The Billionaire's Unwanted Bride novel Chapter 75

Anna's POV

I don't know what to think of Aidan and his behavior last night but I know of the obvious fact that Aidan can never change, no matter how hard he tries.

I wanted to see him from a different angle, imagining he is being like this because of what he must have gone through in the past but as much as I tried, I kept seeing his faults in everything happening.

I can't believe he is going back on his words about me dating someone.

Why will he date other girls and I am not allowed to date a man too? Does he even know what he is saying? Saying my baby is still little and I should wait till she is five years old sounds silly.

I will no longer let him take me for a ride and I will no longer see my mother's fault in all of this. My mother pioneered this but she isn't the reason for what is happening.

If my mother had told him she wanted him to marry me, he didn't have to go through with it, he could have declined, everything and everyone will be fine but he didn't because he needed me too. His mother wanted him to marry and I was the only available option so he shouldn't make it look like my mother forced him to do this.

He wouldn't have married me if his mother hadn't forced him to and if he didn't need me too. He needed me and everything is equal now. I'm going to let him know that.

The ringing sound of my phone jerks me out of my reverie. I have been in bed since I woke up this morning. I haven't gone to check up on Lily either.

I wasn't bothered because I trust her with the maid. I know she would have come knocking if I was needed. I just don't have the strength to do anything and the thoughts of Lily aren't motivating me either.

I stretch my hand to pick my phone from the drawer. It is Tony calling.

I smile and pick up the call. "Good morning, baby."

"Good morning, Tony," I reply.

"How are you doing? Are you still sleeping?"

I clear my throat. "No, just in bed."

"Ok. I miss you", he mutters after a short silence between us.

"I miss you too", I giggle like a little girl. I feel a sudden warmth and all of a sudden, it is clouded by worry.

I keep falling for Tony every time he says things like this to me, this is because he makes me feel special and loved.

What then will happen to me when he gets to know about my little secret? Will he get angry and leave me? I am worried and scared that I will have to face another heartbreak soon.

Cameron is now my past, Tony is my present, and my baby Lily but I don't know what the future holds. I don't know if Tony is in that future with me and I wish there is a way I can get to know if he is in my future.

I like Tony, I didn't know I liked him this much until the moment he began to ignore me. I was hurt and heartbroken, that was when it dawned on me that playing hard to get will do no good and I also realize I like him.

He is a cute guy. We haven't been intimate and I am being careful so the same mistake I made with Aidan won't repeat itself again. I like the fact that Tony is also taking things slow with me.

The day we saw Tessa was the first time he kissed me. I kept thinking of the kiss till the next day when Aidan came home and ruined my mood.

My heart went still when he placed his lips on mine and after a while when he began to move his lips on mine, my heart began to beat twice its normal rate.

The kiss reminded me of Aidan and how we produced Lily in the bathroom. I had no absolute idea when the thought of him and the kiss came to me at that moment, after so many months of not giving it any thought. After a while, I concluded that it was because the kiss was similar.

"Anna?" He calls me.

"Yes", I answer, feeling stupid for being lost in thought.

"What's the matter? I have been talking to...."

"I'm sorry, I was lost in thought", I confess.

"Lost in thoughts? What happened?"

"Nothing happened", I answer, shaking my head. I shouldn't have told him I was lost in thoughts.

"What are you thinking about, Anna? You can talk to me", he insists.

I can't tell him now, I say inwardly. I need time to think things through, compose myself on how to put it to him. I decide to change the topic. "Did you see Tessa?"

He chuckles softly. "Why are you asking about her?"

I shrug. I have no idea why I am asking either. "I know she must want to talk to you, that's why."

"Are you jealous?" He laughs again.

I roll my eyes as if he is there seeing me.

"Did she?"

"Just admit that you are jealous", he says.

"Whatever!" I don't want to admit anything.

"I was saying something earlier before you were lost in a trance", he states.

"Oh, really?" I forgot to ask him what it was he was talking about when I wasn't listening. "Sorry, what was it?"

"I was asking if we could go out tonight", he demands. I remain silent. "Please", he adds.

"Won't you go to work?" I am looking for an excuse. I would really love to go out with him but I don't want to leave my baby alone tonight and I don't want Aidan to get mad at me again.

Didn't you say you won't let him take you for a ride? My subconscious asks.

"Today is Saturday, Anna. Please, I want to have a quiet time with you."

"Tony....."

"Don't say no, please. There is something we need to talk about, Anna. We barely see each other and every time we see, it is brief. Let's go out and have a good time. I beg you to say yes", he pleads with me again. I imagine him frowning his face as he is begging me.

I sigh deeply. "Ok, fine."

"Yes!", he shrieks in excitement. "Tonight?"

"Yes, tonight but we need to be back early", I tell him my condition. I need to be back before my baby falls asleep. I am planning to go see her after this call and spend the whole day with her before it's time for the outing.

"We should leave early, then?"

"I think that's a good idea. I don't like staying out late, mom will be mad", I lie.

"Alright, I will come to pick you up by half-past 6 pm", he utters with excitement.

"Great. See you tonight, Tony", I smile, anticipating tonight and what it is he wants to tell me.

"Bye", He says and I disconnect the call. I drop the phone and smile again. I feel happy that I have given him a chance to take me out, I never knew I would be this happy.

Then, I figure out that I don't need to do things to please Aidan anymore if Tony makes me this happy. In fact, I should keep on dating Tony till Aidan gets tired of me and let me be.

But if he continues to frustrate my life and asks me to break up with Tony, I will leave this house. With my baby.

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Aidan's POV

It's been a while since I felt this way. The last time I was like this was when Lisa died. I felt guilty because I felt responsible for her death.

I felt if I had acted differently, she wouldn't have died or if I hadn't been so scared of reporting Damien to the school authorities as a witness, her death would have been avenged. But I did nothing. And the guilt ate me up for years until Paige came along and I forgot every single detail of what Lisa and I shared.

This morning, I woke up feeling guilty for making Anna cry. Even if I don't like her as a wife, I feel I should treat her right as my baby mama. My conscience kept judging me till dawn. I never thought I was going to regret my actions but here I am regretting every bit of it.

I feel like going to tell her I did not mean what I said to her last night and she can go ahead to date whoever she wants, no matter how many they are, but something keeps holding me back. I still don't want her to date anyone.

Why? I have no idea why. I just don't want it.

I tossed in bed for several hours last night before sleep eluded me.

I just finished taking my bath and getting dressed for work. I am hoping I won't end up sleeping in the office with the way I am feeling right now. I don't know what to call it. Apart from my conscience judging me, I feel weak and sleepy.

I am tempted to go back to bed and sleep for another hour before going to work but I have an appointment by 9 am and it is already half past 8 am. I groan lightly as I wear my suit and my shoes in a rush.

I pick up my bag and move out when I am done dressing. I see Tania coming towards my room and when she sees me, she greets me. "Good morning, sir."

"Morning, where is my baby?" I ask her. She is Lily's nanny.

"She is with her mother", she replies. I nod and she walks past me.

I usually go see my baby before leaving for work. She is my good luck charm but now that I am told that she is with her mother, I guess I will have to go to work without seeing her. I am embarrassed about what happened yesterday and I don't want to face Anna yet.

I don't know what she will think of me commanding her not to date anyone yet. It sounds ridiculous to my ears right now but I think I find myself liking the idea. I guess I just want her to concentrate on taking care of our baby till she is old enough to point out the right from the wrong.

I exhale deeply and take long strides towards the door. I need to be fast about getting to work. I barely go to work late and I don't intend to start now.

I get outside and move to the car. I open it and slump into the chair, after dropping my briefcase on the other seat. I wear my seatbelt and ignite the car engine into action. I drive off.