The Alpha's Surprised Mate (Book #1 of Silver Moon Series) novel Chapter 42

Forty-Two: Hurt

Kylani

It’s been two months since Jordyn was born. I am finally starting to feel normal again. My body doesn’t take as long to heal as a human but longer than a wolf. I was getting a bag packed for Jordyn because Lisa wanted to take her for a couple of days. I have no problem with this. I love my daughter. I do need a break every now and then. I am hoping for some alone time with Kaleb. We haven’t really done much since the baby was born. I am actually quite worried that he doesn’t find me attractive anymore. I know he loved my curves and everything before, and now that my body has changed a bit, I am not sure he sees me the same. I am standing in front of a mirror, looking at myself in a matching bra and thong set. I heard the door open and close. I figured it was Kaleb. I sighed and looked up when I heard him suck in a breath. He is just standing there staring at me and practically runs into the bathroom. I look down as tears threaten to fall. I quickly put on a pair of shorts and a shirt and left the room. I guess I was right. He doesn’t find me attractive anymore. I head down to the rec room and find Dustin there by himself. I sit down and try to focus on the tv. I can't get the image of Kaleb staring and then running into the bathroom replaying in my mind. Dustin and I have actually become very close. He’s become my best guy friend. We tell each other a lot. I don’t think I want to tell anyone this, though. I can tell he knows something is wrong, even though I am trying to hide it.

“Hey, no crying. I hate it when any of you women cry.” He says to me.

“Sorry,” I tell him.

“What’s wrong?” He asks

I just shake my head. He comes over, sits down by me, and hugs me. I break, I tell him everything.

“I think he has found someone else. Maybe I should see If I can get into one of those little cottages on the pack territory, or maybe I should just go home and just bring Jordyn down during the day so she can be with her daddy. I will still help the pack with those assholes.” I say, crying.

Dustin holds me while I cry. Maybe everyone was wrong, and we aren’t soul bonded. I feel like my heart is shattering.

“I knew I should have just walked away after that meeting. God, I was so stupid.” I tell him.

My tears finally stop, and Lisa shows up to pick up Jordyn. I give her a smile. Kaleb is in the nursery when we go to get Jordyn. I give her a kiss and walk out, leaving Kaleb and Lisa alone. I can’t be around him right now. It hurts too much. I leave the packhouse and go into the forest. I want to be alone.

Kaleb

I walk into our room, and there stands Kylani in nothing but a matching bra and thong set. I could tell her body had changed, but fucking hell. She had some amazing curves before but now. HOLY FUCKING GOD! Her hips are wider, and I can guarantee her breasts are much more than a handful now. Her ass is a fucking piece of art. Add that to all the tattoos and body piercings. FUCK! I was caught so off guard that all I could do was stare. I had to run to the bathroom cause the sight alone had me fucking cumming in my pants. When I came back out, she was gone. DAMN, but then I remembered mom was coming to pick up Jordyn for the next couple of days. I had asked her to so that Kylani and I could have some alone time. I was in the nursery when mom and Kylani came in. I looked at her and was instantly worried. I could tell she had been crying. I looked away from her quickly, gave Jordyn a kiss, told mom bye, and left. I could hear tears in her voice. Dustin sent me a mind link right then, asking me to come to his office. I told him I would when mom was gone. He sounded pissed. What the hell? I haven’t done anything. I walk mom out to her car and kiss her and Jordyn bye. I walk back upstairs to Dustin’s office. I walk in, and it’s just him and me. This is weird.

“Where’s everyone else? Has there been more rogue attacks.?” I ask.

“This conversion is for the two of us. You are my best friend, but what the fuck man.” He asks

I sit there like a deer in the headlights. What the hell is he talking about?

“I was in the rec room earlier when Kylani came down. She was upset about something. She finally broke down. She thinks you found someone else.” He growls.

I sit there in shock when he tells me that she thinks I don’t find her attractive anymore. That is about as far from the truth as it can get. I have nothing to say when I hear she thinks about leaving to live elsewhere.

“Kaleb what is going on. I am hoping she is just reading things wrong.” He sighs.

I explained to him what had happened. I am not embarrassed to tell him that he is my best friend. He lets out a sigh of release.

“Did you really think that I would cheat on her?” I ask him.

“No, I know you love her more than life, but I can understand how she felt seeing the way you reacted.” He states.

I sit and think, and yeah, I guess he is right. It wasn’t the best way to react to seeing her in that bra and thong. My mind was just way overstimulated. I tell him I have to find her and leave his office. I have no idea where she could be. I go back to our room, but she is not there. I head downstairs and run into Mykenzie. Well shit! This may not go well if Kylani has already talked to her.

“Yes, I know and I told her that she has lost her mind. I told her there is no way you would cheat on her, but she is hurt.” She tells me.

“You’re on my side? WOW,” I ask

“Yes, Chris is not the only one that can read minds. If you think I haven’t read yours to make sure you weren’t going to hurt Kylani then you’re a twat.” She says and walks off.

I would never hurt her on purpose. I guess I have hurt her right now, though. I really didn’t mean to. FUCK! I have to find her.

I have been searching for three hours and have had no luck whatsoever. I sit down on a rock and put my head in my hands. I have to find her. I hear some bushes rustle and look over. Out walks Phantom, her fucking humongous white tiger. He walks over to me, and I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t scared. He is 16 feet from the tip of the nose to the tip of the tail. I am 6’4”, and he has to be at least 8’ at his shoulders when he is standing. He rubs up against my leg and looks at me. He gives me a look to ask if everything is ok between you two.

“It will be,” I tell him.

Great, now I am talking to an animal. Maybe I have lost my mind. He gets up and starts to walk away. He stops and looks back at me like I need to follow him. I get up and follow him. He leads me to a small pond. I still haven’t found her. I sit down on the grass by the pond, and he lays his huge fucking head in my lap. I started to pet him and tell him everything that had happened. It’s weird talking to him about all this, but at the same time, I actually do feel better. I get up and start heading back to the packhouse. He doesn’t follow. I walk in and go straight to my room. I walk in, and Kylani is there getting some clothes. I turn and lock the door. I know this isn’t going to keep her here. She can just vanish, but I hope. She stops but doesn’t turn around. I walk over to her and put my hands on her hips.

Kylani

I stayed away for a few hours, then cautiously snuck back into his room. It didn’t feel like our room anymore. I was getting some clothes to sleep in for the next day when Kaleb walked into the room. I heard him lock the door as if that would stop me from leaving. I stopped what I was doing but couldn’t bring myself to turn around because I knew I would start crying. All of a sudden, I felt his hands on my hips and pulled away. I tried to walk away, but the next thing I knew, I was against the wall, and he was kissing me deeply. I felt his hand on my ass and the other moving up my back. I finally got my hands in between us and pushed him back. I didn’t know what to do. The tears started falling, and I slid to the ground with my back against the wall. I pulled my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. I still couldn’t look at him. I felt his hand on my cheek.

“Please, gorgeous, let me explain about earlier.” He begged.

“What’s to explain. I know I am not what you want anymore.” I whisper.

“That is absolutely not true. I could tell your body had changed after having our amazing daughter. When I walked in and saw you in the bra and thong my mind went numb. I actually thought about touching you to see if you were real or not. You looked so fucking gorgeous standing there. I ran into the bathroom cause the sight alone made me cum in my pants like some inexperienced horny teenager.” He explains.

“No, my proudest moment.” He sighs.

I look up at him, still crying. He looks like he is going to cry. He wipes my tears away. I close my eyes and feel his lips press to mine.