. He got her there and she had to admit to him. They laughed. Made jokes on each other. Chris even opened up his dad who had left them when he was so young.

At first, he didn't want to forgive him. In fact when he thought of him, he thought of revenge. A now forgiveness zone but with Maya he learnt how to forgive. how to not hold grudges and if his dad came back, he would give him a chance to explain himself. he might not forgive at the start but he would learn as time went on.

As for Maya's dad, she herself could never bring herself to forgiving him and Chris understood. Who wouldn't anyway. In fact to him, Maya was strong than anyone he had ever met. She had still loved her dad despite everything he had done to her. She always had that hope that one day her dad would love her like he loved her brother. Talking of her brother, Maya had told him how she missed him. How she hoped that he was alive.

"Not even a day passes by without me wishing that he would one day stand at our door step and knock on it." She was fighting tears when she said that. "And you would answer and he would tell you 'hey, I'm Maya's brother and I was told that she leaves her?' and you would call me and I would run to him. Slap him and shout at him before pulling into an hug never let him go."

He knew it won't take her that long before she began to cry. He had too when he talked about his past. That's why he had chosen this day. They needed to talk about the past before the spoke of the present and the future. And so far, they had done so well. them open up to each other was the most amazing thing that they would have ever done to each other.

"Is it wrong for a girl to hope?" She asked wiping away her tears. "I mean I've faith that one day he will come back to us even if its hundred years later. Not as a corpse but a living human being."

Chris pulled her into a hug and let her cry. He just knew that one could hope but this time he did pray. Not for himself but for the love of his life. For her to have that peace that she so much wants. For her to forever be happy and that is if her brother comes back to her. He knew she missed him so much and who wouldn't miss the first person who showed her unconditional love.

Chris didn't know how long they had talked but it was already dark. The day just came to an end with them talking none stop. He love this way too much and he wished that they would forever be like that. Just the two of them.

"I've this joke." He said when she had calmed down. "Do you want to hear it?"

Maya laughed pulling away from his embrace. "Like if I say no you'll stop."

"Damn, I hate the way you already have me figured out."

"Can you blame me Mr.?" She asked looking at him. "I'm Mrs. Rollins after all."

"I can't argue with that dear." He kissed her forehead. "So back to the joke, guess what panda told the photographer when he was taking his photo."

"I know Kunfu so you better do a good job."

"No, try again."

"Just tell me."

"Here it comes." He was already smiling. "Please don't make the picture black and white."

Maya laughed good. She did like when first his mother told him this joke when he was a kid. he thought it would be a not fun to her but the way she laughed he knew it was.

After a couple of more jokes, Chris ordered room service for them. They eat their dinner and they retired to bed.

"I just want to cuddle up to you forever Mrs. Rollins." Chris said after a long silence between them.

"We've all night for that hubby." Maya answered moving even closer to him as if it was possible.

Chris was consumed by her sweet smell and he found himself closing his eyes but before the slumber took him completely he whispered in her ears.

"I love you Mrs. Rollins."

and before he was completely knocked out he had her saw those words that he so loved to hear her say.

"I love you more hubby. I love you."