You Owe Me, My Love novel Chapter 80

Bai Rong was calm as she looked at Su Xuyan, “My personal matters have nothing to do with him. I don’t have feelings for him, so don’t get him mixed up in this.”

Su Xuyan smiled as he stared at Bai Rong, “Are you defending him? Or are you just afraid of me? I’m surprised to see how powerful I am to you.”

“I’m just being realistic. I couldn’t know a person well in four years, let alone a month. I know what I want.” Bai Rong said rationally.

“It’s best if you really think so. I’ll also warn you not to fall in love with Gu Mingchen, because he won’t love you. There’s someone else he loves.” Su Xuyan said with certainty.

Bai Rong showed no emotion except for her eyes that looked slightly tired, “Let’s get back to business. You’re finished if I release this video.”

“What do you mean finished?” Su Xuyan asked as he gracefully took a sip of his coffee.

The way he was being too calm about it was scary.

“I’m talking about your future in politics. A married man like yourself having intercourse with other women like that. Or must you see the video yourself?” Bai Rong played the video on her phone and handed it to him.

Su Xuyan watched the video. It was 30 minutes long and the events took place after he came out of the police station late at night yesterday.

A fierce look flashed through his eyes, “You’ve installed a pinhole camera in the bathroom.”

Bai Rong lowered her gaze and closed her eyes.

Xing Jinnian was the one who installed the pinhole camera, but Bai Rong didn’t want to ruin their relationship at the moment, so she took the blame.

“Let’s just get a divorce, Su Xuyan. You know your videos on Liu Yan involve the prince as well. Just as you wouldn’t easily upload it online, I won’t upload this either. All I want is a peaceful life, and won’t affect your future.” Bai Rong said softly.

“Hmph!” Su Xuyan slammed the mug heavily on the table, spilling some of the coffee out, “Didn’t Gu Mingchen tell you? I’ve already resigned. Do you think I’m afraid of your video?”

Bai Rong was shocked, “You’ve resigned?!”

Su Xuyan tapped the table lightly, “Is it that strange that I don’t care much for a minor position like the deputy director of the Ministry of Health?”

Bai Rong felt a chill travel from her head to toe.

She had thought that she was close to being free from this hell, and had worked hard for it. But in the end, she was nothing more than a circus clown to Su Xuyan.

Tears flowed silently from her eyes as she felt disappointed and terrifyingly hollow on the inside, having given her all for nothing.

“Su Xuyan, if there is a next life, I never want to meet you nor fall in love with you ever again.” Bai Rong kept her phone and stood up.

“Hold it right there.” Su Xuyan called out and frowned at her.

Her tears seemed to have softened his heart a little.

“Why are you crying?” Su Xuyan asked.

Bai Rong smiled, realizing she shouldn’t have cried as it wouldn’t solve anything.

“A person like you would never understand people like us who struggle with all our might just to survive. I don’t think I owe you anything more. If you still aren’t satisfied, I’ll pay you with my life. At least my soul will be free that way.” Bai Rong said coldly and walked towards the door.

Su Xuyan grabbed hold of her arm and his eyes narrowed as he stared at her pale face, “What do you mean by that?”

Bai Rong took a deep breath as she looked at him.

He had the looks of an angel but the heart of a devil.

“I just feel so tired. Perhaps I’ve done a lot of bad things in my past life, so I’m destined to never be happy in this life. I don’t need you to remember me, but you are forever in my debt and will suffer in your next life.” Bai Rong said as she tried to brush his arm off, but his grip was tight and he wouldn’t let go.

Bai Rong felt her arm going numb from the pain and stared coldly at him.

“Why must you get divorced? I can give you an easy life and plenty of money, isn’t that enough for you? You even hold the title of Mrs. Su! You have so much more than Xing Jinnian, and yet you want to die?” Su Xuyan couldn’t understand her.

“I need money that is not given by others, but earned by myself so that I may use it with a clear conscience. I want a marriage that is loyal, and the easy life that I seek is a peace of mind, to feel warmth when I come home instead of desolation.” Bai Rong smiled, “Someone like you won’t understand, because you don’t even want to love.”

“Then what about you? You claim to love me but you’re being with Gu Mingchen. Is that how you show your love?” Su Xuyan broke out of his usual graceful character and showed his true emotions.

“Why would I be so sad if I didn’t love you? Seeing you with other women felt like I was being cut on my heart with a knife. Your name was the only one on my heart, but you cut it all off and turned me into someone who doesn’t know how to love as well. Do you still think I would be able to love anyone now? I won’t. In fact, I don’t even know what meaning there is for me to keep living now!” Bai Rong got worked up as well, her veins protruding from her neck.

Even she found herself hideous at that time.

Su Xuyan stared blankly at Bai Rong, “The women who are with me are willing to share me with others. They would not be angry or sad, and treated each other like sisters.”

Bai Rong didn’t want to say anything anymore, as Su Xuyan would never understand how he had hurt her.

Perhaps, she should never have given him her love to begin with.

She had thought that she wouldn’t cry anymore, but a wall in her heart was broken and her tears started falling as soon as she turned away.

She was crying out tears that were suppressed during the past three three years.

“Go be with other women then.” Bai Rong wanted to smile but couldn’t bring herself to.

She shouldn’t have blamed Su Xuyan, as she had only herself to blame for loving him when all he wanted was to fool around.

She wanted to maintain her pride in the very last moment.

Su Xuyan felt a slight pain in his heart as he looked at Bai Rong.

He didn’t want Bai Rong to die.

“Alright, I agree to divorce you.” Su Xuyan said.

Bai Rong looked suspiciously at Su Xuyan; her eyes red from crying.

She couldn’t believe that he would actually agree to divorce her.

“But, I have a request. You must meet me twice a week, and not less than three hours each time. Don’t worry, I won’t lay a hand on you unless you want me to. There are plenty of women who would let me, and I simply don’t have the patience to play games with you. However, you must come to the designated location whenever I summon you.” Su Xuyan said.

Even he didn’t understand why he came up with such a strange condition.

Perhaps he was worried that he would never be able to see her again, so at least he could still see her twice a week with such a condition.

He didn’t want to lose her completely.