The Girl He Craves novel (Sophie and Aiden) novel Chapter 57

Sophie’s pov

I’m trembling in his presence, scared of his anger and what he’d say or do. I knew he would not physically hurt me but mentally, he just might I try to push up my armor around my heart before it’s too late.

Because whatever I say now, would only push me into more hot water.

“Aiden I started with a low tone but he cut me off with anger.

“Explain why I have a son that I never knew about Sophie!” He roared, storming towards me.

He’s seething and raging and his anger is validated.

I can see the storm in his blue eyes already, eyes similar to the little boy we shared.

But there’s also hurt and confusion in those depths that made my stomach twist.

I have hurt him.

I’m looking at him lost, not sure how I can explain myself without being the villain.

But I was always the villain in our story and I couldn’t convince anyone otherwise.

Aiden stops a couple of feet away from me.

His lips are curled into a snarl and he looks like he could burn the entire house down with his anger.

I have royally screwed myself.

“Aren’t you going to explain yourself, Sophie!?” He blasted rolling his eyes over my figure.

I’m in sweats and my high bun is flopping down the side of my head.

I look a mess.

He looks at me in disgust and I feel it shatter that armor I thought I placed properly.

I should’ve known that it was feeble and that I didn’t place it on correctly.

I still haven’t gotten over the spat we had in the office yet and now that he pulled the rug under my feet, I wasn’t sure I would be able to come up after that.

Aiden snorts when I don’t respond.

” And just imagine how many more years you’d keep him a secret from me if I didn’t show up here.” ” How many more years do you think it would take for him to ask about his daddy?” He snarled, his hands fisting at his sides.

I flinched.

He had every right to be angry, hell he should be even more furious.

“Were you ever going to tell me about him, Sophie?” His question had my fingers trembling so I had no choice but to cross my arms.

I look down at his expensive shoes and whispered the truth.

“I don’t know.”
Hearing my words Aiden laughed loudly.

There’s no emotion.” Great.

Fucking just great! You don’t know? That’s hilarious, fucking amusing.” I cringe at his use of language.

He was spitting them out so loudly that I know Ash could hear.

“Shhh Aiden, can you at least keep your voice down? I don’t want Ash familiar with profanities.” I whispered harshly.

“You’re concerned about the volume of my voice instead of explaining to me why you kept him away from me?!” He snapped but I’m at least relieved that the volume of his voice was admittedly lower.

I bit my lower lip and shifted on the heels of my feet.

Aiden was intimidating and when angered like this, I was a bit unsure if it was a good idea to try to make him not see me as the monster | was sure he was painting in his head about me.

| sighed heavily.

I couldn’t avoid this, he needed my explanation.

And I didn’t think he’d leave until he had it.

“Can we talk about this calmly? I don’t want Ashton scared.

He gets frightened by loud voices.” I said softly, tucking a few stray hairs behind my ear nervously.

Whatever I would say to him would obviously still leave me in a bad light in his eyes.

I was just scared of what he’d do after.

Would he want to take me to court? I’m trembling slightly by the thought but put on a brave face though inwardly I was crumbling with fear.

Aiden is seething lowly, his chest rising and falling which confirms how truly angry he was.

He looks at me coldly and then nods.

I let out a shaky breath and then started.

” I found out I was pregnant a few months after your sentencing.

I didn’t know what to do then Aiden, you were angry at me, everyone hated me and sure I had my foster parents and Mila, I was still going to be on that journey alone.

I had to grow up quicker.” I looked at him nervously as I continued.

He’s silent and though his eyes are still storming angrily, he’s listening.

“After what happened with Carson and the results after court….I knew that I couldn’t fathom the thought of ruining your life again with news of my pregnancy.

I didn’t think you’d want to talk to me far less like the news of being pregnant.”
I tore my eyes away from him and whispered.

“So I decided to
keep this away from you.

I began to regret my decision but it was already too late.

I thought you were still in jail and I didn’t think you’d ever want to see me now “That’s the thing with you Sophie,” He seethed lowly with fire of hatred as he eats the space between us.

He’s now so close that I can feel his body heat and take the whiff of his cologne.

“You never think of the consequences your decisions cause afterward.

You just decide for yourself not caring about anyone else but your fucking self.”
I flinched as he lowered his head, glaring at me in resentment.” Was this a punishment for causing Carson’s death? Did you resent me so much that you kept my son away from me?” I feel my heart shatter by his words.

How can he say something like that? I shook my head.

“This had nothing to do with Carson Aiden.it was my decision because I was scared of the way you would react.

You were in jail, furious at everyone.

There was no way you’d like the news of someone you hate pregnant for you!”
Aiden grips my arm and seethes.” You know why I was furious at everyone? Because they fucking abandoned me! Everyone turned against me including you.

That’s why I fucking hate you so damn much Sophie.

When I needed you the most, you fucking abandoned me! And now I loathe you with a passion for keeping this away from me.” | flinched, my bottom lip trembling even though I knew that I deserved his harsh words.

Aiden’s voice cracks and I can feel it in my heart.

“You made me miss his first walk, his first word, his first smile.

You’re the cruel person here Sophie and here I thought it was me.

You fucking disgust me.” Tears trail down my cheeks as I sobbed.

“I’m sorry.

I’m so sorry.

I didn’t mean to Aiden wrenches his hand away from me in disgust and takes a step back.

“Sorry isn’t going to give me the years I missed out on my son’s life.

Sorry isn’t going to fix this Sophie,” He raged on with anger spitting out of his mouth and showing in his eyes.

“I thought you were in jail Aiden!” I croaked out.

“That still isn’t an excuse to not have told me of your pregnancy Sophie.

You could’ve told me today, yesterday! But you chose to keep him a secret from me!” He snaps, the veins in his neck popping out even more.

He was right.

I was wrong for doing this.

I had made the worst decision in my life and now I was paying for it daily.

“I feared you’d not accept him Aiden.

You made it clear you regret what we’ve shared in the past and recently.” I whispered in a low cracking voice.

Aiden pinned me down with a furious glare.” Let’s make one thing clear here Sophie.

I’d never consider my son as a mistake or regret anything when it comes to him, even though his mother is you.”
He shakes his head and looks at me in disgust.

“I cannot stay here in your presence any longer,” He spat and turned around to storm towards the hallway.

An alarm went off in my head, and I’m quick on his heels.

“Where are you going?” I asked, my voice breaking.

Was he going to take Ash? My heart drops at the thought.

“I’m going to see my son.” He says coldly in a tight voice while keeping his head straight ahead.