You Owe Me, My Love novel Chapter 152

He was very dominant and strong, just like in her memories.

Wild and domineering, not allowing any resistance.

She was completely at his mercy.

She didn’t want to go back to the past where every day was spent in despair, so she tried her best to force her lips shut in order to keep him out.

But her resistance only fueled his desire to dominate her, and he kissed her even more aggressively as his hand slid into her skirt.

Bai Rong opened her eyes widely in fear, but was unable to make a single sound nor struggle free.

He insists on making me love him again, but what next? What will happen after I do?!

He has forgotten about me completely, so I can only watch him love another woman while I love him deeply.

I’ll become the target of public criticism, while he’ll be able to let go of me so freely and easily.

If Su Xuyan had taught her about sadness and anger, then Gu Mingchen had taught her despair.

Despair to the point that she was still seriously ill and could not save herself.

She could pretend to be fine and cheerful during the day. At night, however, her emotions would return to the way they were from three years ago when she slit her wrists.

As long as she was alive, she would be alone as no one could warm her ice-cold heart.

Even in death, she would still be alone in the world of darkness enjoying her solitude.

She was living her life like a ghost, watching the lives of others, as she felt that her own life had already ended when she slit her wrists three years ago.

She was living her life the way others wanted her to live, but her heart was already dead.

As Gu Mingchen forcefully thrust himself into her, Bai Rong felt nothing but humiliation and anger as she lay motionless and stared coldly at him.

Gu Mingchen noticed that she had stopped struggling and stopped as he stared at her.

“Chief, are you going to force yourself on me like this? You hold such a high position and could have any woman you like. Even if you did rape me, I don’t think I’d be able to sue you, would I?” Bai Rong said coldly.

“You think I’m raping you?” Gu Mingchen asked.

“Do I look like I’m enjoying it?” Bai Rong asked sarcastically.

“Then enjoy it.” Gu Mingchen said.

He didn’t even know why he would behave so wildly towards her.

Actually, he had already found his act of inviting her over to his house after meeting her on the train to be crazy enough.

He just had some sort of special feeling towards her that he couldn’t understand.

Every time he dreamt of that girl crying and asking him to come back, he would feel an inexplicable pain in his chest. It would hurt so much that he couldn’t sleep and wished that he could just cut his heart out.

He wanted answers, but his parents and friends stopped him from getting them. And now, even she was stopping him from getting the answers he was looking for.

The more they tried to stop him, the more determined he was to find his answers, even if it meant destroying himself in the process.

Gu Mingchen kissed her again, and she pursed her lips immediately in response.

He tried sucking hard on her lips till they were swollen and kept his gaze focused on her every expression, hoping to see her arousal.

However, she showed no sign of it.

She too, stared back at him, her expression filled with disdain, pride and arrogance as she was a rather feisty woman as well.

He gripped her chin and said with hatred, “Didn’t you say that you couldn’t do anything even if I forced myself on you? So are you hoping me to do so or not?”

“I don’t.” Bai Rong said without hesitation.

“Then behave.” Gu Mingchen said.

Bai Rong felt like she was being torn apart by him.

She had not been with any other men in the past three years, so all she felt was pain, both physical and mental.

She refused to cry but her tears flowed uncontrollably, while his eyes were filled with nothing but a cold gaze.

She wondered what Gu Mingchen had gone through in the past three years after losing his memories to have become so cruel like this.

Bai Rong went from sobbing to wailing as she knew that Gu Mingchen wouldn’t treat her like this if he had not lost his memories.

However, there was no such thing as ‘what if’ in this world.

Gu Mingchen softened up, and leaned over to kiss her tears.

They tasted salty.

He kissed her from the corner of her eyes to her cheeks and her lips.

He became gentler in his continuous barrage of kisses, and let go of her ankle.

He had her sit on him, and they both sat face to face with each other.

He stared into her eyes, and she felt embarrassed about how she had wailed uncontrollably earlier.

She was no longer a little girl, nor was it her first time, yet she cried like she was a young virgin girl.

She looked away.

She wasn’t upset that they had sex, but that the Gu Mingchen she knew was nowhere to be found, be it in life or in death.

She sobbed in silence.

“Is it your fertile period now?” Gu Mingchen asked.

She would’ve said yes anyway, even if she wasn’t. “Don’t ejaculate inside.”

“Okay.” Gu Mingchen responded.

Bai Rong didn’t even know when it ended.

It had far exceeded her expectations to have sex with him on her first day back in the country.

She couldn’t let it go on like this.

Gu Mingchen was very aggressive in the process, and had probably realized that he might have been too rough on her as he was very gentle when he helped to wipe her clean afterwards.

Bai Rong was angry at his tyrannical behavior and brushed his hand off as she cleaned herself up.

“Did it feel alright when I did it from behind?” Gu Mingchen asked.

Bai Rong rolled her eyes at him in disgust, and he knew that she must have been feeling uncomfortable.

She refused to answer the question, “You may go now, Chief. I want to take a shower.”

“Is there a direct relation between you showering and having me leave?” Gu Mingchen frowned.

Bai Rong tossed a pillow at him in response, but he caught it easily, “You sure have quite a temper.”

He placed the pillow behind her and stared at her as he thought about how he had suddenly felt that she was the one he was looking for.

He felt at ease when he was certain that he must have loved her deeply before.

But what about her?

Did she really not love me like she said in her story?

He felt uncomfortable at the thought of that.

“What do you plan to do next?” Gu Mingchen asked rationally.