The Vampire Teacher (GirlxGirl) novel Chapter 45

Lucia POV

So this is why she didn't tell anyone where she was going. She didn't even try to tell me, this was her plan all a long.If I'm her mate then why going around the city and kiss that girl in front of everyone even my Co works saw her.

How could she, how could she played me like that. I thought I was her mate her life, her everything how could she. i cry out hiting my fist on jacky's car when I couldn't try to get the door open.

"Oh no don't hurt my baby", she said helping to open the car for me.

I was hit by a small figure next to me holding me tight, "I'm sorry mommy Lucia." I heard LJ small crying voice.

I don't want her to feel bad for her mother's sake. I pick her up into my arms wiping her tears from her face while she did the same to me.

"It's okay baby girl, don't be, it's fine everything going to be fine." I assure her as I climb in the car with be in my arms.

She didn't wanted to leave my side so I let her stay with me on the passenger sit. My heart was broken I couldn't stop the tears and I just don't understand why it was hurting so much. I want this pain to stop, I don't care what she do it's her life is not like I have already accepted her anyway mos. But why does it hurt so much. I sobbed feeling jacky's hand on my tight while chrissy's hand was on my shoulder from the back seat. It was so quiet it was just me sobbing in the car my cries was the only thing you could heard in here.

My mind was recalling that discusting kiss of Brenda and that ugly woman in Macdonalds it was hard to try and forget it. Jacky and chrissy was trying to tell me to Relax but I couldn't LJ was holding tight on me telling me that it will be fine. It will never be fine not if I can't get rid of this feeling. It's really hard, "please help me? I cry out, it's it's hurting." I told them feeling the sting pain in my heart.

"Lucia you need to calm down please, just breath in and out please." I heard jacky's panic voice as her hold on my tights tighten.

"I can't." I breath out trying to get my breathe back, my chest was hurting and I could feel myself struggling to breathe.

Chrissy was the brave one she was massaging my shoulders while LJ hold my crying mess face into her small soft hands begging me not to breakdown, while she was crying with me.

"We need to get her home right now! jacky shouted, as she step on the car driving so fast.

" Mommy please just breathe in and out. "LJ told me with her small crying voice still holding my face into her small soft cold hands.

My head was spinning, I'm feeling dizzy grabbing hold on my paining chest. "how could she, I'm her mate she needed to kiss me Like that", I cry out, Doesn't she love me, am I not enough for her, is this what it is, I'm not enough to be her mate?I asked.

"No no no Lucia is not true", jacky spoke.

"Who was that girl, who was she, why was she kissing her then?,i asked crying.

" It's her ex girlfriend. "I heard Jacky.

" I see, why meeting her ex then if she has a mate, if I was really her mate.

We got to the castle and my jaw drop on how beautiful it was, it was my first time seeing it and I'm loving it so much.There was a lot of cars parking outside, the meeting must be still on and I wanted to be alone just for some time.

"The meeting is not over yet." Jacky spoke. Suddenly the doors of the castle open big man's with black suits coming out. I wanted to climb out but was grabbed by a strong hold on my wrist, "no Lucia we need to wait for them to leave okay", she told smiling at me.

When the were gone I put LJ down and run up to my room closing the door behind me falling down to my knees crying my eyes out. I didn't know how long I was crying I lay on the floor with my eyes closed thinking about ways to forget about Brenda. I need to forget about her I don't wanna see her again I'm done.

There was a knock on the door, hearing my mom's voice, "my baby it's almost dinner please I need you to come down okay, I know it's hard for you but we need to respect Mrs Mr swartz darling mommy loves you." mom said making me cry again. I stand up from the floor and pick my phone up from the desk seeing a message from Monique, oh God I have forget about such friend.

Monique :HI love I'm sorry about what happen today, I missed you Norma is going to visit you later on but if you don't mind coming out with us tonight you can came with your friends, inform me please.

I need to go out it will do me good. Sometime alone and with strangers. I went and have a quick shower. After showering I went downstairs to the dining room hearing talks and laughter feeling very embarrassed they must have heard by now what had happen today and I don't want them to feel sorry for me really. I just wish things was better.

I sighted taking deep breaths before opening the door and walk in seeing everyone's attention was on me not worrying about all the stares. I walk straight to my chair greeting everyone and taking my sit next to my LJ Who sits on her mother's chair. Thanks God she is not here I don't know what tantrum I would have throw if she was here I sight taking deep breaths relaxing my fast beating heart.

I help myself getting some food on my plate not so many just some bake chicken with salads because I was not hungry. I didn't know what had happen with the talks and laughter, I just heard few minutes ago because it's now quiet all a sudden and it's bothering me.

I see no one wants to talk since I'm Here, I don't see any reason for me To sit here because it's strange before I came here they laughed and talk but now they have swallow they tongues. I grabbed my Plate and walk out of there saying nothing and went straight down the hall to the TV room. Hearing small foots step following me knowing who it was. I sit down on the couch looking at LJ who stand at door with her plate in her hand looking very sad.

"Can I sit with you? she asked me, Looking down to her feet, making me feeling very sad.

" You don't have to asked baby girl please come", I told her smiling at her. She join me on the couch while I go through the TV finding something to watch.

" Do you want us to watch something while we eat?I asked her.

" Yes please", she spoke with chicken in her mouth making me chuckled.

"What? I asked.

"frozen", she said standing up and grabb a disk and put it on for us.

"So you two watch alone tv leaving us alone with the old boring people." I heard Jacky spoke behind us seeing her and chrissy join us.

Jacky was having a glass of red wine if it is wine and chrissy a big lace chips in her hands propping her mouth full with it making me smirk at her.

"You choose mos to sit with them." I told them looking at the TV.

"Did you receive the message from Monique? I heard the voice I have missed so miss standing up from the couch and run up into her arms hugging her very tightly.

" I have missed you so much"" I told her, crying in her shoulder she holds me tight too.

"Okay now it's fine I'm here now", she spoke caressing my back.

I wipe my tears smiling at her, "if you going to join us then Yes I'm in for the night", I told her smiling.

"And you guys? she asked chrissy and Jacky who look so confuse.

" You didn't told them? she asked me with a grin on her face.

"I'm going to." I responded hugging her with my left arm.

"We going out tonight guys and we going to try out our new clothes." I spoke happily hearing them laughing.

"Lucia." I heard chrissy who looked at me with worried eyes.

"Are you all right? she asked me.

" If you guys don't wanna join us then stay here with your boring people I'm going out. "I told them.

" Will you wait for me, I'm just going to puff and puff my face", I wink at norma.

"You going to find me here", she said.