Take Me Away novel Chapter 77

"But your expression shows that you are in much more pain now!" Terence exposed Spencer's lie.

Spencer smiled despite looking like he was about to cry. When he spoke, there was a quiver in his voice that Terence had never heard before. He could no longer pretend that everything was alright. "Terence, my heart feels like it's being wrenched. I've never felt so powerless. I'd rather be shot on the battlefield than hurt this way."

Terence furrowed his brows. He initially thought that Spencer losing his mother during the brink of adulthood was the most hopeless he would ever get. He had buried the pain and trauma of that experience deep in his heart. But looking at him then, he saw a much different Spencer, someone who looked even more desolate and distressed.

"What on earth happened?" Terence asked with concern.

"I picked up Fiona from the university this afternoon, but..."

Spencer narrated everything to Terence. As he spoke, he slowly realized that he had fallen in love with her. He felt lucky that he was married to her and was even excited at the prospect of having a baby with her.

Just then, a gust of cold wind blew, sending a shiver down his spine. It was December so it was likely that it was going to snow.

Terence had mixed feelings after listening to Spencer's story. Narrowing his eyes, he said, "Let's go inside first."

He almost had to drag Spencer because the latter wouldn't budge. His thoughts made him feel utterly helpless. The warm living room offered comfort from the bleakness of the weather outside. But Spencer would rather stand in the cold. The sting of the chilly air made his aching heart feel numb.

Terence sat him down and poured him a glass of warm water. "How's Fiona now?" he asked.

"I don't know..." Spencer shook his head. "The doctor said that she was waking up just when I left the ward. That's when I received your call. I came here then."

"Why did you leave her?" Terence asked, both confused and a little angry.

"I cannot..." Spencer covered his face with his hands. "I'm scared, Terence. I don't want her to question me with her eyes. I don't want to see her cry. I've messed everything up!"

"Why don't you just tell Fiona the truth? Let her hate you... That's what you wanted, right?"

"Tell her the truth and then what? Give her a taste of this hell I'm living in? She'd already lost her parents. She was just a young and innocent girl, and in the blink of an eye, she became a poor and lonely orphan. I don't want her to suffer like that again." There were tears in his eyes when Spencer raised his head. "I would rather her hate me. I'll probably tell her the truth when her body has recovered and she feels better. I also need more time to process everything."

Terence couldn't think of anything to say to Spencer so he merely patted him on the back for comfort. Despite his efforts, he couldn't come up with an advice that would help him solve his dilemma. But there was one thing that he understood very clearly, which was that Spencer loved Fiona very much. He had suspected it from the beginning but he wanted to hear it directly from him.

"Do you love Fiona?"

It was a question which sounded more like a statement.

Spencer's face was tense as Terence waited for his reply. When his eyes dimmed, it seemed as if he would let the question go unanswered.

Did he still want to deny it?

Terence let out a sigh. "You don't have to..."

"I do love her." Spencer finally admitted. His eyes never looked so serious. "I love her very much. I don't know when I started to fall for her. I don't even know how much I love her.

I finally realize why I took on the military training program at D University. It was because I wanted to see her more often. Seeing the necklace she designed on Ryan's neck almost drove me mad. I was so jealous when I saw her perform with Ryan on the stage that I dragged her to the Civil Affairs Bureau. I decided to marry her because I couldn't stand seeing her with another man. I didn't allow her to break off the engagement, and I won't allow her to leave me. She will stay with me for the rest of her life. I will not allow her to go anywhere else."

Terence was stunned. When he opened his mouth, he said happily, "You finally see it, you dolt! Your stupid brain took you long enough to realize it! Tell her what you just told me."

Spencer's face softened into a smile.

"So that means you've moved on, right? You no longer hate her?" Terence paused before continuing. "And what about Celine?"

'Celine...'

Spencer frowned at the mention of her name. He didn't know how to describe how he felt. Before he met Fiona, he still had hopes for Celine. It had been six years and he still couldn't forget his love for her. Otherwise, he wouldn't have been distracted at his own wedding. But then...

"My decision would hurt either one of them. I don't want to see Fiona suffer, so I can only disappoint Celine. I guess my hatred for Fiona disappeared a long time ago. But I can't leave Celine alone. After all, it was because of me that she was sent to live alone abroad. If it weren't for me, she wouldn't have had to suffer so much. After all..."

He couldn't finish the rest of his words.

What he wanted to say was that at the age of 16, he had already done so much with Celine, including sex. He had been hoping that he could eventually take responsibility for her. The fact that their parents married did not even make him waver from his commitment. But then, Fiona came into his life and changed everything.

Watching Spencer struggle with his thoughts, Terence shook his head and said, "Some things need time and clear thought. Don't rush it. I'm guessing you'll stay here tonight? You can't go back to Cheng family residence. You can't tell your father and grandpa that Fiona's in the hospital. You can rest here."

"No, thanks." Spencer shook his head. "I'll head back to the hospital later."

"Aren't you afraid of seeing Fiona?" Terence asked with an ironic smile, trying to cut through the tense atmosphere.

"I'll go back after she's fallen asleep." The sorrow in his tone was unmistakable. "I asked Ruby to watch over her." There was another reason why he wanted Ruby there. The truth was he was afraid that she would do something stupid.

"Ruby?" Terence raised an eyebrow. "That famous female captain? It must have been difficult to get her to come."

"I told Ruby that Fiona lost our baby so she rushed there immediately," Spencer replied.